Mystical Flame

all last

2005-12-28T14:07:00.000+08:00

this is my 400th [WOAH..] and my last post. sorry there wont be any pictures... maybe i'll edit it later. yepps...

i just want to say... if you people dun blame me for all the things i've said.. why are they being so hostile towards me? if you people still love me, why would they misunderstand me? if you people treats me as a friend, why would they not believe in me, and quickly hated me instead of asking me for an explanation? if they really treasure this friendship, why cant they take the initiative to repair it? why cant they be like alena? alena, she heard about what laytin or others said, but at least, she called up and asked me. unlike others. maybe that shows she's the only true friend in there. and since she's leaving, i felt no.. no need for my presence in there.

i dun wanna cry everytime i think of hgpt.
i dun wanna cry when i go home.
i dun wanna cry when people ask me why im leaving.
i dun wanna cry no more.

i know what renyong, pin, shankar, denise and alena said makes sense. well... maybe working at macs, or being in the service line jus aint my type. i joined macs cos cherina joined too. i wont be at macs for long, its a matter of now or later. so... this is the end. im leaving.

shankar asked me 'why wont i go and clear up the misunderstandings?' well... like i've said, they've chose to abide by their thinkings, rather than asking me the reason for everything. since they dun have the intention to clear the misunderstandings, well... jus let them be. cos for everything i've said, i never want to harm them, or backstabb them or anything. yes, maybe keeping quiet and jus allowing things to settle down on its own is the best, but... why wont you do something to make it better? haiz... maybe im too young to understand again... if i have a choice... i would definitely make life better for me, and not jus sitting there, waiting for things to come to me. maybe we're jus too different people. i understand. that's why i chose to leave.

denise asked me, 'havent your last failure told you anything? havent your last failure told you to treasure any chances that comes to you, and never give up on anything that might make your life better? or even to clear up the misunderstandings.' [oh, she's refering to the incident with erena.] yes, i've learnt that. but i've also learn that... you cant change people. no matter how you say, they still have their thinkings. i know if i've told them everything, or even talk to them, i know they will still 'blame' me. and we will never go back to what we are like in the past. i think... time is the only cure for this incident. i know i will forget hgpt. i know i will forget all the unhappiness. i know i will forget all the hurt and pain i felt. its only a matter of time. i know i will. cos i've still my dodos with me. i've still got my pillows. i've still got qin ai de, nicholyn, shankar, ah hong auntie and alena. i've still got denise, jun an and weizheng with me. and what's more. i've got God beside me. im already very blessed. too greedy is not good. enough is okay le.

renyong said, 'theres always misunderstandings, and everyone does wrong things, and why blame myself. maybe staying on, a better me might come out.' yes i agree with him. and i did consider what he said. first, i dunno what he heard, but how did things come out this way is all my fault. i really blame myself for this. as for staying on... haiz.. im sorry, but im really too tired to carry on. everyone's so... hurtful. even my best manager is like that. and macs is really not my place to stay. i can always train myself to a better person in school. at least i've got my friends there. and i wont causes anyone to lose their job or something. and at least, if i've ever done wrong things, the consequences wont be that big. all the most, its jus a few broken hearts, buckets of tears and failing results. really, im too young to handle the society. maybe school's still the best for me. and you might never know, i might score very good results and i can fulfill my dreams! my dreams is not being a manager or restauranteur or whatever. its a director! =) yes! so... i hope you guys can be happy for me if one day i've fulfilled my dreams. and not regretting or being sad of my absence in hgpt. this incident is really a big lesson. and i've learnt it. and i will never forget it.

pin asked, 'does people really affects my passion so much? and said maybe i dun have to comply to other people's thinkings.' like i've said, maybe my passion is not macs. i dun have the drive or motivation to continue it despite all the troubles and obstacles. im not complying to them or something. its my choice afterall, to leave hgpt. many various reasons or things might have been the cause of my leaving, but its still ME who decides to leave in the end. as for working per normal... i jus dun wanna leave hgpt crying everytime i go home. im not that strong as you. or mature like you. im still a kid. jus let me go back to the world where all i have to care is studies. and not gapbusters, holding time, SOC, and blah blah. you get me? yes, it maybe is a pity that im leaving the store now, when i've learnt almost all the basic stuff and is going to be promoted. but... that's not i really want. if someone present you a delicious hot steamy bowl of laksa, and its very famous in SG. if you're one that cant take spice and eating grossly dirty looking soup noodles, do you think you will eat it? no. yes, its a pity to throw it away, cos of the money and effect to cook it. but if you eat it, you might throw up and upset your stomach. if worse, you might lose your sense of taste. i dun wan that. if i cant take it, means i wont take it. i dun wanna hurt myself.

delp and viet asked me, 'why not overcoming that obstacles? treat it as a challenge.' im too tired. there's no encouragement from my fellow colleagues. and considering the condition now, i not only have to overcome the barrier of my low confidence. but the tension and treatment from my colleagues. and school. and o level. and my friends at school. i've alot of catch up. and i really have no energy to battle here. since i've a choice to leave, why not jus leave macs. life would be better and i might excel better there. like delp said, i dont have a family to feed[except for my hamster laa...] leaving macs is jus.. leaving a place where you can earn extra bucks and make more friends. that's all. i wont die without macs. if right now, i want to take the challenge, i might break down. cos i've no confidence in doing so. mrs tan once said to us in OM, if you have no mind to win, you have already lost the competition. so.. if i dun have the confidence and stength, do you think i will be able to overcome them? no. so.. i've decided to leave.

weizheng said, 'why not take a long break? maybe what you've done is at a moment of anger?' yeah.. i did consider that. but... you look at my colleagues. even if i take a long break. they'll still be like that. i rather i leave, let them settle down and eventually forget me and my mistakes. maybe occassionally saying, 'i miss ah ming's laughter'. im already very happy. i dun wan them to rmb my mistakes, i rather they rmb me as a crew who is cheerful and crazy and is always late. i dun wan to have tension and anxiety during my break. a break means relaxation. but if i spent my time worrying if i go back hgpt, would they still hate me, this is not a break. this is more of avoiding and keeping myself to my depression. so yes, leaving. end everything.

i hope whatever i've said here cleared everything. dun try to argue. i've already handed up my letter. im jus waiting for the talk with boss and for her to approve it. meanwhile, a very big sorry to those who i've hurt or those who think i shld stay on. i hope you guys understand how i felt. if one day, i become a very famous director, trust me, i wont forget you people. thanks! =) if you people wants to contact me, i still got my hp. i wont let my mum cut the line off again! i promise. =D as for now... all the best to my friends. thank you for all the things you all have done for me. i will be praying for you guys. jiayou! i shall end here then. =) sayanora!

2005-12-26T12:31:00.000+08:00

"Have You Ever"

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over

Knowing there's so much more to say

Suddenly the moment's gone

And all your dreams are upside down

And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together

Back in your arms where I belong

Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found

I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)

Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

i cant believe i've cried so much.

but that's not much compared to the pain and hurt i felt.

maybe it's time to go.

maybe its time to learn to let go.

im not giving up.

im jus too tired to carry on.

carry on with the flow.

carry on with the arguments.

carry on with the battles of misunderstandings.

maybe it's jus time to let go.

maybe i should have gone,

when cherina left too.

maybe im jus too young to understand.

how people would care for themselves,

than the people who cared for them most.

i know many people now hates me for all the things i've said to laytin.

but i jus wanna let her know how we felt.

maybe you all will feel better to talk behind her back.

but THINK!

if someone dont like you,

and they talk behind your back.

how would you feel?

dun you wanna be better?

so that people would accept you?

i rather be frank.

its being unfair to both parties.

its not a real relationship.

forget it then,

if you think this will harm you[or the r/s],

telling the person how you really feel.

cos you are not being true to this r/s.

fine, you want to be like this.

im jus feeling sad for this.

im gonna close this site soon. perhaps, after the next post which will have some pictures. im really sick of everything. and i've decided to leave HGPT. maybe my leaving will do you guys good. no more of me, telling laytin or the boss how you all felt. maybe you all will feel better this way. maybe you all will feel more secure. thanks for all the memories though...

thanks alena and nicholyn. =)

TEARS TO SHED
-the corpse bride

MAGGOT
What does that whispy little brat have that you don't have double?

BLACK WIDOW
She can't hold a candle to the beauty of your smile

CORPSE BRIDE
How about a pulse?

MAGGOT
Overrated by a mile

BLACK WIDOW
Overbearing

MAGGOT
Overblown

MAGGOT AND BLACK WIDOW
If he only knew the you that we know

CORPSE BRIDE
(sigh)

BLACK WIDOW
And that silly little creature isn't wearing his ring

MAGGOT
And she doesn't play piano

MAGGOT AND BLACK WIDOW
Or dance

MAGGOT
Or sing

MAGGOT AND BLACK WIDOW
No she doesn't compare

CORPSE BRIDE
But she still breathes air

BLACK WIDOW
Who cares?

MAGGOT
Unimportant

BLACK WIDOW
Overrated

MAGGOT
Overblown

MAGGOT AND BLACK WIDOW
If only he could see
How special you can be
If he only knew the you that we know

CORPSE BRIDE
If I touch a burning candle I can feel the pain
If you cut me with a knife it's still the same
And I know her heart is beating
And I know that I am dead
Yet the pain here that I feel
Try and tell me it's not real
For it seems that I still have a tear to shed

MAGGOT
The sure redeeming feature
From that little creature
Is that she's alive

BLACK WIDOW
Overrated

MAGGOT
Overblown

BLACK WIDOW
Everybody know that's just a temporary state
Which is cured very quickly when we meet our fate

MAGGOT
Who cares?

BLACK WIDOW
Unimportant

MAGGOT
Overrated

BLACK WIDOW
Overblown

MAGGOT AND BLACK WIDOW
If only he could see
How special you can be
If he only knew the you that we know

CORPSE BRIDE
If I touch a burning candle I can feel no pain
In the ice or in the wun it's all the same
Yet I feel my heart is aching
Though it doesn't beat it's breaking
And the pain here that I feel
Try and tell me it's not real
I know that I am dead
Yet it seems that I still have some tears to shed

this is jus so weird

2005-12-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

things spreaded rather fast. nicholyn actually heard abt it too. let's see... this happened on 930am and by 5pm, those not working at macs actually heard about it too. wonderful.

today's probably my second worse day. i mean, apart from sch and home, hgpt probably's my second home to me. i jus cant believe i've jus walked out of it today.

haiz.

i seriously cannot understand laytin. and i dun wan to work with her. i cant adapt her. let alone to work well in her style. i really cant get her. does she really has any, jus ANY feelings for her fellow crews and managers? is really attaining good results matter? is it more impt than building good friendship and trust between your colleagues?

im really offended by the she speaks. her TONE especially. she may THINK she is not offending, but we may feel that way. not everyone knows how she's trying to convey, what's her true meaning and intention. but her tone is always suggesting things that are totally different from her mind. haiz. i really dun wanna think about her.

for the first time in my life, working is actually... i mean, i HATE WORKING. call me emotional or whatever. i am emotional because i can feel emotions from my fellow people. i can FEEL and understand. unlike you. you probably can feel too, but you chose to put your feelings first and building this store as cold-blooded as your ex-store.

yes, things between me and laytin is going down and down and down. think im not gonna be promoted afterall. after this complete fiasco. wonderful. now everybody knows about it, the thing between me and laytin. great! go on. everybody's gonna saying how mental huiming is. fancy talking to laytin like this. but there's something i hate about hgpt is that, nobody seemed to dare to talk to their boss in this way. as in, they dun dare to talk to their boss abt their probs? what's wrong with talking to your boss? i mean, be honest!! i hate it man! im probably the only one who dares to speak up.

oh forget it. i think im gonna get loads of lecture talks tmr or the day after tmr, about my wonderful performance today. delp's gonna go hysterical. hahaha... when i told mum abt it... she didnt feel angry. but she agreed with my resignation. as in, if i cant work well with the boss, why not jus leave. can concentrate on my studies. im not sure if im gonna tender... but, i know i will miss hgpt alot. i mean, there's alot of memories there. and i dun wanna leave that place jus because of a boss that still dun understand us. and is always wanting us to do it HER way. that sucked.

meanwhile, i jus hope people would stop asking me about the event today with laytin. cos i dun wanna cry again. i've said what i've said, no point asking me why i do this or what. i dun wanna say the whole event again, cos it's painful. wish tina's back here. she would probably advice me not to bring personal feelings to work and be happy instead of upset. try to adapt laytin and give us/her some time to build up friendship. there's nothing immediate. and tina'll probably say, 'this is working. we work with different people with different character.' yeah.. i know... at least tina would say this comforting and encouraging words. whereas laytin words jus pierce every confidence and ego of mine. like im a mad person. one that only can be corrected, and not taught.

i hate working. i hate myself. i hate this christmas.

if you people have TRULY known me, i would NEVER HAVE HURT ANY OF YOU PEOPLE. if you all are gonna think that way, so be it then. if our friendship is only until this line, okay. forget it. because i know, anything that i've said, you wont believe it. i have nothing to gain to accuse you or whatever. but it hurts me alot to know that our friendship is so superficial and shallow. i cant believe knowing you people for so long, you all actually think im this type of person. okay. fine. no more.

2005-12-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

12 Days of Christmas

On the first day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
A Partridge in a Pear Tree

On the second day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
2 Turtle Doves
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree

On the third day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
3 French Hens
2 Turtle Doves
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree

On the fourth day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
4 Calling Birds
3 French Hens
2 Turtle Doves
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree

On the fifth day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
5 Golden Rings
4 Calling Birds
3 French Hens
2 Turtle Doves
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree

On the sixth day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
6 Geese a Laying
5 Golden Rings
4 Calling Birds
3 French Hens
2 Turtle Doves
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree

On the seventh day of Christmas
my true love sent to me:
7 Swans a Swimming
6 geese a laying
5 golden rings
4 calling birds
3 french hens
2 turtle doves
and a partridge in a pear trea

on the eighth day of christmas
my true love gave to me:
8 maids a milking
7 swans a swimming
6 geese a laying
5 golden rings
4 calling birds
3 french hens
2 turtle doves
and a partridge in a pear tree

on the ninth day of christmas
my true love sent to me:
9 ladies a dancing
8 maids a milking
7 swans a swimming
6 geese a laying
5 golden rings
4 calling birds
3 french hens
2 turtle doves
and a partridge in a pear tree

on the tenth day of christmas
my true love sent to me:
10 lords a leaping
9 ladies a dancing
8 maids a milking
7 swans a swimming
6 geese a laying
5 golden rings
4 calling birds
3 french hens
2 turtle doves
and a partridge in a pear tree

on the eleventh day of christmas
my true love sent to me:
11 pipers piping
10 lords a leaping
9 ladies a dancing
8 maids a milking
7 swans a swimming
6 geese a laying
5 golden rings
4 calling birds
3 french hens
2 turtle doves
and a pratridge in a pear tree

on the twelfth day of christmas
my true love sent to me:
12 drummers drumming
11 pipers pipping
10 lords a leaping
9 ladies dancing
8 maids a milking
7 swans a swimming
6 geese a laying
5 golden rings
4 calling birds
3 french hens
2 turtle doves
and a partridge in a pear tree

and a partridge in a pear tree~

hehs! i love this song! though its abit.. i mean, its a group song. one cant possibly sing it. its tooooo... loooong winded. yepps yepps.

ive been blogging daily cos i got intereseting days these few days. yepps! lets talk about ytd!

yesterday... i went compass point with nic! went her house first to have breakfast. bread with ham and eggs! yum! =)) next... i wathced them play the com for awhile then me and nic went off.

bought lotsa stuff!! ohmygosh! so happy! i liked the one i bought for the dodos. i think its nice. (: really creative. thanks to nic! she helped me loads!

so.. after shopping... for like 4hrs... we went mos burger to eat. saw kat and alena! both are sick... so they went to see doctore together. hope they are fine!

and my arms and face are burning man! really got a burn and a tan. ((: except for the stupid tan-line i had on my arm...

so after lunch, we went back to nic's house to wrap. hehs. she provided to the papers. so didnt spent much money. (= we wrapped amd wrap. got loads to wrap. thanks nic again for helping me to wrap! ohyea! hadda thanks my best manager for letting me go work late. hehehehs! thanks joyce!

so we wrapped and wrapped. nic's brother damn funny. he was like saying, 'eh, come and stay at our house someday laa. bring your friends also. bring alot alot alot. i liked to entertain people.' wahh... imagine i take the whole dodos to their house to stay. sooooo super crowded. hahahahs. but think someday i'll escape to her house again. =) their family is very nice!!

so.. left their house at 615pm. took train then bus home. was damn late for work. like... 2mins late? hahahaha... did counter. went hyper. hahaha. cos i jus bought loads and loads and loads of presents! so happy! satisfied. =)

did and did. got abit pissed by laytin. hehs. cos i think she's fierce. but she said she's not. and argued back. heheheh... i can see yunfu grinning behind her back. i retorted back... but lost the argument. haiz... suddenly i missed tina sooooo much. cos tina would never talk to me like that. i mean, she would not correct me in those forms. made me feel so...what. ohwells.... i miss TINA!! I WANT HER BACKKKK!!

mao ze dong like want to tell the whole world im his junior. wahlao... siao. dun wan to be his junior. =(

anyway, left store after 11pm. took 315.

today

went to work. but was late by 2mins again! did counter. SIAN LAA. hate breakfast counter. think i was a bit whiny... feel bad for yunfu. these few days i felt very happy when i see yunfu. i think yunfu's really creative. and she always has a way to solve our problems! hehehs. love yunfu! i wanna be her son's godsister. or godauntie also can laa. =)

mmm.. did counter and felt pessimistic about my working skills. like what xueqin said, you cant choose who to work with, or what to work at. but... i couldnt do that. haiz... think this is one part i gotta learn. yepps! :)

do and do, went for break. then.. went back counter. hehs. delp got work today!! hehehehe. so happy. anyway.. i wanna tag along with kenny for his NSRS cos i wanna see tina. but.. aiyah.. they down crew.. so cant do much. haiz..

was very very sian at counter. tired to be exact. haiz...so.. i do and do... finally can punch out! so happpy. according to alicia, she said im PMS-ing. cos my mood is like, go up then down. like rollercoaster. hahaha.

anyway,thanks xueren and alicia for their cards! thanks thanks! =)) xueren's really sunburnt!! her shoulders' really red. but all of us are happy with our burns and tans! hehs! lets go sentosa again!!

anyway, xueqin came and we sat and talk and talk. ohyea! i had a new number!! yepps! so use the new number to contact me yea?

went to buy some stuff with ah hong auntie and xueqin. yepps. went ntuc. nothing muchh. went back to store to discuss about the door gift. then... took the wrappers then went home.

IM SO GLAD mum bought dinner for me. cos im starving. chicken rice! my favourite! ((: i really like eating chicken rice. dunno why. lalala. =)

went to bath and here i am. tmr meeting mandy ar 1045am to buy the rice burger promotional stuff at bras basah. hehehs. cant wait. its another exciting day tmr! shall sleep soon! but before i sleep, i shall go write all the christmas cards! yepps! see ya then!

ohyea, i finally bought bon jovi's 'have a nice day'. SO NICEEE!! ohmygosh!! i really liked them. esp. have a nice day!! loveit loveit loveit!

tata~

SU GU KIA!

2005-12-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

i've loads to write today! im jus back from bathing. ((: went sentosa with xueqin and wu nai nai today. yepps! so happpy!

16/12
accompany mum to hospital. yepps. some checkups laa. mmm, was terribly late for the meeting with xueqin, xueren, alicia and renyong. paiseh lehh... yeps. so met up with them at the bus stop. woahh.. so long never see renyong... its like... he cut his hair until... i mean, its so unlike him. not like the 'old' renyong i know. hahas. and he's sooo much darker than me. ohmygosh.

anyway, we went kat's house! yepps. nothing much laa... watch tv and drink water. talk abit. then discuss abt our christmas party. yepps. then xueren had to leave.. cos she meeting her brother to watch chicken little. yeahh... so renyong brought her down. mmm... renyong called for pizza and we watched the 'qing chun yu lan' or something laa. talk somemore, then alena came. yepps. ((:

we chatted and 1hr+ passed liao, still the pizza delivery not there. gotten quite hungry liao.. haha. then kelvin or kevin, i dunno, came. yeah.. then renyong started telling us his life in army. yepps. sound interesting. haha. then...pizza came and we went to eat. eat and eat. then alena went home. yepps.

then alicia, kat, renyong and the kelvin/kevin played mahjong while me and xueqin watched the last episode of 'rainbow connection'. yepps. mmm... they played till 1030pm then me and xueqin wanted to leave. then dunno why, all of them also dun wan to play so we went home together. mmm, kat asked me to pay her road tax tmr. so okay laa, helped her.

took bus with alicia, xueqin and renyong. yepps. chatted then went home. yeahh. hope renyong will take care of his health. coughing isnt a small matter. oh! i do hope he rmb to eat his medicine. (:

17/12
work up at 9am. haha. kat gave me a morning call. hahahs.. i think the managers understand me too much liao... they know i wont be able to wake up in morning. so mus need morning call! but i think im getting better le! (:

so.. bathed and ate breakfast. went to take 147 to HGmall. went to postoffice to pay. rather long queue... yeah.. so queued up and paid her bills. 470.50!! wahh... ex sia.. dun think i wanna buy a car when i grow up. lol. =)

walked around the mall... nothing much. saw 1 earrings that i think nic and i would like. ohyea, i saw a bag that i liked too. but i didnt buy laah.. cos no money at that moment. :(

went to HGPT to give kat her stuff and also get my money backk. hehs. kat think ling xiang kana gapbuster that morning. hohohoho...

went to watch orientation video with neroshaa. hahaha... lame right? but quite fun laa. mmm... then went to have lunch with kat at the food court. saw KEXIN! woahhh... so we chatted. hehs. she's still the same laa. but.. less talkative and crazy. hahaa. think she also matured le... no longer crazy or having the laughing disease. :(

so we chatted for quite some time then kexin gotta go. yeah.. so i went back store and slack around. slacked for dunno how long, i decided to go home. yeaa. im tired. so went home and sleep.

18/12
was almost late for work!! i was working at 9am and i woke up at 830am!! ohmygooodness. i rushed and rushed. phew... lucky i reached there at 949am. haha. pretty fast ba? while i was bathing i kept thinking that if im late, laytin will surely kill me. so... i chiong and chiong. sometimes... laytin works wonders, dun you think? lol.

did kitchen. HECTIC sia...run here run there. run like siao cha bo liddat. i think viet is a verrry CREATIVE woman. ohmans, her ideas are SUPERB man. yunfu is soooo nicee. (: we [xueqin, yunfu and me] talked about the christmas party thingy. yepps. cant wait for it to happen on 23!

went back to kitchen after break. i was crapping with lai kheng auntie, yunfu and diamond. we were playing the 'cheng yu' 'jie long' game. we must say the cheng yu, then the next person must say another wan, but the first word of the cheng yu must be the same as the last word of the last cheng yu. yepps. SO FUN!! but im lousy laaaa. keeep losing. :( but its fun! had lotsa fun!

after 1pm... i was abit... sian cos douglas is working. but horr... today de douglas is soooooo DIFFERENT! i mean... normally, douglas is always talking things that no normal people can understand. but that day, i perfectly understood what he's saying. [except those parts which he spoke in malay. =x] yeahh... when he talking to me about my promotion... i was abit shocked and... can say some what touched laa. its like... i never thought that douglas would approve me to promote. he was like, 'ah min, wo yao ni sheng. [i wan you to promote]'

its so unlike douglas. but i really think that, that day de douglas is very nice. yepps. so enjoyed working that day very much! (: he taught me loads of stuff. yepps. then... he even joined in my insane crappings. yahlorr. cos i was in my usual hype and im sorta, keep singing and singing those opera type. hahaa. yepps. it was a very happy day that day. (:

errmm... ling xiang punched out then xueren did kitchen with me. budden... time is short laa. i went to wash the containers. then went to wash the UHC trays. wahhh... by the time its finished, its 530pm. time to punch out!

so... rested for awhile before going home. accompany alena for her break. weilong horr... haiz... dignity too high le laa... i mean... how can he be sooo touchy about it. i dun think anyone got say shahrul's kitchen skill is better than his... why did he react so big?? haiz... he got all moody in the counter. shahrul is sooo cute. he arhh... wahh lao.. violent sia... he tore the strings of the apron while trying to tie it around his waist. LOL. crap man him. hahaha.

anyway talked with them then left home. yepps. tiredd. went home to sleep immediately. yeahs...

19/12
WOAH! last night i couldnt get to sleep, so woke up pretty late today. rushed out to mrt and took train to hougang. couldnt find xueqin at first. then i sms her, then she called me and asked me to turn around. at first i couldnt see her, then i saw her. life without spects is soooo xinku. =(

so the 3 of us went to take train. yepps. talked and talked. felt excited! went to harbour front tower to eat breakfast. hahaha... initially we went to yoshinoya. but arh... i think there's something wrong with the ventilation.. so xueren said we better go macs to eat. hahaa.. so we went.

the macs there is rather big. but... the service there still okayy laa. no smiles and no suggest things. so... we ate and talked then left the store at about 955am. HOHOHOHO. suddenly some of the crews said goodbye to us. SCARY sia.. hahaha.

so we went to take bus. yepps. got all excited again!! talk and talk. then we reached the arrival area. bought admission ticket and took bus to palawan beach.

HEHS. first trip to sentosa. i know im SUA GU. but ohwells. let's name my adventure today as, sua gu kia visit sentosa. ACTION!

alighted. wanted to go dolphin lagoon but admission to it is $19.50. so forget it laa. so ex. typical sua gu, no money to go inside the lagoon. and got happy for nothing. to think douglas wanted to scatter his ashes in it. admission is so ex... dun think we can fulfill his last wish... hahaha. sorry doug! lol.

so we went to the beach. woahh!! white sand, clear water, sunny and windy. perfect weather. so started gibbering loads of nonsense. see! typical sua gu. gets overly excited for normal things like, WHITE SAND and WAVES.

we walked onto the bridge. hehs. we found the weather soooo super nice. and hor... the bridge seemed to be moving!! hahaha. but its not laah. its the water current that makes us think its moving. we wanted to take pictures, but aiyah... no camera. so we decided to go to 7-11 to buy a disposable one. (:

bought drinks too. then we went to take pictures on the bridge again. we walked across then explore abit. then decided to go back to play with yunfu's beach ball. hahaha.. blown up the balloon and we tried to throw it around. but the wind too strong le laaa... keep going off course. so.. we went to paddle at the water... sit on sand and suntan. yepps.

xueqin wont go into the water!! only xueren and i went into it. xueqin dunno how to swim mahh.. then she scared being inside the sea... somemore she hates the smell of salt on her shirt. so... she didnt go. wanted to drag her in... but... failed.

and what happened to yunfu's ball? it got sailed away by the waves!! there was this time it floated away.. soooo far far away that i cant get it. ohmygosh. the lifeguard didnt even helped. but...i think the lifeguard also know laa... he knows the waves will bring the ball back to shore. to think i went so deep into the sea and got myself all wet!!

mmm... nothing much happened. we jus lazed around... suntaning and me, swimming in the sea. hehs. really enjoy going into the sea. cos its cooling. and when you lay on your back, staring at the sky, its really.... peaceful. so happy... but.. both xueren and xueqin dunno how to swim, so there's only me there swimming and floating around in the sea.

poor xueqin, she cant get into the water. so she had to sit on the sand. then.. xueren is half half. half on the sand, half in the water. while me, hahah,[partially] submerged in the sea. yepps. a weird combination. ((:

both me and xueren wanted to get suntan and burn. so.. we lay on the sand, feeling the waves crashing onto our body. yeahs. so fun! yepps!! then... after 1hr... we sat at the shallow part of the sea and chat. poor xueqin cant joined us.

we talked and then xueqin got bored and sian i think... so we went to bath. yeaa.. after that we went to take bus back to departure area. there was this disgusting pair of couple. wahlao... in front of xueren and xueqin, they embraced in public and doing ALOT of intimate things. GROSSS. wanted to puke and roll my eyes on them, but let's dun be mean, okay?

mmm... took bus back to harbour front. went to the nearby hawker center to eat. hehs! me and xueren wasted dunno how many mins finding that sugar cane stall. mans! but had it in the end. nice nice! i had chicken rice with sugar cane drink. nice nice nice!!

mmm... went back to harbour front tower to shop for christmas party. yeahhh... xueqin and xueren both bought perfume. xueren wanted the bag which the shop got sell badly... but it cost 50 bucks. ex sia.....

so we went around... shopping and yeahh. bought pizza! hehs. nice! had to wait for 20mins. so we went to walk around somemore. when we were about to go back to the pizza store, we couldnt find the store!! hahaha.. nearly got lost. that's the trouble of bringing a sua gu out. A COMPLETE DIRECTION IDIOT. but got back in the end. ((:

then we went to PS to buy DIY stuff in spotlight. saw MARK LEE filming the 'ban jia le'. the show which he and bryan helped the people to decorate their house blah blah. hehs. got excited seeing mark lee. cos i think he's damn funny. think i'll wet my pants if i saw JACK NEO. he's my idol mahh. ((= typical sua gu. fancy wetting pants seeing a guy whose older than her about 20/30 years jus because he's on tv.

heheh. so we shopped around. realised that spotlight stuff are ex. so... didnt get any door gift. decided to ask yunfu for help. so.. the bunch of us went to take train to hougang. went hougang mall. xueren and xueqin went to popular while i went to 'the bluez' to get my earrings and bag. ((: saw some ah bengs. wahlao.. damn crude. even the storekeeper seemed irritated by them. she even call them to 'lower down your volume'. hahaha. i like that shopkeeper. =)

mm.. gathered with xueqin and xueren. they paid for their stuff then we went back to HGPT. wah... tiring sia.... anyway, delp talked to me and xueqin about the store decoration for CNY and rice burger promotion. SIAN.. this week is soooo packed. its like.. the deadline to buy all the decors is 23!! and we had the christmas party coming up. busy mann...

ohyea! delp and joyce called us lobsters! cos we were all sooo tanned. =)) only that sao yi niang niang qiang laa. called us roasted pigs.

hehs. shankar wore spects. sooooo different from the usual colored contact lenses. hahahas. quite nice. jus find the red color abit... out. hahaha. never mind, shankar likes it will do. (:

then.. we told yunfu our prob. yeah.. so we vexed over the food thingy. xueqin called up several people to help us. poor yunfu. she was sooooo tired. ohmygosh. felt so sad for her. yeah. but no worries, we had[i hope] settled the food thing at last. (X

yeah... accompanied xueqin to look at the bracelets. she bought one and we went to meet up with xueren. then i rmbed to buy dinner for bro. so went KFC to buy. bade gdbye to them. yepps. its a nice trip to sentosa. i wanna go there again!!!

went home. terribly dirty and hot. my skin is frying!!! i jus realised how dark i am now when i was looking in the mirror jus now. ohmygosh. soooo... tanned! (: anyway, i called up nic and arranged a meeting with her tmr to shop. hehs. cant wait.

hehehe... think i better go sleep now. meeting nic at 10am for breakfast, then im gonna shop till i drop. then 630pm gotta go back to HGPT to work!! busy busy day. i think im gonna apply the gel for my burn again. good nite!

IWANNAGOSENTOSA-AGAIN!! =)

HAMSTERS!

2005-12-17T01:40:00.000+08:00

i thought my bendan is cute. i mean, i thought my bendan is the cutest hamster on earth. BUT!!! jus now i jus saw another cuter hamster!!!

GUESS WHO IS IT?

NO LAH, NOT HAMTARO.

AND IT CERTAINLY ISNT LMZ! =S

ITS....

CYNTHIA'S HAMSTERS!!!

ohmygooodness! cynthia's hamsters are sooooo adorable. not that my bendan is not cute and adorable, but cynthia's ones gives a fluffy feeling. the type you feel like cuddling.

hmph! i dun believe bendan is not as cute as cynthia's. i shall take my bendan to SPA, and grooming session so that it will rise up to a cute and cuddly hamster.

bendan, though i said here that i find cynthia's hamster is cute, but you're still my cutest bendan on earth, kae? dun be jealous kae? come i give you some fruits to eat. .... good bendan!

=D i love my bendan!

edited at 241am.

i think im a fortunate and blessed girl. (=

i kinda felt sad that jianyi chose xiaoqian instead of yoyo... i have to agree with jianyi...

no matter how compatitible we look, we are simply 2 different person who seek for a different kind of love. our definition of love is different.. so... i guessed... jianyi would be happy with xiaoqian ba... poor yoyo. haiz. but i think she'll be fine. cos jianyi said she's a strong gal! so she'll pulled thru this.

somehow... i still wish that there's a second part to 'rainbow connection'. i still hope that jianyi would choose yoyo. maybe that's what love is ba. to be willing to protect and care for her, without reason forever. instead of protecting and caring a GIRL cos she needs it. yeah... haiz. sad laa.

i have let go of smth very deep and close to my heart today. while i was staring out at kat's window... i realise that there's no point holding on, and clinging onto something that does not belong to you. i did not feel sad or something, but its kind of a relieve. and i felt more optimistic about the future of us. we sought a different thing, and i know we will both find it.

if he had found it, i wish him all the best. but i think he had found it. it's only another step towards it. jus hope he has the confidence and courage to pursue it. jiayou! i know you will acheive it! =)

I HATE MY NEW KEYBOARDDD!!

2005-12-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOODNESSSSS!!

my new keyboard is sooooo DANGEROUS!! you know... the bottom of the keyboard is made of metal!! i dunno if this is on purpose or something... but whenever i shift the keyboard, i GET SHOCK!!!! arrgghh... so dangerous!! i shall bring it tmr to check again... or at least refund a safer keyboard. IF NOT, i shall sue the company. such a lousy and dangerous keyboard. not nice to type at all!!! HMPH!

finally finished reading the da vinci code. now.. im moving onto 'angels and demons'. sounds fascinating too. (:

anyway... work was kinda sian today... shant talk much abt it. trained shankar's sis lobby.. yepps. im more confident about training now.. cos i've trained 3 person in these 2 weeks. so... almost can memorize the lobby SOC. yeppps.

ohyea... thanks viet for putting me in the NSRS next month! mck station. hehs.. wanted filet, but xueqin took it... cos she had her mck NSRS liao.. so nvm la.. let her take. mmm.. im doing the NSRS with xueqin and alicia. yepps.

kat bought timeout, the chocolate to eat! hehs! so nice!

xueREN became a VERY hungry ghost after her work.. so poor thing. hope she had her supper today. (:

dad bought a new house phone. so now can talk very very long on the phone le! happyhappyhappy!

denise called me this morning and told me some things. yepps. im glad our friendship is back to normal! and anyway.. she was asking me about her r/s prob. so..we talked for quite some time...

how would you feel, if you confessed to a guy you like, and the guy told you, he only treat you as a sister?

well.. for me, i would be very very hurt. i mean... if you say you treat me as friend, i might blame myself for thinking too much, misthinking his care as love. but you say sister... its like... i would be scolding myself, WHAT A STUPID FOOOL I AM!!!! JUS SISTERLY CARE!! yeahh... cos... denise liked this senior of hers. yepps. so she sorta... 'hinted' she likes him. and i think the guy sense it too laa... so he jus said, 'eh, i always treat you as my sis laa. what you thinking about?'.

haiz.. poor denise. mus be a huge shock. i also dunno how to comfort her. well.. i've seen the guy before... and he's quite nice and gentleman. yepps. i dun feel angry or whatever for the reject... cos.. its not as if that guy is not nice to denise. its jus that...aiyah... you yuan wu fen. denise is a great girl... cant believe she got rejected too. pity man.. that guy. hope he changes his mind abt her! but.. you cant love to order. yea... so... there's practically nth i can. so... i think i can only jus wait and you know... lend her a listening ear.

i hope denise is feeling better now! no point brooding over it... yea..

anyway, RENYONG is coming out tmr! hehs. so long never see him liao.. dunno if he got change or not. ERRR.. am i thinking too much? haha. (:

im still fretting over all the christmas presents im gonna get!! so many peopleeee!!! ohmygosh! wish money would drop from the sky! but i alr know what to get for kat and joyce liao. hahaa. sudden inspiration. (:

mum said she'll get me a camera for christmas! when i told her if i could get my hp line back, her face turned and went out of the room, leaving me with my stupid hopeful look on my face. none the less, a camera is fine too! excitedd!

weizheng is calling me REGULARLY these few days. you know why he does that? NO LAH, he dun like me de. i mean, not those like lahh. i confronted him last 2 days ago, and he said he's under JUN AN'S ORDER to call me. wah lao.. cos that jun an say i always got loads of problems and need someone WISE to help me. GRRRRRRR!! so he is always calling me and asking me loads of rubbish. when i heard abt it, i called him to shut up and stop calling me.

i mean, i know what jun an's doing is for my good. but im not a baby. i dun need people to look after me. afterall, i've shankar back! i can talk to him anytime. haiz. sometimes i hate jun an for being so worrisome. like i'll develop depression anytime. BAH.

oh here comes the call again... haiz...

shant type anymore. this keyboard is dangerous. jaaaa ne!

2005-12-15T03:08:00.000+08:00

alright ppl, i jus spoilt my my keyboard. never try this stunt of cleaning ur keyboard if u dun have money to buy a new wan tmr.

anw, im using on screen keyboard now. tiring to type like this. shall try to get a new keyboard tmr. (:

i think 'bouvelard of the broken dreams' is a damn sadistic song. and the 'f' word jus seemed so out of place. they seemed to be like... trying to put the word in for the sake of the word.

my younger bro jus congratualate me for destroying the keyboard. thanks so much.

shall ask my mum to buy new keyboard! hehehe. ^.^

lalala. gg to clean the corpse now! SEEEEEE YAAAAA!

SAPPING

2005-12-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

xiao pin pin~ has confessed that he likes douglas koh!

haha.. think even if xiao pin pin~ jumped into the Yellow River also cannot clear his name. maybe he should try Singapore River. he will hit the headlines next day too. but arh i think hor... he got enough publicity liao right.. no need this type of publicity le... HOHOHOHOHO.

i have decided to change my url to happyhappyday.blogspot.com. BUT! i have not created the site yet. i wanna have another layout. hehehe.

shant write much. gonna clean my keyboard now. jaaa!

PRETTY MOODY

2005-12-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

i think i am PMS-ing. that explain why my stomach/abdominal was cramping jus now. or maybe im jus doing some A-GO-GO. yepps.

i think im reading too much into things. or maybe im jus feeling too much as usual. i think im really thinking too much. its like... i seriously dunno what im thinking, and what im promising myself and others. i dunno what im seeking for. i have no goals. no targets. no motivation. or perhaps, i know what i wants, but i jus dunno why i know. AIYAH, dunno what im speaking.

anyway... i jus had this feeling a few days ago...

i've been thinking over our friendship. are we that close as what other people thinks we are? why do i get the feeling that we're drifting apart? why do i get the feeling that you no longer comes to me. i used to think it's you who's pushing me to you. but.. i realise that its ME who wants to be with you. i felt very sad to see that you're getting so well with others. im not jealous, its jus that it makes me wonder whether we are that close or not. how can you click so well with someone you barely know for 1 week? [isnt this jealousy?? AIYAH..]

and you no longer come and talk to me. i am no longer the first wan you wanna share your news. its like.. you're the first wan i wanna share things and funny jokes.. but... you doesnt seemed to think that way. why? maybe the angelic ME has faded from your mind... you dun trust me anymore. i know you dun... i know... we have different thinkings and we never seemed to see eye to eye in each other's thinking. i kinda feel sad to know that.. our friendship is that short and vulnerable.

sometimes... things that i DENY or never bring it out... doesnt mean that i dont care. SERIOUS. yeahh... i felt abit upset when you deny the fact that we're not drifting apart... but right now, even if you are no longer coming towards me, i still wanna go towards you. cos i care and trust you more than you think. i treasure and love this relationship alot.

there are things that are not supposed to be spoken, but felt by the beating of the heart.

haiz... was abit.. moody and sad when i was thinking about our friendship. its like... i dunno how to say laa.. i really liked this friend of mine. but i dun think she thinks the same way as i do. haiz...

ANYWAY..

today, went to toapayoh there to learn the new burger. rather complicated laa. abit fun... starting was fun.. but became slack when laytin keep asking us to practise. BAH. then.. saw SRA3 crews... hope the managers and crew didnt notice me! cos i've been going there to buy my elder brother's supper quite often these few days.[cos its 24/7 liao..] OHYEA, that guy was a CREWLEADER! i didnt know lehh. he's not badd laa.. and i finally know why i didnt see SHIJIA at HGmall that day.. cos she's ATTACHED to SRA3. yepps. saw her there one day and she still cant RMB ME. as in, i recognised her first, then she will, 'ohhh...' but with that BLUR look. FINE, next time dun talk to you. HAH. lol.

mmm, boss treat us to lunch. CHICKEN RICE. ohmygosh... WAS VERY FULL. and that laytin arh... accused me! i had alr finish eating and she asked me hurry up to eat finish cos im late for PARTY. I WAS TALKING TO YUNFU okayy? wahh lao... so the whole of us left. yepps. laytin gave me another warning before i left the table. about my punctuality laa... still got wat..

anyway, joo hua and i went to the interchange together. the rest arhh.. dunno fly to where le.. so went interchange. saw hardy. talked.. the waited for the bus. yepps. talk somemore.... lalalaa... lah blha blah blah...

reached HGPT finally... soffia was doing party laa.. so guilty... cant do party with xueqin. mmm..poor xueREN. she was the only female, with the exception of KAT, in the store working this morning. haha... so poor thing.. tsk tsk. BOYS arhh... haiyo...

hmm... did counter. FINALLY SAW SHANKAR!! long time no see liao. HEHEHEHS. mmm.. shant go into details about the rest.. cos kinda naggy laa.

OHYEA! alena told me something damn disgusting... the attached manager and XIAO PIN PIN~ hehehe. shant call xiao pin pin~ mao ze dong anymore. cos xiao pin pin~ sounds better right? and i know xiao pin pin~ likes this name alot too. (:

i think our xiao pin pin~ finally got his wish. TAO HUA YUN LAI LE!! xiao pin pin~ hehehe. i can never say xiao pin pin~ with a straight face. cos it simply toooooooo disgusting and hilarious to do that. i tried to think in the way of the attached manager and say it to xiao pin pin~ but I CANT LAH. cos i dun have those feelings for xiao pin pin~ maybe i shld act like i have. it will be very funny and GROSSS. but.. dun lah. dun wan people to misunderstand us anymore. yah lor, you people are INSANE to think that me and xiao pin pin~ are... urrgghh... whatever.

anyway... was told to do lobby. so.. went to clean the trays... maybe its becos there's too much tray to wash.. maybe the water caught into my eyes.... but my eyes were rather red when i have washed only HALF the amount of the trays.........

mmm... cant rmb much laa... enjoyed talking to shankar only lah. ohyea, and talking to delp too. HAH. she loves my hamster's name. HEEE. my cute bendan! shall bring her to let delp see someday. i know she'll love my hamster too. dun worry delp, my hamster is toooooo adorable to ignore a person like you. (:

nothing much laa. hung ard to talk to delp after store close. seriously! i think delp shld write a book! i think me and delp had alot of common things. yepps. like.. both of us were offered alot of opportunities! yepps.

ohh! we came this close *raising thumb and index finger showing their distances between each other, which is like abt..1 cm* to knowing delp's age!!! she almost let slip of it! but she realised it in the end!! ARRRGGHHH. smart girl arh.. delp... GRRRRRRR. but one thing to know, delp known her husband for a VERY LONG TIMEEEEEE. yepps. so romantic. HAH.

talk and talk... yepps. sometimes its better to let things out than to keep it in. now my stomach cramp also gone liao. (: [i didnt fart or anything. dun worry! i SWEAR]

i still like talkin to shankar. YEPPS. =)) intellectual conversations. wonderfoo, ERRR... i mean, wonderful.

ohyea.. then we talked about christmas and stuff. i seriously dunno what to get for you people.. YEA.. NO MORE KEYCHAINS! DUN WORRY! (: hmm.. was thinking of doing something DIY. but think it was kinda cheapskate. but.. its the thought that counts.. doesnt it? HMM...

oh! xiao pin pin~ you better take those duckies out and RETURN TO ME! since you dun cherish them, i rather give them to other people who will take good care of it!! you better return to me!!!!!! you ingrateful xiao pin pin~ give me BACKKKK!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

that's why i hate giving presents to guys. they never cherish. they only care about the cost of the thing, and not the thought. SUPERFICIAL.

decided to ask nic to go out with me to buy presents. hehs. a chance to give her, her presents too. (: yepps. but she going malaysia these few days.... so gotta wait till 18. but never mind laa... pay comes ard that day too. (:

i had a sudden urge to quit macs. cos every nice person are leaving. haiz... hate myself for being that sentimental.

i wan to sleeeeeeeeep liao. shall continue talking to shankar tmr. i've got loads to tell him. yes

sometimes... its better to initiates... then to wait things to happen to you.

reminsicent

2005-12-13T01:32:00.000+08:00

it shocked me to realise how long i havent been to browsing people's profile on friendster. [except for renyong laa.. he asked me to see his profile.] yepps.

and anyway, i was viewing dosy's profile jus now! HOHOHO. dosy.. its been 3 weeks since you last enter friendster. haha. mm, then i was viewing the pictures... almost all were the neoprints we took. hehs... dunno why, but when i saw the neoprint with the 7 of us... i felt very warm and happy. yepps. the feeling is like... we're one big family. then it struck me to realise [and took me quite some time to realise..] that i still love you birdies! yes!! no doubts about our friendship le!

friends do fight and misunderstand. but its always peace and harmony after it. jus like a family. there's no grudge in a family. YEPPS! hehheheheh. suddenly so happy. HAH! and ohyea, i still think all 7 of us are gays. for some reason. cos... tasuki, nuriko, hotohori and tamahome are GAYS. it will feel odd if chiriko, chichiri and mitsukake arent. so we're all GAYS. we are a bunch of HAPPY BIRDIES! yepps yepps.

a strong urge to continue the dodo story. cos i was reading the testimonial i wrote for lmz. and i was like... i didnt know i could describe lmz liddat. yeahs. amusing testimonial. i recalled the next day after i wrote the testimonial, lmz came up to me and say, 'your testimonial is full of crap lor.' hahahas. indeed its full of crap. but i know you secretly love it right? you love crapppp. (:

ohyea, then i read my testimonials too. didnt know wei flooded my testimonial before. HAHA. (: but my testimonials all revolved the same old words like, 'cute'... 'cheerful'...'great friend'. yepps. it never occur to me that people would think im cute, cos i think im rather... how should i say it, mmm, its like you wont say 'such an ugly great brute' to a hippogriff right? it might tear you to pieces. not that im offended by the word 'cute' on me, its jus that... its kind of GROSS. [maybe its bcos i live with my 2 VERY ACT CUTE brothers.] haha. weird taste again.

if you were to use 'cute' on me, why not do it on my hamster?

my cute bendan drinking water. sooo cuteee! awwwww....

ohyea, there was this time delp asked me to persuade alena to continue working. so.. we talked about why we worked in macs. so.. delp said we're not earning money to keep a family rite? cos if you quit, you can still survive, not like her. and i was like, NO! I'VE GOT A FAMILY TO FEED TOO!

delp was shocked and she asked who is it.

and i said it's my hamster.

haha.

then delp said, so... you work to feed your hamster lah.

i gave her a sheepish grin and said, yeah.

then delp burst into her usual hysterical laughter. *ahahahahaha*

you know, im kinda trying to learn how delp laugh. cos i think that's rather ma..*a penetrating glare from delp* d.. errr.. delp's laughter is very cheerful. yeah!

i think i digressed alot. mm, where was i. ohyea, friendster testimonial. ohYEA! i was viewing xueREN's profile and saw that jiasheng left her a testimonial. curious and kaypoh as i am, i went to see his profile.

OHMYGOSH.

i always thought jiasheng was a wolf in disguise. but now, i really think he's a GUAI KIA. yeahh. he's really quiet lah. dunno why. maybe wei long took all his lines. yepps. that would be it.

okies, shant write anymore. gonna go sleep. im working 12hrs tmr! yepps. goood nitee!

48 more pages to the ending of 'the da vinci code'.

YAY!

2005-12-11T20:27:00.001+08:00

HEHS! mum returned my money jus now, so... I'VE GOT MONEY NOW!! yay!! so happy! gotta save up. (:

anyway, gonna buy books tmr. yepps. maybe before going to work. tmr im doing outdoor party! so niceee! with xueqin! whooopee! long time never do party le... hahahs. okiedokie.

i think the way rickmond talks is like my younger brother. got the same feeling laa. i really find that sao yi aka niang niang qiang and rickmond cute. rickmond's expression is very GONG lorr, and the way his face shine with anticipation when he talk he wanna go kitchen is like... so cute. yepps. maybe the reason why i liked rickmond is bcos he resembles my younger brother ba... got those feelings lahh. both liked to act pro and ask stupid qns. yepps.

as for sao yi that niang niang qiang, he is really.. ACT CUTE. but i find his act cute, cute lah. yepps. jus dunno why alena they all dun like him. dunno la... different people got different taste. yepps.

ohyea, jiasheng's cute too. the way he cut lemon is like... so funny. its like... he's trying to cut open a durian with a saw. yeahh. the BARTENDER. lol. but he's nice and hardworking. abit reluctant to learn new things lah him. kenny asked me why i didnt want to teach jiasheng beef products, then i jus say, "cos he dun wan to learn mah." hahahs. jiasheng turned and gave me a thumbs-up. =)

oh.. and my poor diamond aka meiyun... she was suspected to kana GAPBUSTER this last friday.. and she got only 81%. then... laytin went and talk to herr.. meiyun was very upset lorr... cos the gapbuster said she did everything correct but the waiting line of the queue is TOO LONG. the gapbuster said she/he waited for 5mins!! before being served. but laytin and meiyun both find it abit... ridiculous. so LAYTIN IS GOING TO QN/FIGHT BACK WITH THE GAPBUSTER.

cynthia was verrry happy about it. cos... laytin always say we did very badly for the gapbusters thingy. but this time, the gapbuster happened on her shift! HAH! see how she deny. LOL. no wonder she was soooo furious. meiyun was really... upset. hope she's feeling better! =))

i love crapping with my diamond. cos she's really crappy! we were laughing like siao in the kitchen after she punched out. hahahas. loveher loads!

oh! ytd nite i was reading 'da vinci code'. OHMYGOSH!! shocking business! im kinda addicted to that boook. really interesting. i also went online to search for more information. like the 'last supper', 'madonna of the rocks' paintings by leonardo da vinci. its really interesting!! i wanna be a crytographer!or maybe a symbologist! i wanna study the history! about the holy grail!! and loadss!! oh man! its really fascinating. okay one of the fascinating thing is the PHI. PHI the divine proportion: 1.618.

it was said that, if you count the total number of male and female in the whole world. you will realise that female is more than male. if you take the no. of male divide the no. of female, you will realise that the quotient is 1.618.

and its like.. our body is dimensional. if you take the measurement from your hip to your toes and divide it from the measurement from your head to your toes, you'll realise the quotient is PHI! its really... very MAGICAL. aiyah.. there's alot about PHI. maybe you all can go search the net for more information.

and meanwhile.. i shall continue reading 'the da vinci code'! seeee yaaa!

i loveeee anagrams!! i shld create an anagram too.. =)

THIEVING FROGGY!

2005-12-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

can someome jus tell me why do i keep put the stupid froggy to jail when's he not a THIEF?

you see, i was playing trouble at neopian again. and i always mistake the frog for thief and put him behind bars? WHY DO I DO THAT?

is it because...?

-he's green?
- he's got a big and grossifying mouth?
- he wears those baggy pants and need to put on straps so that it wont fall off?
-or all the above?

ARRGGHH! i seriously dont get myself!! why do i keeeeep pressing him???

nice job neopets adminstrator. you all have really got me out of breaking the hi-score. thanks so much.

anyway, i feel like changing my URL. i wanna change to happyhappyday.blogspot.com. do you think its nice? cos.. its like, i dun wanna be depress lah, esp. during working. so i always have to remind myself that its a HAPPY HAPPY DAY, so i will always smile and laugh. HMM... maybe i should. that means all the archives here will be GONE! ohwells... lemme think for awhile more. its a tough decision...

okies...

wednesday

was almost LATE. lucky mum saw me at the bus stop and brought me there. was only 1min early. LOL. okies okies. saw DELP! YEA! she's abit pale lahh.. so asked her what's wrong with her and she said she's abit headache and giddy and so forth.. hope she's feeling fine now. (:

anyway, was told to do lobby. hehs. i was thinking when i can do lobby again. cos these few days had been stuck inside the kitchen. so did lobby. okayy lah. but its like, my lobby's really DIRTYY. loads of rubbish then the floor also very dirty. so.. the whole day/nite/evening, i keep going to DC, lobby, throw rubbish. no time to wash tray at all.

at first i was wondering why delp ask me to like... throw all the rubbish lah, all the carton boxes and so forth. i thought im helping THERESA! who knows! its MAO ZE DONG WHO'S CLOSING LOBBY THAT DAY! huge shock. very huge shock. almost wanted not to clean any trays for him. see if he'll DIE doing lobby or not. HAHA. im [not] a very mean person. YEAAA!

okies, so i do and do. went to sweep the whole lobby. decided to go wipe trays and realised mao ze dong had done that. yepps. so went to sweep somemore. sweep then went to throw rubbish. wahh... the grand dustbin is forever smelly man! then my hand kana the ice cream that leaked from the bagg. GROSSS. so went back and washed my hand. went to wipe trays again. then clear lobby. wipe trays. yeahs. kinda slack lah.

then went into counter. yeahh. xueREN and i had a bet about 830pm+ about whether kenny and gang got come down or not. i bet they will come down then xueREN said they wont. at 1st i was kinda... 'defeated'. cos its like... 945pm liao, they still not down... so i was like, xueREN win liao lahh.

mmm, nana came down and bought birthday cake for SHAHRUL! woots! birthday boy! as usual, nana went to smash the cake on shahrul's face. LOL. yeah. sing birthday song and lighted the candles. didnt see him blow the candles cos there's loads of people at the counter. so... shahrul blew the candles with nana.

then nana started video taping us again, asking us what birthday wishes we have for shahrul. that nana ARH.. wah lao.. shant say it. she siao siao liao. go see the video and you all will know.

anyway, delp wanted be to be feDEX. so.. punched out and went to potong pasir macs. you know arhh.. that manager abit FUNNY leh. cos delp wanted me to ask for the manager's name so that she can sms the manager. but delp wanted to know if she's floor manager or what. so.. i was like, i didnt see her name tag.. so i went to ask her. she was serving lah. so i waited. then i asked her when she finished taking the customer's order.[which means she havent pack the products yet.] she gave me a small irritated face and went to the phone. you know what she told delp?

she said she's having a crowd rush now, so cant talk much.

excuse me, at that time, there was only 1 counter open with about 2 customers only. she called that a crowd rush. wonderful manager. outstanding.

so... left quickly and went home. yepps. tiredd.

today

was late for workk. miss tat stupid bus. URRGGHH! so... went there.. and saw viet fretting in the kitchen. went to ask her what happened. she was fretting over where to put the new product stuffs. so me, her and ah hong auntie started giving suggestions. but none worked. cos.. there's alot of things to be considered. poor yun fu, still got soooooo many things to do before she can go on leave/labour peacefully.

mmm, did counter with alena and indah. was abit irritated by alena. cos... its like, i was backing alena. then i went to get the fries and sorts. after finish packing, i realised the customers didnt get the drinks. so i asked if they had the drinks, they said no. then im like, isnt alena supposed to get the drinks?

so.. i got the drinks and alena came back. she said she went to change the syrup line. ERRRRRR. is customer impt or syrup line? haiz.. and she left without informing me. haiz... never mind lahh. so.. do and do.. that yun fu arhh, wahh... climb up the ladder with her baby. SIAO. not meaning to curse her or anything, but that's really dangerous. but she heck care. haiz.

mmm, nothing much lah. then kat went to paint the 'ceiling tiles'. WAHHH. SMELLY ARH! maybe only to me lahh, cos im allergic to it. goshh.. was all giddy. anyway... hardy bought PSP!!! WAHHHHHHH! RICHMAN!! psp is the new playstation portable!!! COOL MAN!! wahhh... but he only got 2 games. one is car racing [which alicia got addicted. LOL.] then the other wan.. aiyah! what boy and girl go to bed thingy lah. but no need to say, but be something.. perverted. LOL.

anyway, i think hardy's rather HIGH TECH. his handphone is really cool MAN! both me and xueREN wanna be his god daughters. LOL. haha. yeah.. so went to break. smelly kitchen... cos kat and jia sheng's not finish with painting. that kat arhh! hmphh!! she wouldnt let me go home early cos i told her i am allergic to paint and i felt giddy that time when they were painting. so MEAN. haha. but okay lahh. didnt feel that giddy later.

had to train KEVIN dc after my break. errrr... i dunno what to say lah. but i dunno why, i was abit impatient with him. yeah. he wasted lots of ice cream loh.. kana mix low twice. HOHO. but okay lah. so.. viet came and taught me the 4 step training. its VERY USEFUL!! yepps!

then... viet buddied me while i was teaching kevin dc. wahhh! i didnt know i've been under-drawing icecream for customers for these few months. really! viet told me how to draw a proper ice cream. HEHS. then we took the weighing scale to see the ounces. yeah! its fun man! then we went on to flavor burst. the flavor burst is really big!! if you follow the procedures lahh. wahhh. viet drew one and i ate it! SO HAPPY! ((: long time never eat flavor burst le... HAHA.

anyway, kevin was fine lahh.. but my patience is also losing.. dunno why. then he went to break. i went to lobby, DC and hots. yepps. then viet went thru the 4 step training with me. so.. i decided to be patient again and teach/follow up on kevin. okay lahh, but needs more improvements. yepps.

felt all hungry when i punched out. THANKS RAJ FOR GIVING ME 2 DIPPERS TO EAT. hehs. he actually wanted to give me mcwings.. but its like.. dun lah. what if customers wan? and i was right. when i was sitting in the crew room eating the dippers, joyce called for one box mcwing. haha. still say mcwing wont run. haha.

anyway, there's this grp of idiotic teens, they came and applied for job. before they came and filled the form right... one of the guys pressed the DC and went off quickly. suay suay, i was standing at the DC door there, but of cos i was back-facing them lah. so when i turned, i saw the guy sniggering away. i stared at them all the way, until they were out of my sight. this shall teach them not to be rude. can see that his friends were all paiseh that i was STARING at him and quickly walked off.

who knows they[mixture of girls and boys] came and applied for job. when i saw them with the application forms, i quickly went to viet and told her NOT to hire them. you look at their behavior jus now. WAHLAO lor.. but joyce and ah hong auntie all agree with me. haha.

i was laughing like shit when i saw them discussing about their schedule. cos its like they, 'okay lah, let's do wed afternoon lah... dun wann lahh... okay lah, do thursday blah blah..' WAH.. so serious liddat. so i went to yun fu and told her that those grp of people dun need to confirm when to work lah, cos i can confirm THEY WONT BE HIRED. LOL. so mean huh? but you look their atittude lorr. hmph!

me and ah hong auntie was like laughing at them. hahah. but they didnt see us. i think the guy recognised me. to think they were 14yrs old. so childish. >.<#

viet actually wanted to interview them. she agreed to let me tag along too! but aiyah... they zoomed out of the store after handing the application forms. shall kaypoh again when they come for interview. i shall make ALOT OF NOISE! like tutting.. tsking tsking... aiyoh... haiz... hahahaha. huo gai!

anyway, SHANKAR'S COMING BACK! YEAH! nice nice nice! cant wait to see him again!! oh, and im going to learn how to cook the new burger with those aunties! HEHS! so funn!! cant wait.

ohyea, joo hua gave me a very big chocolate! LOL!

accompanied joyce to toilet while viet was reimbursing the petty cash. came back and viet said she's gonna bring me home. hahah. so nice of her. so we took cab. viet said her baby keep kicking her. so cutteee!

anyway, alighted and went home. thanks ALOT to viet for the ridee! yepps!! im very tired noww. after jailing the stupid froggy like...5 times, i decided not to play trouble at neopian tonite. shall go sleep liao. tmr training a new crew again!! mus read the 4 steps! mus read lobby SOC!! so.. see ya people!! gonna sleeeep!

OHYEA! i won the bet actually! the bet with xueREN! cos kenny came down today and i asked him if he got come down ytd. and he said YES! so XUEREN!! WU NAI NAI!! MY HOT FUDGE SUNDAE!!! lol. ((:

sweet dreams peeps!

dosy and nan xiao. (: [mum and sis]

wanling. -______- [my gf?]

bendan! in his old house.

bendan in his newly cleaned bungalow. ENVY or not! my hamster live in a double-decked bungalow! LOL.

sarah sleeping her poor head off. nanxiao, hardworking girrl. ((: [taken at nanxiao's house. that day when we were making lmz and stackie's prezzies.]

slacking wanling. =x [taken the same day as the above pic]

lao ma zi and her cheapskate empty bubbletea drink. dosy cant stand looking straight at lmz's facee. [taken at kovan macs. was making sarah's prezzie. (:]

sideview of my stackie boyfriend! LOL. (= [at kovan]

sarah[with her new horrendous haircut. but that was long time ago.] playing a big broomstick with strings on it. LOL. stackie looking admiring at sarah. LOL. [taken at sarah's house on her birthday party.]

sarah's prezzie. so xi xin of us rite? (:

overview of the prezzie. lumpy-s: dosy and me. roo: nanxiao. winnie the pear: stackie. eeyore: lmz. tigger: sarah. piglet: wanling. happy family!

oddly shaped lao ma bing. [lao ma biscuits.] our very own made biscuits. (: [the grossly heart shape is done by wanling and the stupid looking 'wanton' is made by me. the one with the pointed tip.]

that's the goldfish i took when me and my mum went to tanglin mall. rather fat right?? nice wagging tail. =))

haha.. still got loads of pics. shall upload them sometimes later. really tired now. see yaaaa.

late nite

2005-12-08T14:57:00.000+08:00

just a quick post. cos i jus called kat and asked her what time im working today. and she said...

330pm!

jus half an hr more to work... =x

okies, the main purpose of my post today is write something abt ytd.

yesterday delp told me to go ptp macs to pass them something CONFIDENTIAL. so okies, off i go. took a cab and almost started snoozing. but didnt lahh. i got something confidential lehs. okies, so.. i tried to refresh myself by looking at the scenery and listen to the music. there's this song that i liked alot. its, 'if tomorrow never comes' by ronan keating. yepps. nice song. so here's the lyrics. gonna go work now! seeee yaaa!

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way
I feelAbout her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

it's quite a sadistic song actually. fancy thinking so much. i mean its good to live like there's no tomorrow, but.. imagine everyday i'll be like.. hugging everyone and saying 'i love you' and everything cos i may not have tomorrow today. URRRGGGHHH. but okay, let's jus let the song be.. its a LOVE song. yepps. not sadistic. im jus reading too much into things. LOL. okies. going to bath.

happy happy day! *meow*

sweeet dream!

2005-12-07T15:52:00.000+08:00

I HAD A VERY WONDERFUL, SWEET, NICE DREAM JUST NOW!

ohmans, that dream was really nicee! that's why i woke up at 230pm. =)) mm, i dreamt that im a director, filming a ROMANCE movie. ERRR... okay, i dunno why, but its a ROMANCE movie. lala. so get on with it. i cant rmb the name of those characters but i anyhow name them, okay?

since jiasheng and lingxiang gave me the hello kitty set, i shall name the main characters as KITTY and DANIEL. okies.

there is this BIG event. yepps. somehow.. its a MAC event. like crew rally liddat. so... kitty and daniel and a whole grp of crews went and celebrate. i also dunno why, but kitty and daniel are living together in a CONDO. LOL. hahas. okay, so.. first scene started in which kitty and daniel are putting their stuff into the condo. yepps. daniel was VERY nice to kitty, helping her to unpack and so forth. but kitty thought daniel was only being friendly lah, and no OTHER INTENTION. hehs.

so they went to the stadium together and had loads of fun with the other crews, cheering and whatever. then, they went to have refreshment and games to play. suddenly, daniel's phone rang. so daniel picked it up and realised it was a girl [who crushed on daniel] called. she asked daniel to meet her up. kitty heard it, and was abit SOUR. jealous i suppose. [im the DIRECTOR!] hehs. okies. so.. kitty asked daniel to go and meet her up lah, cos since the girl has alr open her mouth and asked, so the guy should be gentleman enough to go accept the date.

daniel didnt wanted to, but, since kitty insisted him to go, so he sadly went to pack his stuff. then kitty and the other crews went and celebrate, leaving daniel to leave on his own. kitty was abit sad lah, that the daniel wasnt going to be celebrating with them. yepps. then she started thinking lah, cos daniel and her are only friends, but why is she feeling this way when daniel was leaving for other girls?

then suddenly, daniel came back! then everyone started cheering and singing a WELCOME song. errr... i dunno why liddat lah. but it fits the atmosphere. then daniel came up to kitty and hush the rest of the crowd and started singing a LOVE song. what husband and wife thingy lah. cant rmb. then kitty dunno why daniel started singing this song, and was singing this song to HER. so she started asking around, then got 1 person say, 'EH! you dunno meh? daniel has always liked you!' then kitty was shocked lah. cos she thinks they are being friends only. then kitty went and asked INDAH[dunno why also..]. then indah also say, 'yah! he has always liked you.'

kitty was shocked and embarrassed and ran away. she ran and ran, run until daniel was not be seen. budden its like... she also got no other place to go, so she decided to go back to the condo. and she found out that daniel was at the lift. thinking daniel was only joking just now, so kitty went up and told him it was a nice joke. so they stepped into the lift and daniel gave a bouquet of roses to kitty. i also dunno how it end lah, but kitty accepted and they become BOY AND GIRL FRIEND. yes. thats the end of it.

hohohoh. i rmb sitting on the director chair and watching them thru the small tv and holding a rolled-up script in another hand. SO COOL. =) well, that's the end of my dream. its really sweeet. i know you all cant feel the sweetness of this dream from the way i described it. but i've seen it myself, and i think its rather NICEE.. i woke up smiling and all! so happy!

okiesokies, shall go bath and go work. seee yaa!

ITSAHAPPYHAPPYDAY!

double trouble

2005-12-07T00:46:00.000+08:00

eh, i think my training sucks too. cos kevin doesnt seemed to be absorbing what im saying. or maybe he's not absorbable. LOL. (= training people is difficult man. hmmmm....

been playing 'trouble at neopian bank'. NICEE man!! its not childish lor. so nice. up till now.. my record is... 1193. thought i could break record, budden... the mininum level to get in was raised till 2000+. wahhh... HORRIFYING REVELATION. then i decided to break my own record instead of the hi-score. more practical. =))

anyway... yesterday, kat told me that i will be washing the heat treat ALONE. was excited all day. budden when the time draw nearer arhh, i began to panicked. wat's more, i gotta train a new crew. he's okayy lah.. but got abit atittude. and i think he finds me naggy. yeah, i think i am nagggy. i talk alot. but depends on my mood also mah. if im not strict and so rigid, then i think kevin might resign the first thing tmr.

but i also dunno how to communicate with him lahh. its like.. lobby's rather simple. clean table, clear tray, trash bins, wipe trays and so forth. nothing muchh. i dunno if i'll pass him, but kat passed him in the end. she think he's okay. so.. okay lor.

anyway, that hardy harr... stacked the sundae mix, stack until the sundae mix leak! GOSH! then i gotta clean the thing up. then my shoes and my pants kana the mix. GROSSSS. so cleaned up and went back to follow kevin. do and do. okay lah. then kat ask me to start on my heat treat.

ALICIA that woman say wan to accompany me wash heat treat. in the end, pang seh me. leave me to wash ALONE. GRRRR! but never mind lah, tmr she's going out wadd. so.. jus let her go.

mmm, i made lotsa mistakes lorr. wahhh. 1st, i add to much APC water. so take VERY long to wash pump the whole thing. cos i thought the water will be gone rather fast, so i scared when i wash the other "container", there will have no water inside. YAHLAH, KIASU! hmphh! whatever.

then i scrub and scrub. remove SOME of the parts. draw water. then add water again. scrub abit more. wanted to press "wash" but i press AUTO. so kana FREEZER LOCK. when i saw that, i was reminded of RENYONG. gosh! lucky kat's there. so she helped me. (: then she asked me to eat something 1st then continue to work. niceee. :))

again, i put too much water. so take a much LONGER time to wash pump. by the time its alr 12 30 plus le. so i panicked and quickly remove all the stuffs. went to backsink to wash. THANKS HARDY MAN! he's such a dearie!! he helped me wash alot of the stuff and taught me an easier to wash those things. instead of using sponge, he said use all the brushes is simpler. and use APC too. easier to remove stains.

but me arhh.. clumsy lah! keep getting into his way. but hardy is nicee and helped me loads. thanks loadddss!!! so... quickly went to dry those stuff. alr past 1am le. managed to assemble the frozen compartment or whatever. frozen box or something. yeah. then went to assemble the pumper or watever lah. WAS STUCKED THERE! GOSH! spent 1hr+ thinking how to fix it. even THERESA was faster than me. GRRRRRR!

actually.. theresa is quite nice.. kind of guilty when she said im a nice person. nice and patient person. cos... im not really that nice and patient lahh.. so chattd with her abit. YES. i CHATTED WITH HER. YEPPS. GOT PROBLEM. she's nice. yeahs. dun condemm her lah, people. she isnt that ohmygoodnessforheavensake like what other people thought she is. yepps.

couldnt figure out, so asked hardy for help again. managed abit. then hardy came and fixed the thing in. really grateful to him! but by the time, its alr 2am+. so hardy, theresa, siew eng, kevin all left. raj was to stay with us cos the route is not smooth lah. as in, when taking the taxi. yepps.

was almost hopeless with those things. wanted to call RENYONG up. budden... HE'S IN ARMY! NO PHONE! ARRGGGHH! wanted to call pin. budden kat say he got school, so dun disturb him. so.. gotta fix the thing myself.

RAJ IS MY SAVIOR!! i was singing, 'shi shang zhi you renyong/kat/siew eng/raj hao'. LOL. so... kat went to create kevin's account. then me and raj chatted. yepps. raj's nice. (: then the 3 of us went to think how to fix those stuff. raj is smart man! he arhh.. just take a look at the heat treat then he know how to put where into where. smart guy. really thanked him man!

realised that i didnt pull out the 'revolver'. and forgot to put alot of things. GOSH. im pathetic!! so.. we quickly wash and wash. put those stuff. pour sanitizer water and mix. and ta dah! DONE! by the time its alr 4am+. SADD... all my fault lah. i let renyong down. im not pei to be his disciple!! wanna commit suicide. =x

my hands are full of the petroleum gel and APC smell. GROSS. so.. the 3 of us went to take taxi. didnt went long for it. kat went off 1st. was touched by kat's concern! YEPPS! so niceee... but so paiseh cos i drag her down. she gotta pray for her dad tmr then gotta meet the rest of them to celebrate bdae. REALLY SORRY KAT. gosh...

so... dropped raj next. yepps. hope his parents allow him to work! (= he can be the next person to wash heat treat. he's such a PRO. wahhh!! WORSHIP HIM MAN! LOL. hahahs. then.. went home. yepps. mum was alr off to work liao. then dad woke up 1/2 hr later to work too. SEE HOW LATE I AM YESTERDAY. wahh, siao man.

lucky dad didnt lock the door. went to his room to sleep. rather uncomfortable, cos got those BIG cushions. not nice to lie on. =( but okay lah. managed to catch some sleep.

TODAY
woke up at ard 12nn+. ate breakfast. [no lunch cos ah ma didnt cook. =(] went to the mama shop and bought fruit juice and ice cream for family. yepps. see! im so nice. hehs! then i told my elder brother about the 'act cute' stuff. LOL. then i asked him if he got act cute when taking phtotos. he said no. then suddenly he said, "no lah. sometimes i at night will take your handphone and take self photo and pose all those act cute poses." then im like ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

my brother saw my face and said, NO LAH. you think im liddat meh.

i sighed in relief. after awhile i asked my brother, "ayy, you sure you didnt take my hp and take photo?..."

my brother gave me an exsperated look and went back to his com. hahahaa. he once took photos of my younger's bro butt and put it as wallpaper!! GOSH! that day when i woke up i was like, wondering what happened to my wallpaper. and i realised it was a butt!!! GROSSSSSSSS!! quickly deleted it and put password on my access to multimedia. stop my brother from being a psycho. LOL.

anyway... where was i? ohyea.. talked with my elder bro for awhile. then went on playing neopets. talked with mao ze dong. aiyah, dun wanna think abt doug. cos it makes my blood boil!!
whatever mao ze dong. i know you'll be with doug. so, no point arguing abt it.

bro took over the com WITHOUT MY PERMISSION when i went to bathe. so.. sayonara to my neopets. :'(

went to work and saw lingxiang and viet arranging storeroom. THANKS LINGXIANG FOR GIVING ME THOSE TOYS!! lingxiang is soooo sweeet man. give me those toys. so helped viet with the storeroom. ~~in hoping that i'll get more toys. =p~~ mmm, when sixty second come, had to go and helped my poor joyce.

my best manager kana bullied!! by laytin. cos del's sick... so no one can do closing. so del called and asked if joyce can help closing or not. joyce had no choice cos there's no more managers can help, so she agreed. that laytin wont even help. and its like, if joyce didnt agree to help del, del gotta come down and work! del is sick and laytin is asking her to work. SIAO. pooor del. wonder what happened to her. nvm, shall ask her tmr.

so... did lobby, hots and DC. yeah. mao ze dong was jeering at me for yesterday's incident. WAHLAO EH. have some pity cann... :'( anyway... did HOTS abit.. SAW LANCE! THAT GUY ARHH!!! wahhhh, hole here, hole there, everywhere got holes!! scary! the way he pull his ear-spear? out was grossss!! almost wanted to vomit. cos it remind me of SAW II. my elder brother watched it and he was telling me the story. it's damn SICK. that movie is SICK. URRRGHHH.

mmm, went for break after awhile. hardy is as funny as usual lah. decided to write the steps out for how to wash the heat treat. mmm, went into counter after break. nothing muchh. do and do... xueREN was like coughing after she came back from break. gosh.. poor her. then that hardy keep mis-hearing her orders and had to ask her to repeat. >.<#

anyway, do and do. then that mao ze dong horr.. WAD FUTURE CREW LEADER. dun talk rubbish lah. then hardy become all so... courtsey. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

anyway did counter until like 1030pm+. oh! alicia and xueqin came down and 'protect' xueREN. yepps. kenny and gang came down again. joyce was damn pissed off by them... my poor best manager... hope she can pull thru tonite!

went home after 11pm. yepps. gonna be broke! mum wants to borrow 120bucks from me. haiz... there goes my payy... die! how to buy presents for christmas?! haiz hai haiz!

shall go sleep now! its been a tiring day. goody nite! (=

*dun feel like working on friday! =X

LAZY

2005-12-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.. im getting too lazy to blog everyday... all thanks to my sleeping habits lahh... its like, i wake up about 11amplus then watch tv. play neopets. [got the advent calendar thingy leh, got free gifts everyday! bu na bai bu na!] yeah... then by the time its around 2 or 3pm, i gotta prepare to go work. then thanks to viet, i always worked till 10pm+. so... when i reached home, it should be around 11pm+. so where's the time to blog?? sometimes im jus too tired to do so... haiz.

i know im jus finding excuses. cos if i really have the mind to blog, i wouldnt have cared about time and watsoever. somehow i felt i've let down renyong. cos i cant update daily so that when he's free, he can come and see what happened to HGPT. haiz...

weizheng called me on saturday nite. i dunno how he get my number but he jus called me to tell me that jun an left his SPORTS SHOES in his locker. think he forgot to check his locker before leaving. stupid man. so weizheng asked if i wanna have it, cos neither of the team wans his shoes. but what's the point of having it? i mean, i cant wear it. maybe i can give it to my younger bro, but my bro is a destructive machine. any shoes on his leg wont last for 2 months. and that's already quite good liao.

so... i just told weizheng to keep it first. cos i really have no use for it. actually i didnt wan to continue the conversation, cos my house phone cranky le. budden he keep talking and talking, so i just gotta go on with it. half of the time i cant even hear what he's talking about. haiz... yeah. he told me abt the farewell party his class held for jun an. and blah blah blah. talked for like... 45mins, then my ah ma screamed for me to hang the phone, so yah lor.

[p.s: if u people call my hse phone and sense that im eager to hang the phone, im not being rude or smth, but my phone got prob lah... the line kana striked by lightning. so got those zzz-zzz noise.]

1st jun an, next renyong. every nice people are leaving. kinda lonely and sad...

anywayy...

friday

the 1st day of work without renyong. kind of gloomy. dun really like kenny's atittude nowadays. he's becoming more bossy and thinks he's more smart than us. and his head is getting more swollen. haiz... i really dun get these people... seriously, i hate people who look at the cover and overlooking the inside. i mean, never judge a book by its cover, never judge a wallet by its appearance. yes, i agree that kenny's service skill is great, but you think he's great? to think he was under observation, if you get what i mean.

did kitchen alone, i think. do and do... cant rmb what i did lah... oh, i wasnt supposed to be working that day. but viet called me down i think. yeahs. ohyeah, alicia came into kitchen and worked with me. GOSH!!! it was a nightmare!!! that woman is seriously off her bonkers!!

one thing, she's obsessed over indians! she wanna marry an indian!! she's crazy over it!! then he started having this, 'bangaladesh' slang. it was sooo stupid cann. she didnt dare to speak louder in those slangs when there's indian around. cos she scared they may go and bash her up. LOL.

next, crazy alicia went to make alot of funny noises. like being a parrot and keep saying hello. [though she said she's trying to mimick mr bean.] then she started saying, 'yi-ba-yi-ba-an-de-na-an-de-na'. i think it was some kind of disney character, a cow boy i think. wah lao.. she damn crazy lorr. can you imagine the scene: im concentrating on working, but the only kitchen crew i have was alicia, making those funny noises and distrupting my focus. gosh...

the worse was the roadrunner. CRAPP MAN. at 1st, she only keep 'beep-ing'. and she often sneak up on me and beep beside me. and ITS CRAZY CANN. oh my goodness... then there was this time i ask her to hurry up then she made those 'wind rushing pass' noise. she's trying to mimick the road runner, not only the beep beep, but also the way he runs! crazy woman. that was really hilarious, cann. i really cannot take her craziness, so i kept laughing and laughing. that alicia really gone mad. she's taken over the position of RM in BGMP.

fled to the counter with xue qin. cos i really stand working with alicia. then alicia went any step into insanity. mimicked SUPERMAN. you shld have seen her posing the superman pose. damn funny cann. so i keep laughing and laughing. siao siao alicia arhh... lucky she punched out at 930. or else i think i will die from laughing.

ohh.. while i was having my break with indah, we were both browsing thru this catalog. we saw loads of flowers! yeah! got teddy bears inside the bouquet of flowers! so cute! then we started looking for the most expensive flower. and you know what's the most expensive flower? its the one that you give to a funeral... think it was around 500bucks. LOL.

anyway... punched out and went to decorate the store for christmas with xueqin and alicia. some of the decors are very cute! like the silver ball with snowman/santa on it. i liked it alot. hope i can take it home after christmas. the mirror alicia decorated is nice too. i liked it too.

deco and decor. douglas cheat us of our feeling. he said we have christmas tree but when he dig into the storeroom, we found none!! hmph! waste our time! anyway... the 3 of us stayed till closing. yepps. ohyea! while we were doing our stuff, a weird smell came. a smell of burning. joyce panicked cos they thought it came from the manager's room.

after a few investigation, we found out its the MCFLURRY MACHINE! hohoho. joyce said she saw sparks. so... doug and pin went to investigate more. HOHOHO. asked for their last words cos they may die anytime. the machine might just blown up! wheeeeeee!! in the end, none of them died. sad sia...

anyway... we finished the deco. then xueqin floated to china cos she's simply to tired. then.. joyce told us about the spicy single thingy. then pin went to change the translide for the new promotion. helped to wipe the trays and so forth.. then do and do... finally can go home! yepps! took cab with hardy, xue qin and alicia. yeah. dropped alicia off first then xue qin.

talked with hardy. he's really a nice person! yepps! though abit dirty minded... HOHOHO. okies. yeahs! i liked talking to hardy. (: finally reached home, thanked hardy and went home to sleep. TIREDD!

sunday

cynthia called me to work. to replace xueREN. yeahs. so... went there. did counter initiallyy. then went to kitchen with weilong. yeah. HAIZ. weilong, jiasheng and jiesheng all cannot come with us to sentosa. SAD. so.. its all girls lah. YEPPS. that jiasheng arhh... wah lao eh he.., he said he dun wan to come with us. MEAN. at 1st i thought its becos he's taking his results that day, who knows! he told me he dun wan to come!! GRRRRRRRRR!! jia shengggg!!!! haha. but okay lah. (:

ohyea, cynthia announced that we've reached japan. E RA SHI MA SE! [or whatever it is]

did kitchen then mao ze dong came. worked kitchen with him. yeah. okay lah, but i also dunno why we cannot compromise on one thing and must always argue. yeah. OHYEA, douglas koh. someone pls, check his mouth or tongue or whatever. PLS ask him to speak PROPERLY. and not MUMBLE around. and stop THREATENING PEOPLE. saying you want to SCOLD or HIT people. you have no RIGHT to DO SO. okayy. so what if you're manager. does being a manager gives you the authority to scold or hit people jus because they do something wrong.NO. so watch your tongue pls. not everyone can take your language.

actually i dun have mood to continue blogging. but aiyah.. since i've written, jus continue lor. i still got 1/2 hr more.. then i gotta go work. haiz.. tired arh!!!

okies.. where was i? ohh yeah. i also dunno why people liked to think me and mao ze dong are together. 1st is ah hong auntie, next is dosy, then douglas. i dunno how many people have mistaken before but, just to make clear that ME AND MAO ZE DONG ARE FRIENDS ONLY. yepp. nothing more. it amuses me to think that doug say we got 'husband and wife' look, or whatever. its quite an insane thought. hmm... insane people come up with insane language and think of insanity. YEAH. that solves the puzzle. (:

was really irritated with douglas yesterday. i have really confirm my thinkings. i really CANNOT work with douglas. just cannot. the way he works is really... i dunno how to say. aiyah, and anyway, when did i ever liked him or his working style? from the start, i have alr disliked him. its becos he's mao ze dong's AHEM, that's why i didnt want to hurl more insults at doug. and in front of mao ze dong. i know mao ze dong will stand in front of doug and help him say nice things, that's why i was behaving like that in the kitchen. you get me, mao ze dong? good boy. *pats head* i dun wan to hear what's doug's reason for like this or whatever. he has his reasons, its HIS PROBLEM. he shouldnt affect us. and he shouldnt use his reason to be his excuses. aaahh, i dun wan to talk anymore. its lucky he's not working today.

and perhaps its my bad mood or something, when alena came in and saying that her hand hurts, i really feel like screaming at her to shut up. yes i know it hurts, but why make a big fuss and making such a din. it adds on to my temper cann.. haiz... dunno lah. maybe its my sleeping pattern again, lack of sleep results in short temper. oh wells. but at least i didnt scream at her. yeah. managed to bite my tongue and continued working.

ohyea, dont take my cheerfulness for granted. im a human too, i feel emotions and everything too. everyone's different. maybe some of them liked your way of working, but not everyone does.

i know doug purposely asked if i wan to punch out early. cos of my temper mah. that's another thing i hate. are you trying to say that you dun need people who has atittude to work? and it affects other people too? or are you jus asking me to relax or whatever? i dun need okay? whereas working makes me relax. cos at least i can focus my negative energies on something else, instead of fuming and storing inside my body. haiz.. WATEVER.

punched out and went and talk with xueREN and xueqin. yepps. talked and talked. alena came and we talked about our christmas planning and gifts. went to talk about our schedule and so forth. changed the schedule with kat. im really sorry that i cant go out and celebrate with you guys. but i wanna train new crews!! okay okay.. that's a lame excuse. aiyah..

okayy.. then we went off... xueren and xueqin went Ave 8 to take bus so i went to the bus stop and talked to pin and alena what to get for kat. yepps. pin suggested perfume. so.. okay lah. dunno what brand to buy or whatsoever. alena's bus came and she went off. yeah... then pin accompanied me to walk to the bus stop. finally told him why im behaving like that in the kitchen. i didnt mean to affect you with my mood, but its just that telling me things about doug doesnt helped. in fact it will worsen. i dun wan to hear anything about him. and i dun like people to say im an idiot when im doing NOTHING WRONG. if you joking say im idiot and at that time im really behaving like an idiot, i admit. im an idiot. but you are just.. haiya. no more DOUG!!! grrrrr!!

okayy, then yeah. talked about macs peeps. dunno lah. its good to help each other but i somehow just dun wan to help kenny. cos of his atittude. haiz. ~~hope he fail his NSRS.~~ ooops! went too far. (=

anyway, my bus came after pin's. impatient man, mao ze dong. haiz.. but thanks for being concerned. sorry for giving you atittude in kitchen. but hor.. its been quite sometime since i gave atittude. yeah. kinda miss being atittude. LOL. yeah.

okies. shall go bath liao. going workk. wonderfoo and meow! yepps! happy happy day! (:

SADAY

2005-12-02T00:50:00.000+08:00

you know what? i typed a loooooong post about today and ytd. and it was gone! now i must retype!! but i'll just write the impt ones.

wednesday

had crew chit chat. boss was damn black face that day. atmosphere was funny. ren yong scolded kenny's cousin cos they were such freaking annoying bastards. he scolded them CHEE BYE. i know its crude and rude but its what they deserved. saying those rubbish and stuff. fancy asking joyce to divorce and saying xueren's kenny's lao po. KU KU NATHAN arh all of them. but im soooo super glad that ren yong scolded them. or bi quek! say somemore lah. it was damn shuang lor. ren yong finally, after bearing for 5yrs, managed to scold a customer right in front at the counter! whooopee!!!!

thursday

its a very sad day... today is ren yong's last day. kat, joyce, alena, xueren, xue qin and loads of people gave present to ren yong. and ren yong had his last chance of being PC today. hehs! so long never hear him being PC and giving orders. ((: anyway, there was a crowd rush and all of us[abt 7] went to the kitchen and helped out. it was cramped, but fun. so niceee.

then they went for dinner and came back, saying they want to go shopping. xueren didnt went with them... so... we chatted while we were doing kitchen. i can understand how she feels. now that ren yong is gone... there's no more people who would go have lunch with her and listen to all her worries.... haiz...

then the group of them came back with alicia. crapped around and ren yong left with kat to eat. then we talked again. it was funn! we talked about when to go sentosa and stuff. until now still havent decided a date. ))= i really cant wait for this trip man!

xueren left after awhile.. cos her dad is fetching her. so... bade goodbye. then the rest of us[xue qin, me, alena and pin] went to crew room and talk and eat. pin was trying to let us listen to the chicken little song, so he passed the ear piece to alena to listen. [i didnt, cos i dun trust him! dunno what he wanna let us listen. he didnt state earlier on.] then he passed to xue qin. while xue qin was seated comfortably on the chair, pin was plastered onto the wall so that the ear piece was extended to the both of them. hahaha. so xue qin was saying she's gonna listen on and see if pin was going to stay comfortable in that position.

but in the end, pin took back the ear piece lah. mmm, then ren yong went home and the whole grp of them followed him. i didnt lah... cos somehow i just dun wan to stay longer with ren yong. the more i see him, so happy and cheerful, it makes me feel sad too... haiz. so stayed in store and went off with kat.

walked with kat to the traffic junction and parted. can see that she's very upset about ren yong's leaving. haiz...

im really gonna miss ren yong. the santa claus cum cai shen ye. dua jia niao ci[big mouse in hokkien.] master of internet. [LOL] and our always cheerful manager/crew leader and half woman. haiz... guessed HGPT will have less laughter.. cos ren yong is always making us laugh... without ren yong and with lay tin around... things will get more serious... no more short cuts le lah... sad... really sad.

was on msn with xueren and renyong. then xueren left cos of her dad... then talked with renyong. he's really a GREAT guy. really. even though he cant be a woman, but he will be a great man. [and soldier. =))] time is really short man... renyong went to bed cos he's gonna be in tekong at 830am tmr. apologized for the things i've done to him... really guilty. been carrying this burden for long... finally can apologize to him. i was really crying when i typed those things out, cos i just feel that i really owed ren yong alot. he's really nice... and i actually was that bad to him...

we're really gonna miss you, renyong. rmb to come back and visit us! HGPT and everyone will be there for you! jiayou jia you jia you! =)))

endless tales

2005-11-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

monday

did counter. ren yong and sharon were in the crew room. ren yong was trying to blow the biggest balloon, and that's REALLY SCARY CANN!! fled out of the crew before it blown up. but ren yong tried to trick me into the crew room again, then arhh, the balloon's rubber was almost stretched to quite big le, he wanted to blow bigger man!! siao!! ran away again, before things get too BIG.

joyce bought ren yong a birthday cake. so... sharon went to fetch it. nana went along, strangely. then when she came back, i saw her sneaking a small cream cake on her hand. after awhile, i heard nana shrieking then i quickly went inside and saw both nana and ren yong's face kana creams. then sharon told me nana smacked the cake onto ren yong's face! hahahas. so funny! then we sang birthday song to him. after ren yong washed up[with many complaints saying the cake went inside his nose], they lighted the candles and asked him to make his wishes.

nana recorded the whole process of this, which is hilarious.

ren yong wished that alena[his lao po] would agree to their engagement. alena went so paiseh man! then nana asked them how many kids he wan. then ren yong say he wans 11, can form football team. then viet or whoever, wanted alena to give ren yong a BIRTHDAY KISS! oh mans!! alena was like soooooooo red and ren yong was also embarrassed too. in the end, they didnt do anything, not even a hug. viet suggested, '5 mins in the freezer'. but nothing happened too. so in the end, he blew the candles and cut the cake. the whole process was soooo funny. lucky nana got record this. its sooooo funny!!

nothing much happened afterwards, which we resumed back to working. yepps.

washed the heat treat at the counter front with mao ze dong at 8pm. damn complicated. dun like this machine. that mao ze dong keep blaming me for slopping water all over the heat treat and at the backsink. had fun scrubbing the heat treat though. (: mmm... lost some of the rings again. [at the same place too...] i think me and pin are pathetic at washing heat treat. then arhh... that mao ze dong had this policy saying what, 'each wash half of the heat treat'. siao leh. why must like so... calculative?? must it be exactly half half?? aiyoh...

it was disastrous, washing the heat treat with pin. 1st, we kept arguing lor. then ren yong keep egging us on to fight. then the stupid 'half' policy. then in the back sink arh.. wahhh... mao ze dong is soooo clumsy lorr. kept spraying/slopping water. my face kana the water about 3 times lor. aiyoh.

it was even worse when we were fixing back those parts. 1st, we were squeezed beside poor kenny's counter. then arhh... we broke 2 more rings. cos that mao ze dong lah, so violent. tsk tsk. after finishing applying all the gel, we went to fix things back. aahhh.. finally thought can finish washing the heat treat. who knows? when we stock up the ice cream, and placed the 'so-called' last piece of the heat treat, the sundae mix just gushed out, spraying the mix all over the cleaned heat treat's face and walls. haiz... then we asked ren yong and realised we forgotten another part. haiz... we are soooooo... pathetic.

didnt try the ice cream, cos i think it's gross. yeas. after washing the heat treat, mao ze dong, kenny and i were in the crew room talking crap. think kenny kana influenced by me. cos he simply cant shut his mouth up about mao ze dong. told kenny stuff about mao ze dong and douglas. HOHOHO. and arh, that mao ze dong! kept using those duckies to heat people. if you dont wan, i can always give to kenny and rickmond. im sure they dont mind de.

left the store after a crappy session of douglas and mao ze dong. mm, walked to bus stop with kenny and his gang. rather lame lah those people. but.. still okay lah. bade goodbye to them and took 315 home.

tuesday

went work and heard a devastating news!! ren yong fell out of love le!! what i heard was, ren yong got alena a ring, and wan to proposed to her. but alena REJECTED! i asked alena, she say she rejected ren yong cos ren yong is not a CHRISTIAN! gosh... and ren yong was all so... sad that day. i was kind of... awkward in the kitchen. cos i was doing kitchen with alena. then ren yong was like.. staring moodily at alena. i felt strained... aiyoh... those 2 couple arhh...

then delp came in with bad news! she said... one of the rings was inside the ice cream!! and i think it was the 2nd time. man! gosh... why liddat?? it's all me and pin's fault... we didnt do a good job washing the heat treat... we even tried to kill the customer by giving them an ice cream that got rings inside, hoping they'll get choke and die. ARRGGHH!! we gonna be charged for murder!! im still young, i dun wan to go jail!!!

but of cos, none of such thing happen. 1st, both of us didnt hope that the customer will get choke and die. and 2nd, i think ren yong or whoever, sort out the heat treat. i dunno if they did or not.. but i sure hope the heat treat is alright now. [=

did kitchen with joo hua until hardy came. then worked with hardy. talked alot of crap. then... theresa came... yeahs... its quite fine now lah. cos.. at least i got hardy inside kitchen with me... so not that bad. then when mao ze dong came, told him that news. both of us starting fretting over the heat treat thingy... talked alot of crap then mao ze dong went out. then i was bored, so i decided to hide mao ze dong's nametag. hohohoho. i went and find kenny and made him my accomplice. ((=

so of cos when chairman mao came back, he realised that his badge is missing. you know arhh, i was really fighting a GREAT urge to laugh. but i think i did managed. so when things started to get serious, i confessed. i took his badge and hid it inside kenny's robes. thanks kenny! hohoho. i think i just betray chairman mao's trust by lying to him that i didnt take his nametag. but its all a JOKE. yeah! so fun!!

went for break as mao ze dong came in. then we rotate break. then delp wanted one of us to go out to counter while xue qin go take her break. so me and mao ze dong were, play sissor paper stone to see who go out. [cos neither of us wans to stay with theresa. so bad huh? aiyah..... so bad...] in the end, i lost. so i went out. pin has to stay with theresa alone! cos hardy's having break. HOHOHOHO.

went to counter and put on the jap robes. immediately, sharon gave me some serviettes. haiyo... then kenny keep mimicking me taking the serviettes. then delp and saw me taking the serviettes out and she was like, "HUIMINGG!! WHAT ARE YOU DOINGG???!!" hahaha. delp is soooo cutee! then we talk about the 'putting things inside the pocket of the jap robe and taking them out'. hahahs. then we kept laughing and laughing.

went lobby for awhile then went back to counter. then viet say delp is holding a christmas party at her house but we are not invited!!! then we made a big fuss about it and made delp soooo paiseh. now arh... no matter how she say also cannot clear the misunderstanding. HOHOHOHO. after the big fiasco, viet went home. then... xue qin and me stayed till 1030pm then punched out.

nana came and visit us. then we sudden had this christmas-y atmosphere. yeah. so noisy and rowdy. =)) went home at about 11pm. yepps. the stupid kenny arhh... catch up with me at the traffic light and tapp on my shoulder. then when i turn around, there's no one there, then when i turn back, i found him jogging beside me. that stupid kenny leh. so late liao still tapp on my shoulder liddat. siao people. walked to the bus stop and talked for awhile. then he left for home and i wait for 315. went home and sleep like an idiot.

i shall continue typing tmr. tired liao... see ya peeps... continue next time... :)

jupjup

2005-11-28T01:39:00.000+08:00

missing all my nai ma-s!

rigid and flexibility!!

im gonna miss the jap robes once the jap-promotion is over.

and my serviettes too. ):

oh, and happy birthday to our gu ye!! didnt managed to get him a key.. oh well.

think i maluated myself rather badly today. gosh. look at all those paiseh moments this morning.

douglas has been haunted by 'the helping hand'. someone pls help him!

oh wait, pin can do tat.

wahhahahaha.

i really find the present stupid. stupid present for stupid people. HOHO. jus joking.

okies, no more crap. going off.

missya nic and qin ai de! :)

gdnite!

disappointments...

2005-11-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

haiz... really disappointed these few days...

first to speak of, harry potter and the goblet of fire. i wont say it sucks, cos its pretty nice at some parts. but on the whole, i think the director pretty much sucked. mandy and i both agreed that the director probably didnt read the book, thus dun really know what the story is talking about. or should i say, the director probably didnt understand the story at all. the whole movie is so rushed out! i know its VERY difficult to make a 734 pages long story into a less-than-3hrs movie. but... there are some parts that are redundant! than there are so many parts that are missing or changed. good gracious!

and look at the way all the characters speak! its all so rushed and agitated! even dumbledore sounded so fierce and impatient.[i hate that dumbledore!!] it just dont fit what the real story. i even wonder whether JK rowling has actually seen this movie and approve of it personally or not. it's so... it feels so different from the story.

the casting of the characters was disappointing too.. viktor krum, cho chang, the patil twins, cedric diggory, amos diggory, igor... and so forth. after watching this movie, i really am not looking forward to the next movie. its kind of... its like, the last 3 movies, after you finished watching them, you'll feel like watching the next one. but this wan... i dunno lah. maybe im too demanding or what, but this is really a disappointing movie for me.

oh wells... anyway, today i went out with mandy and her brother to PS to watch GOF. after the movie, we went to eat and walked around. nothing much lah. and i think mandy's sch are abit what. i mean the people there...

mandy lent me her 2 dan browns' storybooks! hehs! finally got some nice books to read! wheeeeeeee...

went home around 5pm. played neopets. (:

ohyea, i think i can join the guinness world record for the most absurd thing happened to oneself. i actually threw away my spectacles! cos that day was raining pretty hard... then i was cycling home. so i put my spectacles into one of the plastic bags. so when i reached home, i opened the plastic bag and realised that the shampoos leaked! so i took out the shampoos and threw the plastic bag away! without checking whether i got other things or not! so.. there goes my spects. oh. dosy's probably the last to see me wear my spects. hohoho. cos i was meeting her to pass me some stuffs. hey dosy! your e maths txtbk is still with me!! wheeeeeeee!!

the next disappointing things is... with some people. why must you pretend not to see me when you did? now then i realise how childish it is. you may dun wan to see me or talk to me, but there's no reason for you to hide away from me right? you may think i dunno you are there, but i know.[cos im smart! (:] i just wan to say that there's no need to hide from me, cos i wont do anything to you. i know sometimes im abit blunt, but im saying what i feel. is that wrong? if i never say it out, im being a hypocrite. you know? i just wan you guys to understand me.

dumbledore said something truly enlighting. i cant rmb what's that, but i shall find the quote and put it here someday. haiz... i just dun understand why people love to poke and pry other people's personal stuff and gossip. i know everyone's gossip, but... too much is abit overboard. and does that make you feel you're more superior or popular? does these things meant more than friendships? more than loyal accompanion? haiz... looks like these things are losing their values...

what is the world coming to??... ...

think im going to play ultimate bullseyes again. its quite fun. =)

weird sense

2005-11-24T14:59:00.000+08:00

somehow... my ah ma's fried rice tastes like the sauce in the teppanyaki burger. is it just my mouth or is there something wrong with the fried rice? hmm...

working has been terribly tiring for me. maybe its my sleeping pattern.. i dunno. but i've been very very tired these few days.

ohyea, to my friends, dun bother to sms or call my hp, my mum has cut off my line cos of some stupid argument we have. i dunno when im gonna have the line back, but i think it would be about a few months later. =)

been going to HGLS to take things. met rohaiyu. she looked rather scary with her hair down. aiyah, too bad never see shi jia.

burnt my hand 2 days ago by the stupid toaster. now there's one long raw skin on my hand. it stings man... and it looked so... cooked.[christina say wan. xp] anyone fancy a bite?

oh! tina's coming on this sat for ling xiang and kenny's NSRS! whooppeee! i cant wait to see her again!! hohohoho. and i do hope both of them will do nicely for NSRS, dont throw HGPT's face!

and there's this stupid store tour this week. dunno what's that. joyce think its some students are going to tour the store. exactly how fun it is, i dunno. i just hope im not the tour guide cos viet got highlight my shift and write "storet". weird things.

today got 'reaching for the stars'!! i wan to watch!! but aiyah, got work. i've been telling viet that i wan to work morning shift but she doesnt wan to put it. i wan to turn hotcakes!!!

i know im sprouting nonsense... aiyah. dun wan to type anymore le. shall go play neopets. jaaaa!

IM NOT GOING TO SLEEEEPPP!!

2005-11-22T14:18:00.000+08:00

after too-many stern and reproving looks from viet, i decided to not sleep if i ever do split shifts. to add on to my guilt, lay tin interrogated me today about my 'no shows'. i, to be frankly speaking, did not feel ashamed when she FIRST asked me why i didnt show up on HER shift. but after talking for awhile more, i felt a bit guilty and bad. cos... its all about responsibilities! yes!

i think im begining to understand lay tin. kind of felt abit bad when she told me about her stuffs. cos... im more or less in one of those who are biased against her. i shouldnt follow the river... i should have believe myself. i once commented to someone when we were talking about viet, cos they were talking how 'bad' she was. i said im not going to confirm my dislike/likings to her until i have met her. but somehow... i just couldnt do that for lay tin. maybe its bcos derrick's one of the 'victim', that's why i felt so strongly towards her atittude.

apparently, i was wrong. i told her my honest opinion when she asked me how do i feel about her. she did not look angry... but instead, it was full of hurt and disappointment. i was quite... guilty... well, guess i've gotta try and understand lay tin, with no prejudice or whatsoever. i think i should have listen to pin when he was trying to persuade wei long and me to be more... neutral towards lay tin. haiz... rumors really causes blindness. kind of hate myself for being sooooo... stupid.

jun an went to malaysia... to live with his father...permanently... kind of lonely without him around. he said he dun think he will be coming back to SG for quite some time. its quite a shock to me to know that i wont be seeing him anymore. gosh... just typing makes me feel sad.

haiz.

i was reading thru some of my friends' blogs just now to kill time. no da's blog has almost decomposed, while wan ling's blogskin made me happy. cos... it reminded me of the dodos. yeahs. dosy's blog is abit lagged.. think its because of the music i think. yeahs. sarah's skin was nice! though it was... yue from cardcaptor sakura, if im not wrong. i was reading dosy's post on... i cant rmb it, but it gotta do with lmz.

i thought it was only me who felt that we are drifting away from lmz. cant believe dosy felt that way too. cos... i rmb bringing this up to dosy... but she seemed not to think so. and now... she felt it too... what does this shows? i seriously cannot fathom what lmz is thinking. i just... dun find her dodo anymore. she's more of exaggerating and trying to act funny. you know... like she's trying to fit into us... it works mostly for other cliques. like i would use lmz's method if im going to fiona's church or something, cos its more of an icebreakers. but... lmz and us have been thru 2 years, but why do i sense those... feelings like we're not close at all. maybe its just that i have never understand her ba.. i know lmz understands me, but i cant do that to her. i dunno why.. kind of feel sad to know that the dodos are breaking up. each with each problems.

i dun deny im drifting from them too. i admit that i have not been with you guys, like going out or something. sometimes on purpose and sometimes not. i dunno why i do this, but.. i felt strained with you people. somehow our communications seemed to break down. i really dont understand us... not like last time. i felt left out with you people, even though you all tried your best to make me feel involved. but i just think that we have something missing out. and you know what that is? it's trust.

we kept suspecting each other and only care the outside part of us, without really considering how we felt inside. we have many conflicts and misunderstandings, but never did we really voiced them out to be solved. we have a lot of disagreement with each other, but we never even discuss why this happen or what. we just get on with the misunderstandings. we dont trust each other. we dont believe in our friendships. we kept thinking that we are changing into different people. this is seriously one big breakdown of our friendship.

i really dunno how to patch this friendship, and just to be honest for once, i do not have the thought to mend this friendship AT THE MOMENT. cos we are too different. and i simply cant see why of trying to bring us together again.

and frankly speaking, i did not feel upset or anything missing out lmz, dosy and stackie's birthday. i didnt mean to do that or feel that way, but.. i just cant stand being with you people right now. give me some time and let me readjust my thinkings. but right now to all my dodos, hope you rmb this and i always do,

"once a dodo, always a dodo"

bad times

2005-11-22T11:54:00.000+08:00

just back from work. learned to wash heat treat today!! nice sia! its quite simple lah... or maybe its just because of ren yong, that's why it seemed that easy.

was damn drowsy today... cos my stupid brother lah. watched initial d ytd... then we stayed up late. then today i wake up at 5am. lack of sleep man... had fun in the kitchen. yepps.

then.. lay tin came and talked to me. yeah... talked for awhile then went home. felt abit sad when thinking back of the things i've done. oh well...

im gonna try not to sleep now, cos later im going to work again. downloading maplestory again!! wheeeeee!! i cant wait to play again. so see ya people!

im back... finally. =)

2005-11-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

whoa... been very very long since i last came here. how's everyone? hope they're fine. =)

loads of things had happened and... it will be tiring to list all of them down. so im not going to write it down.

going to watch HP&TGOF with mandy this thursday! cant wait man! and she's gonna lend me the da vin ci code and the angel demon thingy books. i've been itching for some nice books to read. i cant forever be reading harry potter right? yeps.

as for working... well. the new burger is NICE to eat. yeahs. and we had to wear those jap robes or something. kind of retard. and the yellow head scarf is FUNNY. hohohoho.

mmm, i've loads to catch up now. esp with my r/s with my friends. give me time, will ya? cos right now at the moment, i cant promise anythings, but lies. thanks for your understanding, nuriko will be back soon! =)

that's all then... shall blog something much more interesting next time. jaaa.

YEAH!

2005-10-15T12:13:00.000+08:00

i am finally blogging!

nah... just for now. im now at ben dan nan xiao's house with queen dosy sitting beside me. nan xiao's keyboard is soooo stiff!! its so hard to type. so sad...

mmm, nan xiao and hotohome are both in the kitchen busy eating. pigs. wheeeeeeee!

dosy said im mean. cos she said im doing nothing. whereas wl and nx are both eating. that is so stupid.

tasuki just msg-ed dosy with hotohome's phone. for ur information, its a lousy phone. cos dosy spent 10 mins trying send 1 pathetic msg back to her. SEE! its so lousy!

okies...

exams are overr!! so happy! wheeeeeeeeeeee!!

work was fine. nothing much. i hate the new RM. i want TINA!!!!!!!

dosy just scolded that silly ben dan tasuki for taknig so loooong to reply her msg. but that's not like tasuki. tasuki is quite fast to reply. bet there's something wrong with... the clock. YEA..

think im going to the kitchen now to hide from dosy. if i typed even more, i might suffered from more physical and internal injuries. so, see ya!

ps-> dosy claimed she didnt poke me, but she just did 2hrs ago. jaaaaa!

critics world

2005-09-29T01:42:00.000+08:00

woots! i finally blogged! it shall be a brief one.. cos my brother want to sleep.

Leave [get out]
17/09/2005
Somehow, jojo’s Leave (get out) came into my head when I was thinking about the title. Weird, isn’t it?

Anyway, today’s moon is very bright, stunningly bright. I took 2 pictures of it. Shall post it someday.

I’m tired of A maths, so I decided to start on E maths. But who knows? I left the book in school. Then I decided to start on physics, and found out again to my dismay that the textbook was in school too. So no choice, I started on Chinese and chemistry.

Went serangoon central McDonalds to do my stuff. It was damn crowded today cos of the lantern festival. Yepps. The service weren’t that good… and his hand was sort of shaking. LOL.
Started on Chinese, still okay lah. Ohyea, before that, I went to the bookshop and got myself color pens, a notebook for e maths and post notes for exams use. Hehs. Gotta make my life bright and cheerful, shouldn’t I? It would damn dull with pencil only.

Mmm, write all my stuff and saw wei yun. Wei yun… she was trying to be helpful… but… it was like.. She wanted to tell me the topics for the exams, but when I took out my notebook for her to write the topics… she couldn’t write it down. Cos she forgotten. I can see she was really trying to help… thanks wei yun, your thoughts will be appreciated. =)

Nothing much happened after that. Except for those bloody idiots who came and make soooo much noise. Wah lao, say what, want to burn McDonalds. Kao… so noisy. Some more got one of the boys kept knocking my chair, so damn irritated. So crude some more. Tsk tsk.

Started on chemistry, but got hungry halfway. So I went to eat. Hehs. But it was damn crowded. REALLY crowded. And then, I think they down crew or something, but there was only 1 manager on shift. Worse still, there was loads of crowd, and only 3 counter crews. To add on, the delivery men aren’t really happy with the waiting.

I was really disappointed and irritated by the way they work. I admit, they were quieter than us, but… they were a bit slow and there aren’t any team work, esp. from the managers.
Crowds came in and flooded them. The PC was rather zai, cos I dun think it down any products for long from what I see. Yepps. I was really infuriated when I see the counter crews went inside kitchen to take ice. I mean, there were LOADS of people, and you actually went to stock up ice?? Tut tut. Worse still, the manager allows it. Think the manager quite blind.

I watched them as I ate. Their apple pies were quite fast selling. It was rather amazing. Hahahas. There were still a lot of people and a lot of noise. Made by those stupid and irritating students lah. Wah lao eh, 8 students crowded in front of the counters, ranting loudly about some stupid stuff, and went out of the store buying only ice cream cones. Damnit stupid man. I was soooo pissed that I wanted to shout at them.

Left after I finish eating. Too vexed to study any longer, esp. if you’re asking me to study chemistry.

I will be studying very hard this time. It shall be a miracle if I pass. Oh! Anyone can teach me factor theorem?? I was stuck at it and I couldn’t understand or do a single shit of it. Someone!! Someone SMART, pls help me!!

I read a magazine and it states the symptoms of stress. It suits me a lot!! I was sooo horrific by this revelation that I started depressing. I think I’ll get depression soon. Oh dear… stackie! It’s all your fault! Humph!

I felt very tired these few days. Not in physical form, but in mental form. I’m carrying loads of things on my back and biting more than I can chew. Studies, work, relationships and the unknown. I felt scared, worried, anxious, confused and uncertain. I don’t know why I am feeling this way. Perhaps I’ve got too many problems yet to see light.

Like my studies. I’m afraid I wont get promoted. What if I failed? What if I really need to stay back for the year? What if I can’t do the questions? *sigh* I know I really think too much, but I must push myself to my limit. I cannot slack anymore. I’ve given myself too much freedom. It’s time for me to discipline myself.

As for working… work doesn’t appeal to me much anymore… things have changed so much. And I’ve know too much. It’s kind of a drag and you felt no motivation to do your best. You tried to smile, but you just couldn’t lift those muscles to a grin.

Relationship bothers me real lot. I felt the same tensed, scared and frightened feeling again. I never thought I would be afraid again. I couldn’t figure out just what was I feeling afraid of. It was the same feeling as the last time. I felt like escaping, I felt like hiding, I felt like avoiding but I just couldn’t bring myself to it. Both of them are dear to me, but I just dunno how did this feeling changed into something that scary?

I’m afraid of seeing, let’s call that person X. I’m afraid of seeing X. I fear being with X. I really dunno what to do. I’m afraid of getting too close with X. I want nothing of X. nothing. All I want now is to return to the past, like those time when we had nothing with each other. I missed those time when you were in your world, and me in mine. Sometimes we may accidentally bumped into each other, and we started yelling and cursing each other. But it was fun. It was, at least, better than now.

I rather we laughed at each other, than we laughed with each other. At least I felt more comfortable. I really dunno what this feeling is. I simply hate the changes in time and relationship. I hate it. Maybe I’m a stick-to-the-mud, maybe I cant accept changes. I hate to think of our future. I hate to think what will become of us in the future. Friends we are? Or more? Or less? Or even just nothingness?

But now, I felt the throbbing and threatening trust and care you had for me. It is supposed to be a good feeling, but somehow it was not to me. Your hopes in me are like pressures, I felt like I’m trapped in the sea with no oxygen to breathe. The things you said to me are like a strange pushing force, pushing me nearer to you. The care and attention you gave me are like a weird gravity change. You spin my world round and round till I felt dizzy and giddy. I felt insecure, tensed, scared and I felt that I couldn’t breathe properly.

I can see that you are closing in me, but not in those comfortable ways. But it’s more like I’m cornered in a dead end, and I have no way to run. You gave me no space to breathe, you loomed in the darkness, making me even more unsure of what lies ahead of me. I know you faltered in your steps too, when I showed that I wasn’t that keen as you.

I really have no wish to hurt anyone, but… this is really too sudden. My world is now upside down and chaos reign everywhere. I simply have no energy to carry on. I felt helpless and depressed. I felt like there’s no one there who can help me anymore, like there’s no more hope anymore. I felt like giving up, but I can’t. I mustn’t give up.

What’s this? I really have no idea what’s this, and what’s going on in me. I felt unsure of myself. I never felt this way before…

Wished someone would enlightened me and help me in this. Cos I do not wish to break another friendship again. I cant take another turmoil. I will break down completely.

I was watching sonic youth today. And… Wilson said something that really points out what I was trying to say 4 months ago.

“喜欢一个人，不是说去喜欢就可以了。而是要用她喜欢的方式来喜欢她才对。”

It’s the same thing I’m trying to say before. You wanted to help me, but you must help in a way that suits me or to my needs, then that is what call “help me”. not all help is the same… so… do you think you have helped me? Looking at the state of me today… I really doubt so…

Haiz. I really dunno what to do now. Things just couldn’t go faster, can they?

hehs... this was written on 17/09. dunno what crap im writing about but... just post it here anyway.
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mmm, been going out with alicia to study for quite some times now. funny lah she.

macs is going crazy!! i shant comment much but... i just wish that things would stay the same. i really hope that when i go back during hols, i will be very happy there and that everyone is having fun. no hatred, no prejudiced and everything.

well... im quite upset and guilty and anxious about what happened between alicia and pin. cos somehow... i felt rather strained. yeah. both are my friends, and i liked them both. but in this circumstances, it's hard to comfort or stand by who. just hope that both will get pass this soon. =)

i dunno if i have done the right thing, but my feelings these few weeks are rather mixed up. i've questioned myself, and got confused. esp. on what i have written on 17/09. friends we'll be then. cos i've chose to left your world. yea... sorry...

nth much now. shall go sleep. see ya...shall try to update soon.

PMS-

2005-09-15T13:43:00.000+08:00

i seriously think im PMS-ing yesterday. i really think i am. both chris and shankar realised that i was abit weird ytd. yeah, i agree too. but i just couldnt find the cause of this sudden moodiness.

i had a great and LUCKY dream ytd. it was VERY LUCKY, the dream was a very happy one. that's why i continued to sleep on. as usual, sarah appeared in my dreams. it's weird, you know? i rmbered her dragging me along the sch's corridor and stopping outside my class's booth. and we used nicole ding's glitter markers and drew names on our arms. i drew "SW" on hers and she drew, "HUIMING" on mine, strangely. cos i expected her to write "GAY". oh wells... that ben dan.

mmm... went HGPT to study A maths. still stuck at log... haiz. talked to shankar for awhile before heading for doom. who knows? that chairman Mao came and irritate me. haiz. i really didnt expect this.

yeah, got stuck at one of the qns and decided to call dosy down to help me. then talked with the chairman with loads of rubbish. he happily scorned at me and cursed me. i should have take his CLDP and bonk on his head. that should knock him out and shut him from distracting me.

A maths is "yi pian xiao dan gao", okay? hmph!

do and do, dosy came! my savior!! yeah, she was ben dan too, cos she also dunno how to do. fooled around with dosy. talk and talk, mr pin went to eat or whatever. then we talked somemore. it's really ridiculous of dosy to think of that. really lor. haiz. whatever.

then returned dosy her money, yeah... she got herself a shit-looking bubble tea. HOHOHOHO. talk again... then dosy went home cos its quite late... then who knows? the chairman is back. this time with 2 more thick files. wahh... he is really crazy. too involved in the politics i guessed. well, i think that's why Chairman Mao was the greatest man in China. yeah...

he read his SOC and i do my a maths. and he started to get bored and started talking rubbish. i think this chairman is a communist. he keeps thinking of defaming people. haiz. ohyea, and he cant keep his mouth shut about alicia and douglas. and he took fun writing, "HUIMING SUX". haiz...

as he continued to scribble on and talking rubbish, i began to lose my concentration too. and he started scribbling on my book too!! haiz... mr pin arh... are you that deprived? then i started play the square thingy ms lau taught us when we said we are bored. yeah. it does take your mind off things abit.

listened on to his long speeches, and one of the most ridiculous and funny thing he said was that, that ah hong auntie actually thought we are together!! i would have choke and spit out whatever there was in my mouth. of cos i didnt. i was rather drowsy at that moment, so i just said that elderly people are always liddat. yeah.. true wad. my auntie once mistook my neighbour for my boyfriend. haiz... weirdos.

our mr pin already has his belovedS liao... one is, DOUGLAS KOH JIE EN!! yeah!! next is... CHRISTINA! woots! so i dun wan to be the 4th party or whatever. i will be extremely sad if this rumour broke up their r/sS. yeah.. me and chairman are FRIENDS! okies? i dun like people who goes into politics. so Chairman Mao is OUT! so stop all this nonsense! i alr got my bf, gf, husband-to-be, qin ai de, and loads of darlings. yeah. someday i will sink and drown from all these boats. gosh! think i must go steady now. hahahas.

then mr pin went to have his dunno what verified. then i went to talk to shankar. its great to talk to shankar again! yeah! hehs! i managed to unlock the rec lock again! so happy!

we talked loads. its amazing i can tell shankar alot of my inner thoughts without feeling embarrassd or something... yeah. he gave me the feeling of mandy.. cos while others i tell them some of the stupid things i feared, they laughed at me and asked me not to be bothered by them... but shankar isnt like that. in fact, he listened on and gave good advice. i liked talking to shankar in the lobby.. yeah... but he's off to study too. cant wait to see him again.

shahrul did something damn stupid. he put the big cardboard box over his head and walked towards the party area. he didnt know that the shutter was half closed, so he knocked onto the shutter! so stupid! shahrul is sooo funny. just like eric wong... eric wong is damn funny!! i really like him alot!! yah lah, I LOVE ERIC WONG.

decided to talk to christina after awhile. listened mostly... yeah... then... it was 12 midnight... kat was finished with mr pin... so he went off... i want to stay on but kat said i should go rest cos my exams are coming and asked me to work hard. she sounds very motherly.. yeah.. so no choice, i went off too...

while walking to the bus stop... i was thinking alot. kind of makes me feel sad that i realised i was afraid. i guessed im not really brave at all. i felt sad and stupid for myself. just all of that sudden when i was walking. haiz... wish i could carry my pillow everywhere. so wherever i feel sad, i could just take it out and hug it, so that i wont be sad anymore.

haiz... oh wells... i hate growing up. it sucks just like logarithms.

spectic or spastic?

2005-09-13T11:22:00.001+08:00

happy birthday qin ai de! beautiful 16!

anyway, ytd my elder brother went to make his spectacles. he damn superficial lor. he chose the cool-looking spectacle frame without thinking whether it suits him or not. wah lao eh.. somemore its 118 bucks lor. total add up plus his lenses is 200 bucks!!! hmph!! pay up you bloody idiot!!

mmm, ytd i learnt 2 new chiem words! soooo happy! cos my ah ma, mum and my younger brother are screaming at each other. cos my younger brother lah... think he's emperor or something. he MUST get what he wants, then if we didnt do as he please, we'll be beheaded. so my mum scolded him and he retort back. then ah ma, cos she DOTES him, and she joined in the ravings.

in the meantime, me and my elder brother are eating dinner. we are LAUGHING AT THEM! hohohoho. i think our laughter broke the tension there. hahahs. anyway, we took the dictionary to play. and we found 2 fascinating words.

1 is hubbub! it means, confused noises. just nice for my ah ma and mum and my younger brother.

2nd is gagartuan. it means VERY BIG! it's used to describe creatures mostly.

hohohohoho. and loads moree! we had fun looking thru the dictionary!! yeah!

ohyea, ytd nite i was thinking of my pillows. cos all my pillows got name wan, so i tried to list them all.

my bolster- kiki aka ying'r ying'r
my 1st pillow- ling'r ling'r
2nd pillow- ning'r ning'r
3rd pillow- wing'r wing'r
my cushions- qing'r qing'r and ping'r ping'r

i dun like english name for my pillows cos it sounds weird. anw, im gonna get myself a new bolster! yeah!! whooopeee! think i shall ask my mum to buy. HOHOHOHO.

gonna find books to read now! seeee yaaa! :)

brewing storm

2005-09-12T11:39:00.000+08:00

i cant help sighing. its like... i should be the cheerful one cheering everyone up, but.. the depression and pessi-mist just caught up with everyone, including me.

wish i could be a beacon of light and shine in the dark, giving hope to everyone. everyone's down with each's problem.

i just went to serangoon central's macs to do hmwk. yepps. and i saw KAT! hohohoho! so happy to see her! its really very long since i last seen her. she said she took leave at HGPT... she looked thinner... and more frail looking.. and her face was sooooo white. but she said she's having flu... and she was doing opening in that store mah... so i think she has over-exerted herself.

i cant help to think that kat has changed. eversince that fateful day... she has lost her cheerfulness, though she tried to laugh and smile with the fellow crews there. i just hope that she will be back to her old self, just like the one in the pic. cos i rmb her saying that got a customer said she looked very cheerful in the pic. yeah. hope to see kat soon again and hear her yakking. hahahs.

on my way back home, i was thinking. things have changed alot. really alot in HGPT. people are leaving, people are stressed up, people not feeling happy... HGPT has changed alot... compared to the old days... i was very happy to be in HGPT everyday. but now... not that i do not enjoy staying there, but... as things get more complicated, you would wish that you didnt know some things and could get along with life without worrying or thinking so much.

i always prided myself as being able to look through people's false pretence. but... i was very shocked to know that, i wasnt that good at that actually. i didnt managed to see thru everyone's. maybe me too, like anyone of us, are always easily decepted by smiles and laughter.

aiyah, i shall just go straight to the point.

i do know that joyce's not feeling good lately. she was... i mean, she kept saying those sad things. what lost hope in life, there's no more love etc etc. you know, i wouldnt have known joyce had problems until ah hong auntie told us. to think... i was so convinced by joyce's smile and laughter. she was joking and laughing with us all along and with a pop ups of those weird saddening stuff. i thought she was joking!! but she wasnt...

i seriously dunno how to comfort her. i do not want to openly say anything about it, cos its her personal things and she didnt told us about that. we heard it from ah hong auntie, and its already kind of invading her privacy. but... i really cannot just stand see joyce like that... she's just trying too hard. i always liked joyce, and i couldnt bear looking at her laughing, while deep inside she's crying.

but she's very brave... and i hope she can always be. and that she could solve her problem as soon as possible... meanwhile, i think we should help her maintain her cheerfulness ba.. at least when she work, she wont be so stressed up or break down. my best manager... haiz... and i couldnt do anything to help her...

what's with kat and joyce, tina added into my saddening life. tina is leaving us... its weird to know that while everyone dislike tina, i liked her alot. cherina did intimidated me saying that tina is very strict. yeah she's strict. but she's very funny. its funny cos her humour is very funny. you will never expect that strict RM to crack lame jokes with you. yeah.

and plus also, tina invites confidences. i dunno about others, but i felt comfortable talking to tina. its like talking to delp. tina is like dumbledore to me. she's smart, she knows everything and she is one you can tell your inner most feelings to.

i do know tina liked me alot too, cos ah hong auntie noticed that and told me once before. i think i've impressed tina loads, and have disappoint her too. but i really dunno where did i impress her? maybe at DC? she said my ice creams are getting better. maybe at fries? cos she asked me 10 qns about the station, and i've got 9 correct. maybe its making sundae mix? maybe its learning to degrease stainless steel? i dunno. i really dunno why tina is impressed by me. she even told da jie that im a fast learner.

but tina's confidence in me is making me abit... guilty. cos i've disappoint her alot. be it in studies, be it in handling things or be it my working performance, i think i've not reached what she expected of me. and now she's leaving... i really dunno what to do. without tina, i've got this bad vision of HGPT... yes, tina's promoted. that's a good news. but leaving us, it's not a good news at all...

and i do hope this is not one of tina's way to make me take NSRS. hmph. i wont take NSRS just to see her wan hor! mmm.. maybe i will lah. aiyah! SEE FIRST LAH. i think too much liao. hahahas.

i will miss tina ALOT. yeah... cos we shared this weird affinity ba... tina... haiz.

then...maybe joyce is leaving us too... cos her travel fees are simply too much. the store cant afford it. haiz... my best manager...

then... douglas/renyong/cynthia, one of them may be transferred too. its not because i dun like douglas that's why i think that he'll be transferred out. cos, i really cannot see ren yong leaving us. he's too GOOD to lose. but he's going NS soon.. aiyah... i do hope we can see the santa claus before he leaves.

then cynthia? cynthia worked only weekends. not to offend lah, but which stores will want this manager whose working days are limited? so... that leaves douglas only... and i think he knows he's going to be transferred too. cos.. ah hong auntie presume that he agreed to this decision cos of the past events. i really hope she guessed wrongly, cos... i really hope douglas isnt this type of person.

haiz. then ah hong auntie said, maybe at end of december, 2 people will be promoted. it may be a girl and a boy. dunno who lah. it all depends of the approval of the new RM. yeah. wish it would be derrick. im really impressed by him. my darling~ oh im so proud of him. =)

haiz. i think im PMS-ing. i was crying when i thought and wrote about all these sad stuff. haiz... things couldnt get worse ba? HGPT is just like my home, i really hope the people there would be very happy. very very happy.

inconsistency

2005-09-11T15:23:00.000+08:00

i liked to think of the title of my post. haha. it may be troublesome, but sometimes its nice to think of wacky title. lalalalala.

went out yesterday to return library books. mmm, walked around CPP. nothing much lah. got the disney thingy on the concourse. quite interesting lah..

walked around and decided to go HG mall. nothing also. was tempted to buy 'the da vin ci code', but didnt. cos mandy's gonna lend me after she finish reading. yepps. i seriously need some books to read!! i cant keep reading harry potter forever?! i've been reading those books repeatedly. i can even memories it. gosh! wish sarah would finish her 'eldest' book soon.

haiz. i missed buying nice books to read. its like.. there's no good books anymore. anybody recommending anything? oh, i dun like to read books like, 'small ville' or those horrific thingys. mysterious are okay... but it doesnt interest me for long. i prefer literature books or books that give insights. i also like stories that are not real. eg. fantasy, magic, enchanted blah blah. those are interesting! if you see my books shelves right, mostly the books are categorize under those i've listed above. yepps! =)

walked around and decided to go HGPT to study. ohyea! i forgot to write alicia a complimentary letter! ohwells.. anyway, 3hrs straight of logarithms killed me instantly. but i was glad that i did it without any help. i was thinking of asking dosy to help me, but it was quite late, so i continued doing on my own.

i was half-dead when i finished. so.. went to chit chat with those lunatics. joyce arh... crazy le. play with the toy gun. tsk tsk. then everyone started playing. retardd!! but it was damn hilarious.

went inside kitchen to talk to christina. mmm... she's pretty stressed up that day. PMS too. haiz. poor her. then we started talking about 'WINDSTRUCK'! oh gosh!! that show!! wah siao... very TOUCHING SIA. haiz. but that show brought sad memories to chris. haiz... nvm lah.

some how... i felt that chris is very poor thing ytd... i dunno if they realised or not.. chris didnt go mad with us ytd. its like she said she find us stupid when we were playing with the toy gun. she didnt even laugh when joanne and pin were criticizing each other over the phone. and she felt damn left out when we talk about EX-crews... haiz.. but cant be help lah.. she's here like only a few weeks.. i really hope she's feeling okay now..

anyway, we've decided to watch, 'one more chance' together on monday! oh shit, i havent sms derrick, alena and alicia if they want to watch together... dear me.. later lah. something stupid happened when i was asking chris if she wanna watch. she was doing big mac wad... then after she finished, she sent it out. she told me that her friends said they cried when they watched the show. so i said, 'HAR? they watched san ge big mac-"

i also dunno why i said san ge big mac. it is san ge hao ren. not san ge big mac. then chris started laughing, saying who will started crying when seeing 3 big macs. and she said she will try to cry when she sees them. .............................

hehs, i really hope the rest can make it. yepps. chris wanted those new crews to watch with us... but... abit awkward leh.. dunno lah... abit funny. but i gotta agree that, the more the merrier. yeahs! but i do know why she wanna have the new crews to go.. cos she'll feel lonely if we kept talking about old crews...

ohyea! i know how to unlock the rec lock le! hah! im so smart! see one time then i know how to do le!! yea!

ERIC WONG DAMN FUNNY! i tell you, he's a born entertainer! he's soooo funny! i laughed like siao when he said chairman mao is carrying a gun and is a communist. then pin pin is chairman mao's son. hahahas. so funny.

and yah, that douglas koh. wah lao eh, so long never see him arh, he hor.. damn idiotic leh. say what i lead chris astray. say what i give wrong orders. say what i block his way. hmph! and he didnt wan to give me the keys to open the door!! and he doesnt admit he's crazy and he's 1st Asst in buangkok green macs. hmph! oh! i forgot to show him the duckie pencil box... i wonder if he's find familiarity in it... its his relatives wad.. his same kind... tong lei.

joyce also bully me... he ganged up with douglas... they dont want to give me the keys... then the 2 managers started quarrelling about what shift and cash manager thingy, then douglas infuriated joyce. and joyce decided to go home. HOHOHOHO. but of a good thing, i was let out of the store. Good!

went home and watched tv with my elder brother. and we started arguing what 'art' is. so boliao, both of us.

LALALA. who say i didnt blog consistently? HAR? i got blog hor. hmph! going to do A maths again. see ya!

grossified love

2005-09-09T14:05:00.000+08:00

wei long simply gross/disgust/irks me out!!! just because i disassociate with the 'crowd' he wans to be in, he thinks im crazy or something. i agree with pin. wei long likes to manipulate people!!

cos im not with the 'crowd' anymore mah, so he cant use me as an excuse to get near nic. so freaking idiotic. its not a pity to leave them. its a RELIEVE.

wei long is such a superficial idiot. one moment its nic, the other is joanne. cant make up your stupid mind huh? its all INFATUATION, YOU IDIOT! to think you grieve and sink so low for this stupid fake relationship.

you absolutely have no right to talk about love. cos you dun even know who you really like right now, let alone to be with them. i will repeat myself again, love happens between 2 WILLING parties. there's no such thing as to, as long as I love them will do. you can like them, but not those like to that certain extent. kao eh... think clearly pls. or else you'll end both you and the other party in the end.

that's why i dun wan to think so much of all those lovey-dovey feelings. for one thing, it might not be real. so why bother to make yourself so vexed over it? next, its stupid cos when you wan to confirm if those feelings are real or not, you dun dare to ask the party involved. STUPID THING to do. cos if you dun ask, you'll never know!

you dun ask, its because of rejection. so what if people reject you? it shows that she/he is NOT THE ONE FOR YOU. so why bother to go after it or even think of dying, when somewhere in the future, you'll find THE ONE? tsk tsk.

LOVE and CARE are 2 different business. i CARE abt you, doesnt mean I LOVE YOU. i care for all my friends alot, does that mean i love them all? esp. when you have opposite sex friends, misunderstandings will occur. and that's gross! and awkward too.

i admit, i dun understand love. but you aren't better. you jump here jump there, thinking its LOVE. you watch too much romance drama show le. haiz.. pls lah, there are more important things now. do it after your exams, okay? i also wad. like i've told hansen when he asked if im still stressed and vexed, i told him im going to do what's important 1st, like studies, before dealing with these confusing and complicated things.

i know people around my age are all experiencing puberty and all their hormones are abit cranky. who doesnt wan a someone[esp. one of the opposite sex] who loves you for what you are, someone who will be with you when you need her/him, someone who encourage and support you when you are down. who doesnt wan?? but dun get so obsessed over it. dun keep thinking of wanting someone to love. it might be abit lonely, but you still got your FRIENDS? what are friends for??

yes, friends and lover are different. they are different cos you cant do those mushy display of affection to your friends. well, that's the only difference. dun tell me you are really desperate for it? that is simply gross!!!

so what if others got a boyfriend/girlfriend, and you dun have?? its even worse to feel jealous of people who have bf/gf now around my age. cos it will not last!! only about... 0.1% of every couples around my age will last till they're old! so you think its fun to play with other people's feeling lah. one moment, you tell them you love them forever, a few weeks later you said you cant be with him/her anymore. cos there's NO LOVE between us. what's with you people?? cheat people feeling. tsk tsk. bad habit!

so why get your heart broken for these heartless jerks and flipflogs[my invented word. it means women who are superficial.]?? so stupid. haiz. i dun wan to turn my love for them into hatred. cos it sucks. like what christina and i said, when you cant get that particular person, you tend to hate the person. its not good to hate, people. do you know that? good! =)

rrrrrrraaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr!!! hmph! GRRRRRRRRRR! hrrrrrrmmm! finally blow off this stupid thing im trying to convey to wei long. talking to wei long will make you realise alot of things. esp. about love, where he's totally mesmerized about it. haiz! hope all these makes sense to you people. at least it does to me.

hehs, come to think of it. i didnt know i can write so much about this topic! hmm... maybe i can be a consultant next time! HOHOHOHOHO! but i find it hard to sympathize wei long now. tsk. haiz...

i just talked on msn with someone whom i forgot who. aiyoh. then we started asking each other who are you. lamo... but he's another superficial idiot lah. show offs. lalalalala.

shall do a maths now. see ya peeeps!!

great sense of acheivement

2005-09-08T15:59:00.000+08:00

its a busy yet enriching day ytd. yepps!

ytd-
went out with the dodos to study at heartland mall. lmz and chichiri cant come. lmz was sick... hope she's feeling better. i really wonder what happened to her underwear shopping she said she's going to with her mum.

anyway, i met dosy and chiriko 1st in the macs. yeahs! wheeeeeeeeee! there was alot of people inside.. really alot of people studying there. recognised quite some PL-ites. yeahs. then we went outside to wait for hotohome and sarah.

hotohome was late! and her hairstyle was... messy. shant comment much. so... we sat down and wait for sarah. decided to go in study 1st while waiting for that ben dan.

she came later, cos she got esco meeting. so... all of started doing a maths. wheeeeeeeee! mmm, laughed alot. sarah ate and we bought 2o piece nuggets to share. think nan xiao was very hungry. she kept eating. hahahas.

mmm, asked dosy for help in the indices qns.. then yeah. laugh and laugh. then we talked abit about studies. i dunno if i shld heed sarah's advice.. cos its like.. to me, its better. to others, its abit siao. yeah..

started baby talking with sarah to dosy. hahahas. dosyyy!! wheeeeeeeeeeee!! and wan ling is there acting pro abt maths. she cant even do surds! HOHOHOHOHO. wheeeeeee!

after 2hrs, we decided to go heartland mall to stretch our legs and our brain, if we have. yeahs. so.. went there. laughed like siao. we laughed everywhere. i dun like the cheri shop, that lady keep staring and following us. eeeee... mad woman.

went popular. sarah got the 'eldest' book! i also wan!! but abit ex... yeah. then we went bonkers as usual in the popular. wanted to get sarah her gay pencil box, but she didnt wan. think we found the perfect gift for our dear grandma. yeahs. it was coool! then dosy bonked nan xiao with the BIG world map. then nan xiao too, picked up a rolled up world map. it would make sense if nan xiao bonked dosy back, but she didnt. she bonked herself instead. hahahaha.

saw a SISSY at mini toons. HOHOHOHO. all of us keep staring and sniggering at the sissy. the sissy damn gross lor. the clothes he wear, the way he walk, the way he swings his hand. eeeeeeee... i think his friend know that we are laughing at the sissy, cos he kept turning his head and look at us. hahahahs. we had fun looking at the sissy, esp. hotohome and sarah.. WAHAHAHA. fascinating creature, aint him? =)

btw... GAYS AND SISSY ARE DIFFERENT! gays like macho man, but sissy is one who has some femine feature or behavior. yeah! get that straight all you ben dans! hmph!

mmm... were all sleepy when we sat down opposite mini toons. so.. we walked around some more and went to take bus home. saw the sissy!! wahh! so much of a coincidence, huh? hahahas. then he went down to the mrt. then we were wondering if he would take mrt or go opposite? so we waited... then i said if the sissy is taking mrt, me and dosy will go take mrt too! just to see that sissy! HOHOHOH.

but sad lah, he came out opposite, with his weird walking style. SISSY SIA! thought of waving at him while pretending to wave at some other people. but the people coming out not much lah, so it'll look suspicious. hohohoho. all of us hope we'll see him again, cos he's quite some source of entertainment. =) isnt that wonderful? yea, it sure is!

took 136 with dosy. yeah. dodo with her. yeah.. laugh and laugh. took 70. laugh again. hohohoho. went HGPT to study some more. i've moved on to LOGARITHMS! yeah! i managed to do 1 whole excerise by myself!! isnt that great?!

but... i was stuck at one particular qn. just that qn. hmph! yah lah, then i asked mr pin for help. wah lao eh... laughed at me. i know i have no logic. hmph! im brainless, didnt you know?

show him the duckie pencil box. hahahas. thought it'll remind him of his... *a hem*. yeah.. but im not going to use the pencil box for long, cos i dun wan to dirty it. this pencil box have great sentimental value... yea.. shall be careful with it.

mmm, talked with alena for abit and delp too. i really wonder how old delp is. cos wan ling and dosy cant believe delp is over 30 when we told them that. yeah.. delp arh... hmmm...

went home with my back aching. yeah.. reached home, ate something then, try to sleep. but failed. i stayed up the whole night. then decided to do A maths again after my mum went out to work.

the qns damn difficult lor.. i spent about 45mins on 1 stupid qn!!! arrrgghhh!! but at least i managed to finish it! yeahh! so happy!

went to sleep at 7 am. sleep until 2pm. hahahas. so here i am! yeah! wheeeeeeee!

mmm... well, i cant help panicking but im going to do my best! yepps! thanks yijun for 'worrying' me. yea. im going to buck up!

its amazing i can talk to my younger brother... yeahs. yesterday i told him my fears and worries. he told me his too. hahahas. then we started joking and playing. we played this game called, 'who can keep a broad smiling face the longest'. of cos i won! yeah! then we play 'who can dun laugh the longest'. i win again! though it was interrupted by dad. hahahas.

then we play the word chain. i win again! so happy. then he got stomachace... so he went toilet and fell asleep after coming back to the toilet... so im all alone... so sad... so decided to do a maths.

shall study again! see yaa! im going to finish logarithms as soon as possible! and KOH PIN PIN! YOU BETTER STOP POUR COLD WATER ON ME! I CAN MAKE IT! YEAH!

[mad eye] moody

2005-09-06T14:12:00.000+08:00

im feeling very moody right now... cant help thinking about those things... things that i should not even be thinking about... haiz. so... i shall post something funny here.

WOMEN'S REVENGE

"Cash, cheque or credit?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished
to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet, I noticed a remote control
for a television set in her purse.

"So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked.

"No," she replied, " but my husband refused to come shopping with me, so
I figured this was the most legal evil thing I could do to him."

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN

(A MAN'S PERSPECTIVE)

I know I'm not going to understand women.

I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax, pour it onto
your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root, and still be afraid of a
spider.

CIGARETTES AND TAMPONS

A man walks into a pharmacy and wanders up and down the aisles. The
sales girl notices him and asks him if she can help him.He answers that
he is looking for a box of tamponsfor his wife.She directs him down the
correct aisle.A few minutes later, he deposits a huge bag of cotton
balls and a ball of string on the counter.

She says, confused,"Sir, I thought you were looking for some tampons for
your wife?"

He answers, " You see, it's like this, yesterday, I sent my wife to the
store to get me a carton of cigarettes, and she came back with a tin of
tobacco and some rolling papers; cause it's sooooooo much cheaper.So, I
figure if I have to roll my own, so does she."

WIFE VS HUSBAND

A couple drove down a country road for several miles,not saying a word.
An earlier discussion had led to anargument and neither of them wanted
to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats,
and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?"

"Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws."

WORDS

A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a
day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000. The wife replied, "The reason has to be
because we have to repeat everything to men...

The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?"

CREATION

A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so stupid
and so beautiful all at the same time." The wife responded, "Allow me to
explain.God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me; God made
me stupid, so I would be attracted to you!

WHO DOES WHAT

A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the
coffee

each morning.

The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we
don't have to wait as long to get our coffee."

The husband said, " You are in charge of cooking around here and you
should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my
coffee."

Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible
that the man should do the coffee."

Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me."

So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament and showed him at
the top of several pages, that it indeed says..........

"HEBREWS"

HAHAHAHAHAHA... haiz.. i just cant bring myself to laugh.

maybe this is the after-effect of my younger brother's bites. he was biting me just now. yes. bite! its gross to see your younger brother biting you everywhere. that includes my hand, my arm, my legs, my BUTT?, my back... gross man... but its kind of fun.

ohyea, my younger brother's in love with my butt. then he started describing his Vice discipline mistress's butt to me. say its as big as a hot air balloon... a weird brother i have. OHWELLS...

my brother just came out of dad's room and said hello to my ah ma. haiz. he's behaving all weird today. or izzit just me?

ytd i accompany mum to tanglin mall cos she wants to see the doctor. so i went there... slack lor. cos tanglin mall got nth thrilling. but for me right, i kinda enjoy walking around the mall, cos its full of those antiques and asiatic clothes. then i saw 1 ang-moh making a gown. SHE'S VERY PREETTTYYY!! she was making this brown gown... very pretty. i couldnt help but took a double take at her. i hope she didnt realise that.. hahahs.

then.. i went back to the doctor shop and occupy myself with the goldfish the doctor is keeping. the goldfish like to shake its butt leh! aiyoh!! obscene sia..

i thought my mum and i will walk around orchard. but once i said i dun wan to buy clothes but i wan to buy digital camera and bicycle, she immediately change her face and said we're going home. haiz... my mum dun trust me at all... she said i will get accident while cycling on the road.

EH! my cycling skills are very PRO one hor.. i got give a ride for lao ma zi and cheryl before hor. and joanna too! wahh... im very pro wan leh... haiz.

but in the end, she didnt let me buy a bicycle... so we went home. went s'goon central go a maths. HAH! i finally solve the stupid maths qn. im smart! :)

went home and slack with my brothers. watch harry potter and the chamber of secrets. daniel radcliff's handwriting very ugly man.. then ron's voice break until like so hoarse.. like having sore throat liddat. but nevertheless, he's still funny.

yeah. then went to sleep. going to do a maths later again... so take care peeps!

weird tinge

2005-09-05T14:00:00.000+08:00

im feeling kind of jealous and naive right now... and abit stupid too.

in the between the 3 of us... only 2 will stand side by side. i think im kind of stupid to believe that i'll be the one standing by, supporting each other. yes, i am supporting them. im helping them. but why am i feeling those weird twinges. its kind of sour; kind of bitter; kind of ache; kind of hurt. well eventually, i've got leave the stage. cos the lights arent big enough to shine on the 3 of us. only 2 will stand and be approved by the audience. whereas the others will be at the side, clapping and be happy for them.

main cast and supporting cast are 2 different roles. much as they are closely connected or that they often contact each other, they are still 2 different things. i was stupid to believe that i would be able to be with you 2. but i was wrong. if i butt in, the whole scene will be wrong. the atmosphere will change, tension will build up, and the characters will feel very awkward. i dun wish that to happen! so i decided to leave, and fall from the mounted high hopes which i have in me. and that hurts, strangely.

this unknown sadness and depression is overtaking my mind and i cant breathe. everytime i think about or just be with you 2, i will feel very awkward. i shall leave this crowd, as its the best for me and you 2.

bestfriends are not odd, cos they are in even numbers, and not odd numbers. we will still be friends, but pls. dun draw me so close, cos i cant breathe. unless you decided to shake me and pull me out of this fog, then i'll see light and be with you 2 again... ...

justin tantrums

2005-09-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

went to HGPT just now in hope of seeing pin pin to teach me A maths. but he's not working today. so... have to do it myself, which is a vain attempt. cos i simply dunno how to do! SIMULTANEOUS EQUATIONS ARE NOT EASYY OKAY? esp. with indices. i dunno how to do indices lah! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

i was watching darling working in kitchen today... i finally understand pin pin's feeling. darling is really outstanding. he was like, doing mck, then do double cheese, then do cheese, then big mac. i wanted to help, but he said he could manage, which he did. it really surprise me. darling really improved alot! im so proud of him! =)

johnny came down today... then we talked. nothing much lah.. then joo hua came! with justin!

okay, if pin pin and shankar are reading this right now, i bet you 2 will be VERY HAPPY. cos justin was crying earlier on.. he was throwing tantrums lah... so... after he calmed down, we went to play with him. derrick wanted to carry him, but he dun wan and he kept saying, 'pin pin kor kor'. PIN PIN, HAPPY OR NOT? JUSTIN WAN YOU OVER DARLING LEHS!

so anyway... i went to take those photos for him to play. we gave him, joyce, douglas, cynthia photos, which he was very happy to see those pictures. then justin specially wanted pin pin and derrick's. no surprise actually. but suddenly he said he wanted SHANKAR'S!!! we were like, !!!!! shankar! justin likes you leh! then justin kept saying 'shankar'. hahahs. so cutee!

then he kept saying 'mankar'. but we know its shankar lah.. so cute.. then with some occasionally pop ups of 'pin pin kor kor' and 'derrick kor kor' and 'joyce'. hahahs.

i think lily is coming back to work. yepps. and qin ai de is coming this 11/9. or else she'll be terminated. yepps. hope to see them. yeahs.

tmr having tuitions. gonna sleep now. sweet dreams!

missed calls

2005-09-03T18:57:00.000+08:00

i kept missing my phone calls. i've missed 2 unknown calls in one day. HOW??? haiz... blame me lor... i've been sleeping alot these few days... its only 4 more weeks to EOY exams... DIE DIE!!!

you know what? i think kelly is not bad actually... i mean.. i watched the epsiode where they interview weilian and kelly 1 day before the da jue sai. then kelly was saying that she was often mistaken for being a snob... and that she hardly has friends.. it kind of... make me feel sad for kelly.

after i watched that show, i think that she's quite cute actually... haiz. if only that lu long quan would stop flaunting his close friendship with kelly. its kind of irritating.

mmm, went around central as usual... then i realised 5566's new album is out! im going to get them! im not really an avid fan of them, but i liked them. yepps. mmm, would it look stupid if i go buy weilian and kelly's album now?? ahahas... cos the competition is over.. then if you buy the album earlier, you are actually supporting them... but now it is over... ... errrr... izzit too late? hahahas... OHWELLS.

my neighbour walked past me today when i was wearing my shoes outside house and he said that my voice abit like landy's.[wen lan] then im like... ERRRR. dotss...

lalalala. wheeeeeeeeee!! going to do a maths now. seee yaaaaaaa!

WEILIAN!!!

2005-09-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

WEILIAN WON!!! wooots!!

i knew it!! yepps! my mum kept asking me who will win project superstar. i kept saying its weilian. cos he sings really well, despite being handicapped. i dun really like kelly. think she's abit fake and her singing is abit... shriek-y. but her last song was nicee. she sang well in the last song. [ohyea, kelly's fan club is called KFC. Kelly Fan Club. rather retardd actually...]

i was soooo super touched by weilian when the results was shown. YEAHS!! i think he's very shocked too. cos all the judges think that pan jia li has done better in the rounds... yeah. but he won! yepps!! goody good.

jun yang's singing is NICE! really nice. sound abit like lin jun jie. =)

silver is cute too. i like her voice, compare to pan jia li. =)

JJ lin jun jie is super super cute!! hahahs.

i shant go on ranting on project superstar now. but i want to say, WEILIAN ROCKS!! :)

went to HGPT in the morning to meet dosy to pass her a maths book. BUT WHO KNOWS? she's late! hmphs!!!

waited and ate breakfast. started doing A maths. then she finally came. that dosyy! WHEEEEEEEEEE!!

lalala. started crapping and dodo-ing. made ALOT of noise. hehs! so happy. (: mmmm, ate ice cream. OHYEA! the flavour burst is out!! so super excited!! but i didnt eat lah...

do and do... then dosy went to buy sushi. surds are super easy maths. i was like, wahh, so easy meh? i was actually enjoying myself when doing surds.

dosy came back then we dodo somemore. she kept pulling my fringe!! i know its long and unkempt(?), but im going to cut soon. before i turn bald like stackie or hotohome. HOHOHOHO.

then... dosy went home and i do somemore. do until i headache then i go inside crew room to relax.

nana was, as usual, trying to be sexy. hahahs. but seriously lah, nana is quite pretty and she sings damn nice! was listening to malay songs from her hp. i liked azarina's voice! wah.. the song damn nice. nana is sooo nice... she actually asked me if i want to go Johor and jalan with her or not.. but my passport expired lah... so cant.

mmm, slacked around and nothing much lor. laugh and laugh. then went back to A maths. then.. tina came... talk and talk and went home around 5 30pm.

went to sleep immediately. tired sia... a maths is driving me crazy. [you drive me crazy! i just cant breathe! im so excited(?), i just cant sleep(?) *started singing britney spear's you drive me crazy*]

woke up and ate dinner. watched PS and here i am. oh yea! mandy bought the [da vinci code] book. hehehe! i want to borrow! wheeeeeeeeee!!

sian sian sian... gotta mug for a and e maths soon... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

battle of the A maths monster

2005-08-31T15:53:00.000+08:00

simultaneous equations. this is a very direct maths. but its very complicated when working out the answer. so.. you'll need full concentration on it. there's 2 ways to solve simultaneous equations.

1- by subsituition. means, you sub X= N into an equation. then you'll get the answer for N. isnt that very very direct? yes yes yes...

2- by elimintaion. this is used when the subsituition, X=N and N is not a real number or a nice number. yeahs...

different methods work for different qn. so... you just have to think clearly which method to use. its always nice to work with easy number.

always rmb to factorise long long long equations, if possible lah. cos it'll make things easier.

next, SETS. [sets is supposed to come 1st, but aiyah...]
sets is actually very simple. always use a venn diagram if you cannot see the different intersection of the sets.

there are many different kind of sets. there is...

proper subset- n(a) < or equal to n(b) [when drawing the venn diagram, if set A is a proper subset of set B, they DO NOT INTERSECT! but set A is drawn in set B. understand?
subset- n(a) < n(b) [means they intersect each other lah...]
empty set- both sets doesnt intersect each other.

and so on... cos i cant really rmb... but i've got some tips on VENN DIAGRAM! =)

when trying to differentiate between A and A-prime in a venn diagram, its always nice to label all the parts with numbers. for example, this!

so... it's easier to see which is which... yeahs. helpful?? YEAHS! this is taught by 3B2 A maths teacher, *drum rolls* MRS SOH! yeahs!! a round of applause!!

yeahs... enuf of a maths now. shall be normal.

when was i normal before? oh wells...

queky called me around 12 something. bet she's asking me to go ZPS. but too bad lah... i didnt pick up the phone. so i didnt go.

my poor younger brother woke up in the morning to go sch, but when he reached sch, the teacher say he got red eyes, so cannot go sch. so poor hiu, he went back home miserably. hahahs. so boliao. wake up so early for nothing.

mum's eyes were VERY VERY swollen. so.. dun think she went to work. awwww....

im going to study a maths later. maybe HGPT or... s'goon ba... but i need to return dosy her A maths txtbk. haiz...

i got nothing to write lah, mr pin. my brains all clogged with a maths thingys... simply no mood to write anything here. and my a maths CAN MAKE IT de hor... i pass with A1 for you to see arhh... see small me...

its 4 30pm now, i need to study le. see ya people~

if you think you cant get it, then dun think about it. if you want it, then go for it.

things you'll never know

2005-08-31T01:29:00.000+08:00

i decided to blog about this... cos i think its very very very impt to me.

it hurts me alot to know that she's not hurt as i am. she's changed. changed into a person i wont believe its her. to think, i was so naive to believe that she and i have shared the same thoughts. i find myself very stupid right now. when other people are enjoying life, enjoying times with their friends, here i am, crying and wallowing in self-pity.

its very sad... i dun think i'll ever find the courage to find true relationship.

if you think im very happy and fortunate with my friends right now, you're wrong. cos without you, my life is incomplete, empty, hollow and everything.

all i've written here is from the bottom of my heart. believe it or not... i still cry when i think about you. not because of all those times we fight and the injustice we suffered, but all the times we've spent together laughing and everything... and that these fond things will never be mine anymore...

i really hope we'll be together again. cos i really treat you as my good friend.

wells... i've been wondering about this since last friday... haiz. oh wells... cant believe things have come to this end. i just have to face it, dun i? its the only i can do right now...

listening to wang ren fu's sha gua qing ren... its nice. shall put the lyrics here some other days. see ya people...

so much

2005-08-30T22:43:00.000+08:00

im really very busy right now so i wont be blogging for these few weeks. and plus with my stupid swollen and red eyes, i cant afford to stare into the screen for long and blog. its hurting my eyes damn badly. so, now.. i shall be brief to update on a few things.

fri-
went HGPT to study A maths. thanks and love dosy for bringing her A maths txtbk. talked to alicia and found out that she is actually quite a nice girl. mmm, hui ching came and pass me her A maths notes. thanks girl! =) mmm, sat and talked for awhile and she went off. talked with those crews. yeahs. stayed with them till they close the store. so... went to HG green then dad came and pick me home.

sat-
went serangoon macs to study. made alot of weird noises while doing my stupid a maths. and ALOT of people stared at me when i was making those noises. so paiseh. mmm, went mandy's house to study. darren arhh.. wahh... so long nv see him, he became quite rude and rebellious sia... anw, he's quite funny. but arh... nowadays primary sch kids are becoming more and more rude. bad thing. ate at her house and... went home at 1030pm. i hope mandy wont be that stressed up over her exams and tests. ohyea, and i hope that xiuwen wont irritate her so much.

sun-
stupid younger brother infected me his red eye. so... didnt study the whole day!!! CANNNOTTT!! arrgghhs. slack and fooled around with my brothers.

mon-
eyes are still abit red and swollen, so didnt go sch and meet ms kang. hope she dont mind... anw, my elder brother and dad are infected with red eye too... so sad. whole family almost kana. mmm, didnt study as usual.. cos got slight fever. dad was reallll mad with us... cos he just came back from doctor.. then he's hungry.. then my ah ma not home to cook meal for him... so he asked us to buy... but me and hiu got red eye... cannot go. elder brother TOO LAZY!!!!!!!! grrrrr!! so my dad was super pissed with us and keep scolding us. but i understand lah.. he was upset about his health too.

today-
mum kana red eye too. now only my ah ma not infected. but mine is recovering. so... think thurs can go sch le. went to HGPT to study A maths. mmm, thanks pin for helping my pathetic a maths. now i can ask pin to help me with a maths and viet for e maths. HAHAHAS! so goooood!! free tutoring. =) ayys... kat's dad just passed away... i hope kat will be strong... cos her mum needs her right now. wanted to go for the wake but dad,[maybe PMS-ing] scolded me and didnt want me to go out... so didnt go.

i hope things in HGPT will be fine... loads of people are leaving... haiz. what i can do now is buck up on my studies and return to HGPT as soon as possible! yepps.

i think i shld go sleep now... think fever is coming back. i will be praying for kat and her family... take care people... =)

fortune

2005-08-26T00:12:00.000+08:00

intrigued by my interpretation in my previous post, jun an came over my house after school and wanted his fortune interpreted. hahahas. that idiot. so.. yeahs. we sat down and flipped thru the astrology file.

he asked alot of stupid qns and all the cards doesnt seemed to reveal anything but rubbish. he wasnt disappointed at all, but excitedly and happily mocked me for not able to read-between-the-lines. he took great enthusiasm pointing rubbish to me and saying that he's gonna have a bright future.

then i was interpreting his dreams, which is EXTREMELY FUNNY AND FUN. i lovee to interpret dreams. cos dreams are funny sometimes.. and it shows desires of us which we cant have in our real life. so these desires are often played in our dreams. that's why, we have sweeet dreams! we dreamt of something we desire alot! :)

okay, so we laughed and laughed. then talked to pin pin online. he was DEAD pessimistic. even though its thru msn, i can feel this weird wave of sadness and anxiety. and i couldnt help sighing. oh wells... what he told me make me realised how naive and innocent i am. half the time i didnt know that darling is feeling that way. serious.

its after that night when pin pin has mood swing, then i realised that pin pin is a human too. and that he has emotions, moods and limits. dun be offended, okay? mr pin. yeahs... its bcos im used to being mean to mr pin, and i thought he would be very... hardcore. yeah.. and i always take his cheerfulness and friendliness for granted. until that day lah. i actually have the cheek to retort him back when he said he has his limits too. cos i dun believe it. hahahs..... aiyoh.. so paiseh now. [oh yea, this reminded me of my 'last day' at macs. cos mr pin told me he's very stressed and was PMS-ing when we were working in the kitchen, and he asked me not to test his temper. so i shouted to everyone that pin pin is PMS-ing and that we cannot piss him off. hahahs.]

so i think i shld treat our mr pin better. i will try to not discourage him so much. hahahs. okies. where was i? oh yea... mmm... i think i really need to talk to darling. and viet too. maybe tmr ba... after i return from sch. [i do know its cyberweek, but i got to talk to ms kang...or mrs jacob.] yeahs...mmm... as for mr pin leh... right now i just want to say that you should concentrate on doing your duties and should not be distracted by other things.

let me give you an analogy. [hahahs! i love analogy!]
its like running in a race. a runner have to focus on the finishing line, just concentrate on reaching the end. he/she must be determined to win, or else you'll already lose half the race. [experienced from OM.] yepps. so... the runner run and run, but if the runner was distracted by the jeers of the crowd, he/she'll lose its concentration. and the runner will slow down and began to lose confidence and blah blah. so... its not good! its the same as other runners catching up on you. if they are almost catching up on you, all the more you should run faster so that they wont catch you. if you're trying to overtake the 1st runner, just run with all your might. and not worry about that the 1st runner is super fast and that you'll never over take him. you get me?

since the managers have decided you to be the CL, you should do it well! you shouldnt be distract by others. if darling really have the abilities, he would have been promoted. you cannot change the past, mr pin. you cannot wish anything to be changed in the past! right now, you can only change the future! as for kat... prove it to her that you can meet her expectation. you shld know kat lah... kat this type of person... its kind of stupid to see that you're so affected by her. prove it to everyone that you are really the man for CL. but pls dun rush yourself lah. and dun think of resigning. resigning means you're giving up. ARE YOU GOING TO GIVE UP, MR PIN HUH? WHEN YOU HAVE COME SO FAR AND TRIED SO HARD?? [hehs, sound like 'in the end' by linkin park huhs? hahahs.]

so, dun give up lah hor, okay? i dunno what else to say lah... i hope you'll do well in this 2 months period you set for yourself. i dun think macs would want to lose a crew like you. yepps. jiayou! =)

phew! i dunno what im ranting about, but its the general overall thing for mr pin lah. since he's so dead depressing and vexed and confused about himself. oh wells...

now where was my initial topic??? oh yea... talking to mr pin. yeah... jun an was beside me saying, 'your friend very xiang bu kai hor?' then im like... hahahs... aiyah, people stress mah. its very difficult to think in mr pin's shoes when jun an is beside me giving me lame ideas how to make mr pin feel better. then when we were talking about kat, jun an was saying if kat irritates mr pin, pin should throw a yarn ball at kat. cos CATS love to play with yarn balls! then kat will forget about scolding mr pin and play with the ball! hahahs. retardd!!

so... mr pin went off then jun an went to read the astrology signs. he finally think that the astrology is talking crap when he realised that Aries and Capricorn are mostly avoiding each other and wont be good friends. he was soooo horrified by this revelation that he slammed the file shut and banged it on his head. i dunno why he does that... maybe he has went bonkers.... *i heard that he hasnt been taking his medicine... ssshh!! dun tell ppl...*

talked with sharon darling too. yeahs! i cant believe i missed alena's birthday! gosh... so guilty... then i went off to buy something for mum. jun an went home and sleep. then.. talked to dosy in the evening... hohohoho. hahahs. then.. mum came home and went to eat! i was super hungry.

after eating, i went to discuss things with devon about the film. then mr pin was back. he doesnt sound so hollow at 1st, but when we went back to our topic, he was returning to those depressing moods. awww... poor mr pin. he really should talk to delphie. wheeeeeeee!

went to read books then yeah.. nothing much le.

ohyea! i was having fun in kennysia's tagboard. hahahas. i laughed like siao lor... esp. that furong jie jie. hahahs. soooo funny. yepps.

ITE so good. they having 1 week break. just realised my brother is in NITEC. what's that huhs?

nvm. shall sleep now. see yaa!

i dream

2005-08-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

im listening to i dream by taufik and trying to recall my dream just now.

okay... we[an assortment of students i know] took a coach to a country side, supposedly is an excursion. then... we had PE. we played football. i scored twice! so happy! archer and dodsworth didnt score at all. hahahs. so... my group won! yeahs! then.. we had mrs tan's lesson in AVA theatrette in this very old building. instead of watching shakespeare, we watched other class's PE lesson, which is football. hahahs. retardds. then i rmb yong zhi in my dream. hahahs.

then... after that, i rmb the 10 of my friends trying to take neoprints. i rmb janice, weix, cheryl m and erena is inside. ohyea. and a pretty girl whom i dunno. yeahs. we pulled sarah ben dan in to take too, but she didnt want. so.. after that, we waited for the pic.

sarah took the pic and we look at it, it was not neoprint at all. instead it was pictures of our journey to this countryside. then.. dunno why, i went to look for sarah, who mysteriously has disappeared.

found her in best denki??? yeahs...in the very same building. then she was talking to vivien about PB stuff. after that, we went to walk around and talk. then we climbed up the stairs talking something very serious. then mrs tee was behind us. yeah...

then we reached a corridor. this time we were at a school, still in the same building. yeahs. then... a girl rushed out of the class and gave sarah a half-opened milo concentrated packet. the girl said she dunno what to do with the milo, so she gave it to sarah. cos sarah is a prefect. so... i wanted to throw the milo into the dustbin but sarah stopped me. she said we should put the milo into a garbage bag and throw it in the dustbin, if not the milo will leak.

we did it and went toilet to wash hands. after that, we went out and the bell rang. and sarah said she's going for her lessons. then i also went for my lessons.

and that's the end of the dream.

this is very very weird. oh yea, and all of us arent in sch uniform. i rmbered sarah was wearing her white tee shirt and her red pants. yepps.

i think i've sleep too much. oh wells. i missed liu qi zhou lao shi ALOT! aiyoh.. i miss his gayness... wonder if he rmbs me or not. so sad.

im hungry. shall go eat something. cya!

haiz.

2005-08-25T01:06:00.000+08:00

why are you still denying??? you claim that things between the 2 of your are VERY different. and that you're suffering under the pressure. YEAH RIGHT. cheat my feelings. its obvious you're copying. trying to be like her. hoping that you'll be like her one day, surrounded by friends, having those admiring stares from people. NO LOR. aiyoh!

things arent that complicated as you thought it is. it is sooo simple. just sit down and TALK! what's so difficult abt it? not as if the 1st person to say rude things will be beheaded. wahh...

you keep telling me how much you hate her and blah blah.. rubbish! you're just trying to show how much you are trying to be like her. you are plain JEALOUS. yah lah yah lah. im in no place to comment. yah lah, i dun understand. THEN WHY DO YOU BOTHER TO TELL ME ALL THESE SHIT?

can you try to be yourself? you're losing yourself or i'll lose my sanity soon.

hrmmm!!!! damn irritated right now. never mind, i shall listen to hi-5 songs. hehs! i got, 'special days' and 'so many animals'! i luurrrvee these songs! so cute. lalalala.

i think i got spilt personality. one minute im raving my brains off, next minute im bouncing happily to hi-5 tune. what's wrong with me??? RAARRRR!! *trying to bite something to maintain stability*

devon said she's going ngee ann poly. yeah!! cos i wanna go too. i heard ngee ann's media technology is very very goooood!

im making no link here... gosh... then i shall... just go hug my pillow and sleep... yeahs.

i love squishy!! squish! hahahas. squishy is sooo cute! =)

you are trying too hard to prove that all these isnt a dream.

hohohohos

2005-08-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

thanks gayathrii. yepps. actually 3B2 aint that bad. im kind of missing them. esp. sarah choo and hui ching. yepps.

anyway, i've changed tagboard again. cos its really VERY difficult to tag. hahahs. so changed to my all-times favourite. hohohohos.

i LOVE HI-5 songs!! anyone got Hi-5 songs, can send me? yea. your kindness will be greatly appreciated. =)

oh yeah, im trying to get that emerald gem in bejeweled 2. lalalas.

nothing much

2005-08-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

i've nothing nice to write these few days. so.. didnt blog.

anyway, yesterday nite was abit... weird.

**disclaimer** i know christians does not believe in astrology, horoscope and tarots etc etc. i put this up is just for some 'fun', so pls dun be offended or something. i personally dun really believe them. astrology is kind of a leisure thing, so people, pls dun take this seriously. thank you.

you see, i was bored as usual, so i went to rampage my room. and i found my old astrology file! yepps! though its not complete, but at least i've got half of it done. yeahs! so... i looked thru and read all the astrology signs and some myths and beliefs.

it was said that Aries is a born leader and is like... full of action and everything. then it is always associated with success and blah blah blah. but for me right, i dun want to acheive anything big or aspiring you know? abit nonsensical.

then i was reading on 'dreams'. cos... i've been dreaming weirdly. there's an assortment of dreams i've dreamt lately. well, but it's normal. most of us have about 3-9 dreams everytime we dream, its a matter of fact whether you rmb or not. yeahs.

as i read on, there was a columm on 'interpreting dreams'. so, i read it, since i've got so many weird dreams yet to be comprehended.

dreams can be classified into 3 main heading. they are-

clairvoyant or visionary:
this is the most unusual of the three and happens only rarely, if at all. the dream is on a larger scale and brings with it an awareness, while you are still in the dream state, that you are being given insight, unmderstanding and realisation.

precognitive:
this type of dream gives you some knowledge about the future, a glimpse into what could be. these dreams usually feature other people.

recognitive:
these are the most commonly experienced dream. they feature fragments of your recently experienced life, often in a different format but still recognisable.

there are certain type of dreams commonly experienced which have symbolic meanings-

directional dreams:
if you are going up then you are moving in the right direction. going downwards means you are tackling a situation in the wrong way. turning left means you are follwing intellect and reason, going right is the path of intuition. going round in cicles means you're not getting anywhere.

snake dreams:
are about power and power struggles.

chase dreams:
means you are running away from your problems. if you are rooted to the spot, then it means you must confront your fears.
rmb the stupid dream?

money dreams:
symbolise change. the larger the amount, the bigger the change.
i dream that my mum won TOTO. hahahs

death dreams:
signify literally the end of an old situation and time for something new.
i dreamt that i've killed my younger brother by accident. the dream was VERY horrible.

Dream places-

a foreign country signifies a fortune being left to you or future happiness.

an asylum(?)- dreaming you're in an asylum is a good omen(?)- it indictates a way out of difficulties.

a restaurant- if you are eating with people this can signify you are about to be the innocent victim of someone else's actions. dining alone, particulary if there is hardly any food on the table, indicates that after initial difficulties you will have cause to celebrate.

factory can denote a change in health or news of a relative suffering an accident. this could involve fire or water.

funfair- if you are alone at the fair in your dream, then a so-called friend is about to cause you apin. if you are with your lover it can signify a situation caused by jealousy.

market in your dream is a sign that you will not want for anything.

field or meadow- if you dream of being in a field then it can mean business problems. walking throug a field in your dream is a good omen particulary for job interviews.

road that is broad and even means good luck. a twisty, narrow lane is a bad omen. several roads meeting means that change will come into your life, particularly related to where you live.

farm- working on a farm is a sign of steady improvement in a situation. staying a farm could be a sign of fighting within your family.

jungle signifies that you must be careful who you speak to. someone may be trying to lead you astray! if you meet a wild animal, that person will pester you.

phew! wahh... i typed this like siao man... hehs! but i was amazed i can type without looking at the keyboard! yeahs! and i was like, reading the file and typing vigourously. hahas.

anyway, i've highlighted[bold] those i've experienced. and.. it was quite true. yeahs. i repeat again, pls treat this as a source of entertainment. it does not represent my stand or anything. i personally dont believe in it.

yeahs. amazed by it, i flipped thru the file. and then, i began to take those tarots cards out. since, people used to say that tarot cards can predict your fortune or whatever, so i decided to play with it. it's like, i shuffle the cards while asking a question in my mind, then i'll draw a card for an answer. yepps.

i asked 3 qns in my 1st try. the answer was very... very.. funny. my 3rd question was whether i should stay at macs or not. and you know what's my answer? i shall write down the interpretation. [*groans... again...*]

Reading the cards
The Hanged Man reveals a situation where one has to wait. it seems that time is frozen, that the unfolding of events and circumstances has stopped or, more precisely that you find yourself at a time of your life when you are unable to take action but have to undergo the consequences of you actions, good or bad, and draw lessons from them. when the Hanged Man shows up, it means that you are temporarily out of the game of life, either because you have chosen to do so, or because you are forced to do so.

so... what's about that? so... i should wait huhs? but the last part, the last sentence was quite true. maybe i've chosen to leave macs ba... then you know what's the meaning of this card? it means 'letting go(withdrawing from a situation)'. yepps. so... hahahs. i dunno. so funny.

mmm... i asked about my studies. then... hahahs. even the tarot cards asked me to go back to study. yepps. the card i drew was about wisdom. it said i should, yah lah, think clearly and do what's right and know what's wrong. yeahs.

then i went to ask about the stupid dream i dreamt. mmm, it was... funny. yeahs... the result was shocking and surprising. cos if you go read the 'dream interpretation' thingy, you'll understand. i shant talk about it.

anyway, after reading all these and interpreting it, it was quite entertaining actually. you rmb i said about the holding a grudge over somebody cos you cant get him/her? yeahs.. you know what? im kind of anticipating the future now. not bcos i've read the tarots, but bcos... life is full of conincidence. i just realised that, when i was talking to someone yesterday. yepps! im no longer bearing a grudge now. isnt that good? yeahs! WONDERFOO! a hem! i mean, wonderful. hahahs.

lalala. its quite some long post here isnt it? hahahs. can make up for the last 2 days ba!

i got nothing to say right now, so.. shall end here. will write here again when i found something interesting! see ya! =)

days, not daze.

2005-08-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

yeahs... im back from work. tired man... i've worked for 9hrs.

anyway, shall shell the prawns and get to the point.

the only thing i hate about morning breakfast shift is the lobby. it's always full of customers and the bins are easily filled up by those rubbish. and the trays are always mountainaneous high. as usual, i was asked to wipe those trays. its not that i hate it, but, its a bore.

so... after breakfast, went inside kitchen. went mad with lai kheng auntie and darling. hahahs. tina came with a black face and pissed everyone off. oh yeas, evyone came today! so long never see her le! so happy!! then we chatted for awhile. yeahs... and she asked me about my studies again. im not going to let her down! im gonna work hard in this one month break! yepps!

mmm, tina was very amused by us. cos we kept crapping and talking nonsense. hahahas. then finally she went off. then lai kheng auntie went off too.

was PC for this afternoon. and... i saw myself in him. maybe i long time havent been a PC, or maybe its bcos i cant handle the stress in the kitchen, i was shouting, and was scolding the counter crews today. esp. to johnny. but he deserved it lor. keep rushing me. its not as if i didnt cook for you. unless i really didnt cook lah, i allow you to scold and do whatever you want. but i did lor. and you keep rushing. if you're so super smart, come do it yourself lah.

so damn pissed with him. then razid, joyce, darling and douglas kept asking me to relax. i cant lor. with that idiot keep pestering me. and worse still, i've got that idiot stalker with me. wah kao... he damn freaking idiotic lor. joyce was super angry with him.

then after crowd, there's nothing much lah. i went around shaking hands with people cos i've got my NSRS cert. very happy. hehs! then, pin pin came and trained the new lobby crew fries station. ermms... still okay lah. darling and pin pin cant stop being sarcastic towards each other. haiz. both of them arhh... haiz.

me and darling kept complaining that we're hungry. but none of the managers heard us. so sad sia... then...yeah. today down alot of crews and the managers are trying to extend people. i refused to be extended initially, cos i dont want to work with him. so... they didnt try to extend me.

darling had his fast bite. then crowd in again. do and do. then cynthia came in to arrange the uniform cupboard. cynthia is really very funny. hahahs. we kept laughing and laughing. hahahs.

mmm, douglas finally realised that me and derrick hasnt eaten since morning, so he quickly let us go for break.

after break, darling went into counter and i was stuck with pin pin. talked loads of crap too. its a good news to hear that pin pin is finally used to the name, 'mr pin', 'PIN panther' and 'mao zhe dong'. now i can finally call him mr pin. EH MR PIN! hahahs. so nice. mr pin. hahahs.

poor mr pin, he has to train lots of crews today. most of them are like, only a few days here.

mmm... then...seok kheng auntie came and pin pin went out to train another new crew. seok kheng auntie is a VERY helpful and friendly auntie. wahh... she's super nice.

but... the only bad thing is that she's damn slow at grill. cos... eric wong is going to take over vats later. so she has to come to grill.

douglas finally caught me and asked me to extend to train an auntie. haiz. no choice so i've agreed to extend.

mmm, the auntie i trained is called theresa. she's... okay. but she's super super slow. and her hands are very weak. she was shaking when she was holding the sauce gun. oh my gosh lor... but at least, i think, she know how to drop filets lah. and dippers too.

finally punched out and talked with christina, the new female closer. hahahs. she's a very nice girl. yepps! she's very blur too. VERY. she told me that she actually went to knock on the door of someone's house and claimed that that is her house. wahh... blur sotong sia.

but she's nice. so we chatted and watched the videos together. yeahs... i liked her, but sometimes she's abit domineering too. aiyah... but sad lah, wont be seeing her anymore. haiz. and i hope she can pass! yepps!

mmm... went off after watching the videos. yepps! oh yea... the stupid balloon mr pin asked me to deflate made my hands all black. IDIOT! hmph!!

reached home and saw that mandy has sent me a letter. haiyo... im so guilty that i havent sent her letters recently. never mind, shall reply her after this post.

ohyea, i know where to buy bicycle liao. i've passed that shop for like... for almost a whole yr and i never realised that i could get my beloved bike there. so... think i will visit there someday. yeahs!

lalala. shall write mandy's letter now. seeee yaaaaa!

short sightedness

2005-08-21T04:23:00.000+08:00

find your element
at mutedfaith.com.

dun you find the vice suited me very much? hahahas.

anyway...all my siblings have this very very weird behavior, or shld i say, a tendency to do this very weird thing.

cynthia was calling me this morning to ask me to go work. then.. my younger brother picked up the phone cos i was too sleepy to pick the phone. so.. cynthia asked him to wake me up, but, aiyah... so my brother told cynthia that i'll call back later. then later, viet called me. by that time im already almost awake. so...told her i'll be there at 1030am.

this was, supposedly, my point of the story. the whole thing.

but it was a different view when i reached HGPT.

mmm... my elder brother came home this morning and told us that he hasnt sleep a wink for 2 days cos he's playing COMPUTER at LAN shop. wahh.. smart sia. then me and my younger brother started saying that got this boy who, too, never sleep for 2 days just for playing the computer. and the boy actually died when he went for toilet break after the 2 days. think my elder bro got abit worried... and he went to sleep when i left the house.

so... when i reached HGPT. of cos, im assaulted by pregnant lady. cos im late by 1hr. hahahs. she didnt give me morning call okay?! hmph! anyway, saw my ah moi auntie! hehs! so happy! i missed lai kheng auntie too!

yeah... so pregnant lady told me that my brother cut up the phone when cynthia called me. then im like, huh? where got? but both cynthia and her said that my brother really hung up the phone when cynthia called him to wake me up. then i realised.

my brother accidentally hung up the phone when attempting to wake me up.

aiyoh.. this is like the 4th time this had happened. all my siblings have done this before. it's like... someone called for this person, then we say, 'okay, wait arh.' then we went to call that person up. so when the person reached the phone, he/she realised that the line was off. then at that time, we realised that we have hung up the phone by accident.

its damn hilarious. esp. my elder brother's expression. hahahs.

so anyway, yeahs.. pregnant lady kindly gave me time to eat breakfast. yepps. ate... then... went to wipe the mountain of trays. the new lobby crew arh... wahhh... shant comment. so... wipe and wipe. helped to send products. then teached the lobby crew how to keep the 'coffee and tea' thingy back into storeroom. and when i reached the storeroom, you know what i saw??? i nearly faint in horror.

about 7 bags of rubbish bags are outside the storeroom. cos no one taught the lobby crew where to throw them. so he just laid them beside the bin.

gosh... i really take my hat off him.

yeahs... so... went back to counter to keep those breakfast stuff. oh yea! when i was at the backsink cleaning trays, johnny came to do his transition. he sorta 'teased' me and was witnessed by lee hwang auntie. then lee hwang auntie was like, 'come, i help you bully him back'. then im like, 'yeah!!'. so...she washed her hand, and without drying them, she slapped johnny's butt! hahahas. so funny. lee hwang auntie so cutte!

yepps. then...nothing much lah. then.. derrick came into counter. there was this crowd rush.. after the crowd, pregnant lady said derrick was competing with me in service. then im like, HAR?? compete what? service? wahh, my service damn lousy lor. i surely lose wan. it was when i asked darling why did he compete with me that i realised that pregnant lady is trying sow discord between the 2 of us.

oh yeah, cynthia openly said darling was my husband/boyfriend in front of customers. hahahs.

went for break. ate with mother.[molly] yeahs... then she arh! trying to pollute innocent minds like mine! but what she said make sense lah... i kind of feel sad for her... yeahs...

ohyea, seok kheng auntie came to attach here again. yeahs. then i told ah moi auntie that seok kheng auntie is a combination of lai kheng auntie and her. hohohoho. i thought ah moi would like, deny and just laughed. but she didnt. hahahas. she was like, 'how did you find out my secret?'. hahahas. ah moi so cute!

after break, went back counter. then ren yong taught cynthia about the new ice cream. AYYS! i was sooooooo fascinated by it!! then i kept telling ling xiang that i want to learn how to make it. he was damn nice to me. he was like, keep asking me to go learn even though there was alot of customers. and darling went for break. so counter only got him and me.

but of cos i didnt go immediately lah. i waited till there's no more customers then i bounded over there to ask cynthia to teach me.

hohohoho. the new ice cream machine is WAYYY COOOOL! cant wait man! 1/9 then come out... aiyoh!! cant wait cant wait!!

so... johnny and i ate the new ice cream. i was sooo happy!! think i looked like a kid who finally got a chance to eat ice cream. hahahs. but it was nice mah. and its sooo cute!

mmmm, drew ice cream for viet and darling. hehs! so happy. :D sad lah, i didnt managed to make one for ling xiang.

maybe its the ice cream effect, i was very happy thru out that last few hrs of my shift. yepps!

ohyea! finally saw delphie. but today... she's abit weird... yeahs. then when i asked her why she was so weird, she said she's feeling abit weird too. she said it was like coming to a new store but with familiar faces. awwww.... poor delphie. somefink musta haff happened to herr...

mmm, ling xiang went home then pin pin came. hahahahas. mimicked his sentence. fun mah. then yeah. i know. he's very proud of the table he made in his blog. he kindly reminded me again that he'd spent 15 mins on that table.

..................................................

he truly lives up to his name. cold pin pin.

and alicia was abit weird today too. maybe its bcos of KJE. hahahas.

oh yea, KJE is very very funny today. *sarcastic* he arhh, make my customer wait for 1 minute just for him to give me $10 notes to give change for her. hmphs! then arh, he asked me stupid qns. then he arh, mis-counted my drawer.

1st he said my drawer missing $50. but luckily, he found the note inside the drawer. then when he counted again, he said my drawer has additional of $5.60. i was sooo shocked. then he said we'll count together. i purposely make him count those notes that are folded and bundled up. he didnt want to do it at first, hahahs. but MY drawer lehs. so he counted lor.

i regret abit lah. cos abit time wasting.

so... he count and count. and he drop my coins on the floor 4 times. then finally, he calculated everything, and realised my drawer missing 70 cents only.

hmph. waste my time. hahahas.

punched out and went to check schedule. then viet talked me... yeahs... then, yeah. went off. KJE is very rude lor. 3 times he barged in and rudely ask me to siam to make way for him. and he was holding a teddy bear during the second time.

TEDDY BEAR.

anyway, i want to thank viet again. yeahs, for fulfilling my request. so... today, 21/8, is my 'officially' last day. till my 1 month leave is off, then i'll be back. kinda sad when i think about that. cos i'll miss the new ice cream machine. aiyoo... the ice cream damn cute leh...[here i goes again... hahahas.]

the stupid burnt mark is still stinging. arrgghs!

anyway, my elder brother is cunning and schemeing idiot! i asked him to ask my ah ma what she wants to eat, cos im buying home. then he kept saying, 'ask me what i want to eat'. i have no choice, so i asked him. then when i know what he wants to eat, he said, 'buy for me hor' when i have no intention to buy for him.

haiz. in the end i still buy for him. haiz. waste money.

didnt see dosy today. did she buy her bubble tea? hohohoho.

obeying viet, i went to sleep at 9 30pm today. hahahs. i woke up at 3 am lor. haiyo! so... yeah. here i am.

pokka carrot juice is nice. =)

pillows

2005-08-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

im going to sleep soon. yeahs. just want to say, i've read all my archives just now and realised how cute my old posts are. what's with all the color codings and blah blah. then i dun really speak much of my work in macs in my old posts. unlike now, most of my posts are filled with those things happening at HGPT.

mmm, i've forgotten my elder bro is at home. and i actually told someone that he's not at home when that someone called. hahahahs. then when i reached the bedroom and saw him sleeping. i was like, 'oooops!'.

lalalalas. jun an was telling me to go AMK to buy my bicycle. yepps! shall go with him someday. cant wait!

tmr working morning shift! finally can see delp! yepps!!

DESPERATE!!

2005-08-19T08:43:00.000+08:00

IM DESPERATE FOR A BICYCLE!! ANY KIND SOULS, CAN GIVE ME A BICYLCLE??? OR JUST TELL ME WHERE TO GET A DECENT BICYCLE. HOPEFULLY SOMEWHERE NEAR ME. SECOND HAND CONSIDERED BUYING!

i dun fancy myself buying a bike from plaza sing's carrefour. that's the only place i can think of that sells bike. but imagine me trying to bring it home thru MRT. you must be joking! grrrrrrr!!

i need a bike. i desperately need it.

someone, give me a bike willya? i'll exchange my life with it.

im just joking by the way. i want a bike, i want my life too.

the stupid burnt on my hand is painful man! i think im gonna have a mark like cherina's on her arm. both kana by the stupid fries basket. GRRRRRRR!! but the burnt mark is rather cute. hahahas. it stings though... youch!!

i desperately need a bike. PLS? *pleads imploringly*

johnny depp!

2005-08-19T02:38:00.000+08:00

whoopee whoopee!! my new idol is........

*drum rolls*

issss..............

JOHNNY DEPP!

around of applause pls! *cheers!*

yepps! i've only noticed johnny depp when he acted in 'pirates of the caribbean'. i didnt watch the movie but, according to sarah, its a very nice show.

mmm, so i went to check his biography and filmography up. and... i cant believe that... he is edward in, 'edward sissorman'! i liked that movie! its quite a touching show!!

then he's the detective in 'sleepy hollow'. this stupid movie is dammit scary. its about this stupid 'ghost' who cuts off people's head. yeahs... dosy, did you watch this movie? i bet you'll like it! =)

and not to mention, he's willy wonka in 'charlie and the chocolate factory'! yeahs!

johnny depp is actually not that bad looking, but he's kind of gay... dont you think? he looked exceptionally gay as willy wonka and edward!! oh yeah. the stupid captain sparrow dunno-wat too.

it was said that johnny depp was choosy in his choice of roles ever since he gained fame in his 'edward sissorman'. yepps. then i was thinking... 'then why did he choose such GAY characters???'

mwhahahaha! anyway, i liked johnny depp. yeahs! but he's 42 this yr. so old sia... he was so damn childish in 'charlie and the chocolate factory'. [and gay too! =)] cant blame mah... roald dahl wrote this character. bet roald dahl has a bad childhood. mwhahahahas!

*i just realised i didnt know how to spell roald dahl... hahahas*

anyway anyway, johnny depp is a very funny actor. and he's gay too. lalalala. gay rocks! HOHOHOHOHO. most famous male celebrities are gays. cant blame mah. hohohohoho.

charlie and the chocolate factory is VERY nice. i dun think its draggy. okay lah, a tiny weeny bit only. and hotohome actually asked me 'whats the whole theme of the movie' when the show ended. grrrrrr!! ding-a-ling-a-dong!!!

can't you see that the 4 other brats shows characteristics that are actually going round this world? arrogance, selfishness, competitions, power hungry, greed. money, technology, fame and blah blah blah. that's why charlie won. he represent family. love. that's what makes the world goes round actually. yepps!

and i cant help snorting and sniggering when i see those oompa loompas. it reminds me of sarah. HOHOHOHO.

oh yea, i watched 'Troy' again yesterday. i've got the VCD. not pirated one. hohohoho. anyway... i'm still very touched by Priam and Hector. still dun really like Achillies... sometimes i like him... sometimes i dun. oh wells.

i was very sadden by Patroclus's death. haiz. haiz.

aahh... Hector. nice nice nice!

lalala.

anyway, i've changed the song again! it's 'hanging by a moment' by Lifehouse! hahahs. i liked this song. its very rocky. wheeeeeeeeee!

work was fine. mmm... actually... kat is rather cute. provided she's having a good hair day with her 'flower-ed' shampoo. yepps. she's very straightforward and she actually voiced out the weird tinge that was stuck in my throat.

i am very suay indeed, very suay in this week.

yeah.. i didnt want to admit, but even kat admitted that i was really suay. 2 complains in a row, and 2 overrings in one day. im really 'top' in macs.

haiz.

i seriously dunno why i've got complained today. i called for the order, and it did came out. maybe the product came out very late, im not sure. but i just got this weird shrewd feeling that... the managers thought he did it on purpose cos he dun like me. cos kat or joyce [cant rmb who] asked me what exactly happened. so... i told her. then they ask if he got make the doublecheese immediately or not. then im like.. i dunno. i didnt go see or ask.

but i think they really suspect that he did it on purpose to spite me. maybe im over-sensitive or dunno what, but he was abit purposely-dun-wan-to-hear-my-orders in the early nite. yeahs. lucky got ah hong auntie inside lah. she heard my orders.

but it was abit better in the night. yeahs... at least he didnt really like, show signs of annoyance.

im keeping a distance away from him. i think its safer this way. guess time is the only way to our peace. yepps. i dun really yearn for his friendship... i already knew that i cant really get along with ren yong that crowd. it took me months and months to build up the friendship between me and ren yong. and it was nearly spoilt by my one very comment. im already very content that me and ren yong are on friendly terms. and that we can actually have a nice conversation some times of the day.

and i want to thank viet for fulfilling my request. i was very shocked that she didnt call me up and try to persuade me. yeahs.

and i do hope she rmbs the morning call she promised me. hahahs. if i dun wake up its all your fault! ^_^

oh yeah, im very proud to say that i've removed that blasted plantar wart at the soles of my feet. hehs! wanna know how i did it??

there was this day when i went to bathe. after that, i went to clip off the excessive dead skin till its very tender and vulnerable. so... i used a needle to poke and dig out those warts. it wasnt that painful actually...it was quite satisfying. hehs! maybe it's bcos its at the sole of the feet, that's why it didnt really hurt. yepps. but im still very glad that the wart is gone! and im officially WART-FREE! yeahs!!

being a warty toad must have hurt loads. hahs! i shall call those i dun like warty toads. and cursed them that their next life will be big ugly warty toads!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee!!

i've discovered some very weird behavior in my 2 friends. very weird. i shant name who and i shant describe what those feelings are. i cant really describe them... its kind of hard... oh wells...

Hanging By A Moment
Lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where i Started
Chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

now.. i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose
nothing left to find
there's nothing in the world
that could change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else...

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where i Started
Chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

just hanging by a moment
hanging by a moment..
hanging by a moment...
hanging by a moment here with you..

ohyea, alicia is behaving abit weird today. aahh wells... KJE. its all about KJE.

weird interpretations

2005-08-17T06:28:00.000+08:00

i was looking thru my old emails sent by my friends. and i've did one of those 'quiz' that interpret whatever nonsense. so.. i randomly clicked on one, and did it.

and... the results were........ weird...

anyway, here's the 'quiz'. try it... its kind of... funny.

Put the following 5 animals in the order of your preference.

Cow Tiger Sheep Horse Pig

Write one word that describes each one of the following:

Dog

Cat

Rat

Coffee

Sea

Think of someone (who also knows you and is important to you) that you can relate them to the following colours (do not repeat your answer twice. Name just one person for each colour.)

Yellow Orange Red White Green

................

now its time for interpretation!!

This will define your priorities in your life.

Cow Signifies CAREER

Tiger Signifies PRIDE

Sheep Signifies LOVE

Horse Signifies FAMILY

Pig Signifies MONEY

Your description of dog implies your own personality.

Your description of cat implies the personality of your partner.

Your description of rat implies the personality of your enemies.

Your description of coffee is how you interpret sex.

Your description of the sea implies your own life.

Yellow: Someone you will never forget

Orange: Someone you consider your true friend

Red: Someone that you really love

White: Your twin soul

Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life

yepps. here's my answer. kind of ridiculous... but the color thingy is quite true.

1st qn answer:

horse cow sheep tiger pig

2nd answer:

cute fluffy squeaky bitter calm

3rd answer:

lao ma zi tasuki *someone* mandy dosy

i actually put career in 2nd place huhs? incredible. nevertheless, family is the 1st. you all should know what... my reaction about my family are always very BIG. yepps. and i was struggling whether to put 'pig' before 'tiger'. but yeah... i've put tiger...

i actually think im cute. then my partner is fluffy. then my enemies are squeaky. and sex is bitter?? then my life is CALM? yea right.

then as for the color thingy. i really admit it lah. lmz is my ancestor, of cos i'll rmb her. as for tasuki, yepps. she's a truly goood friend. =) then as for that someone, *a hem* i shant name who. then.. yepps. mandy is my primary sch bestfriend till now. can say it's 'twin soul' lah. then for dosy, yepps. my mum! how can i forget her? wheeeeeeeee!!

interesting aint it? have fun!

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i've been bearing a huge grudge over someone. its not really grudge lah... but its like.. you-cant-get-that-person-then-you-decide-to-haunt/hate-her/him. yeahs... i used to like that person alot. but then now... i sorta.. dun like that person. but that person is always in my head lah. even till now... its been like 4 yrs?? i dunno whether i've still liked that person or not. its abit weird.

it reminds me of ginny weasley though. i dun like her. and i think JK's abit weird putting harry and ginny together in HBP. its so damn all of a sudden. JK said ginny is trying to be herself, so that harry can look at her normally as a girl, and not a girl who always blush and hide away. then harry suddenly like ginny, when he did not show a sign of liking her for like.... 4 yrs? its weird. and it makes me think its a fake one. as in, harry doesnt like ginny.

its like, A hasnt appeared for ages, then suddenly B said he likes A. its weird. all of a sudden. so weird.

i think im talking crap. i dun think you all understand the link im trying to say. oh well... ... ... ...

i love shanaaz!

2005-08-16T17:06:00.000+08:00

i was talking to shanaaz just now on msn. she was telling me about pavithra. well... no one likes pavithra. so... i hoped shanaaz wont be that agitated by her. it doesnt help, actually.

i was deeply amused by her when i commented about pavithra. here's our conversation.

∞≈₤-§ЋдŻм-∞≈- says:
i mean if she already did it...she would have sent it to me by now
∞≈₤-§ЋдŻм-∞≈- says:
she didn't stay back...
∞≈₤-§ЋдŻм-∞≈- says:
she could just on the computer and sent it to me but no she didn't
[HuiMing] when there is silence, it means there's trouble says:
she's just giving excuses
∞≈₤-§ЋдŻм-∞≈- says:
EXACTLY!
[HuiMing] when there is silence, it means there's trouble says:
well... she'll run out of her excuses one day
∞≈₤-§ЋдŻм-∞≈- says:
i bet she'
∞≈₤-§ЋдŻм-∞≈- says:
s making another list
[HuiMing] when there is silence, it means there's trouble says:
LOL!

shanaaz is so cute. i love her loads! thanks girl!

friendships

2005-08-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

i just realised how much i've neglected my friends. all my dearies friends.

1st thing 1st, i wanna thank dodos for asking me to watch the movie in the afternoon. yepps. love ya all tonnes and tonnes!

oh yea, congrats to tasuki ben dan who became vice-head in Prefectorial Board 2006! congrats!!

i still cant believe she is vice head. its abit amazing lah... cos that ben dan is forever behaving so childishly. how could she rise up to such impt position?

nah, im just joking. jiayou ben dan! dun be too stressed up. guessed its time for nuriko to input some gayness back into you. yeahs!

next, i wanna say i love sharon soo and alena heaps and loads! i'll miss both of your alot de! rmb to drop by HGPT often!! huggs!

then i wan to thanks devon for being with me thru the tough times of the rain. =) good luck for your Os!

and to my qin ai de joanne, do take care! jiayou! i cant wait to see you back in HGPT again! :)

to nic, dun be too stressed. exams/tests are minor things, okies? take care!

finally. to shankar, been quite some times since we've met. hope things are fine for you. cant wait to talk to you again! =D

yepps. anymore to thank? mmm, nope! yepps. so... yeah. =)

to all my friends out there, do take care and God bless ya all! smiles!

lame thing of the day.

i was talking to my younger brother one day. we were talking alot of crap and were laughing uncontrollably. so... finally cracking up, my younger brother said,

"cut the crap! i want to sleep! i've got to go sch tmr. "

on sudden shine of inspiration, i said,

"shell the prawns!"

and it left my brother speechless.

instead of 'cut the crap', i've interpret it as, 'cut the CRAB'.

get the lameness??

LALALA. im madd. sleep tight!

*willy wonka is so damn cute! =)*

mum and breakfast

2005-08-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

didnt go sch today. maybe ytd's work worsen my condition. haiz.

mum woke me up to go eat breakfast today. she was in a incredible good mood. so... we went central to eat.

on our way to the shop to eat, i told my mum about ytd's work. my mum was telling me that, people in the service line must always tolerate the customers' mood and everything. because we are working for their money. so no matter what, you must endure it.

then i told her about that bastard, how he 'called' me. my mum didnt really get VERY indigant for me, but she said at least i didnt retort back. its a good thing. cos he is at wrong for calling me names, [and with such a vulgar one.] and everyone saw/hear that. she said i should i just let him scold me. [which i did.] and she sternly reminded me not to learn his language. cos its foul and crude.

after eating, we went fairprice to buy things. then we went another provision shop to buy biscuits and some dried food. went home to put the stuff and mum went to see doctor.

well... then i read my previous post... i've removed it. cos it's damn vulgar. i dun wan other people to learn.. what my mum said makes sense. so i shant publish the post. im sorry to those who've seen it. but you must know that, that was written when i reached home ytd. and im still at a peak of rage.

i thought about the incident the whole night yesterday. the conclusion is simple. both me and him just dun like each other. mutual dislike i guessed. from the start, the moment he works in HGPT, i've never liked him. like ah hong auntie said once to me, 'this type of person better get far far far far away from him as possible.'

so i shant bother about him. it's great to see that i wont be seeing him at all in this week. i think he went to request not to work with me. which is good. cos ytd i actually wanted to request not to work with him. but since we're not working together, so there's no point requesting that.

anyway, just want to say sorry to the dodos for not able to watch 'charlie and the chocolate factory' with you guys. thanks.

this is the link for previous post. dun read it just because you want to know how rude i've written, but read to know why im so angry. i dun wan people to ask me why am i that vulgar. as you can see, i've already removed it. and i've said that i dun wan people to learn that language. so... those who think you dun wan to know those language. pls refrain yourself from reading it.

thanks again. and God bless you guys! =)

primary memories

2005-08-14T12:26:00.000+08:00

i just saw some of my primary sch mates sites.

guilty to say... i didnt realise meixuan is back in singapore! and now she's studying in presbyterianhigh[dunno how to spell...]. i hope things go well for her. and that she'll adjust to singapore once again.

mmm... i sort of accidentally bumped into someone site. who and which i shall not name. she's my primary sch friend. and... mmm... ~~she was rather 'unpopular' in the class. nearly everyone dun like her.~~ but well, she's still nice. ~~she's rich and pretty.~~

i've once talked to her. and she's real sensitive. yepps. but... its been 3 yrs since i last seen her. she's changed loads.

anyway.. it seems like 6a is drifting apart furthur and furthur from each other. well...

guess time really travel.

i just realised how crappy my previous post was. it was full of those idols thingys. hahahaahas. cos i got nothing better to write mah. lalalala.

=)

im a smart brat

2005-08-14T10:50:00.000+08:00

im still wheezing and my nose is stiffed from all those sniffing. i hate having cold. cos i have to carry a box of tissue whenever i go. so sad. even to the toilet, i must carry that box of tissue. oh wells... the box shall be my new friend then. i shall talk to it whenever im bored.

it's sad that it doesnt reply to me. and i've to pretend it did.

anyway, i've found the plug my dad hid it. he was trying to stop us from using the com. he's the most freaking father i've ever seen.

ytd night, me and my younger were talking crap after watching a midnight movie on channel 8. then.. my older brother was using the com, and blasting an off-key 'this love' by maroon 5.

while me and younger brother continued crapping and singing songs, my dad woke up and was preparing to go to work. maybe he was tired, maybe he was grouchy, maybe he lacked of sleep, i dunno. but he was damn unreasonable and pissifying.

he saw me and my brother talking, then he started lecturing us. he said what, 'midnight dun wan to sleep, then in the morning keep sleeping. if you dun want to sleep now, i shall pour water on you when you're sleeping in the afternoon to wake up!!'

wao kao... what sort of father is he?? PMS huhs? so damn unreasonable. then next, he went to find my older brother.

and there goes his lecture again, saying we used com too much in the midnight. waste electricity blah blah. then morning the we sleep blah blah blah. and he forced and coerced my brother to switch off com.

at 1st, i was thinking that my brother wont give in. but.. after awhile, i heard the familiar logging off music from the com. so.. thinking that, even my older brother gave in, then why shld me and hiu defy my father.

so... the whole house was silent except for my dad, who was walking around the house. i heard a weird plunging sound, and slam of a drawer. then i heard the creaky sound of the plastic bag.

then my dad went off, stuffing a plastic bag into his bag and went out of house. at 1st, i was thinking whether if he has taken off the 3-pin plug off or not. but... since my elder brother was in the room, i knew he will stop my dad from doing that. with that thought, i fell asleep.

but when i woke up this morning,[early 8 am plus, cos i thought i got work..] i found the plug gone! so my dad indeed took the plug off. hmph! who do he think he is??

but im smart! i found the plug! hmph! nothing can escape my eyes, okay? you try to stop us from using the com, but we are unstoppable!

lalalala. you tried to be smart, but you've forgotten, im your daughter. im SMARTER.

wahahahahs!! im so mean huhs?? well... that's me wad. lalalala.

im not an angel, okay?? im mean! meanie mean nuriko. hohohoho.

oh yea, i like stephen fung. i think he's very talented. not to mention he's nice-looking too! [in my opinion lah.] cos.. ytd we watched this 'ghost' movie stephen fung was starring. when he first appeared on screen, i exclaimed happily to my brothers, "look! shuai ge!"

i always said that when we were watching some kind of film together with my brothers. i always say its 'shuai ge', even if the guy is horrible. hohohoho. but anyway, my younger brother said stephen fung was not much. but i ignored him. cos at that i didnt know he was stephen fung until the end of the show, so i bounded off his critizism.

the show was nice. then... when the show ended, i saw that stephen fung was the main character. i excitedly pointed it to my brothers, but... sadly, none of them knew who stephen fung is. GRRRRRRR!

do you know why i like stephen fung?? cos he's an actor and a director! something i want to be very much. that's why i like jack neo too. jack neo can direct and act at the same time. =)

i liked wilson chen too. i think he's very cool. hahahs. i wanna watch, 'bug me not!' cos he's inside in the film. i dun really like the female lead though.... dunno why. lalalala.

oh yea, there's 2 CDs i wanna buy. one is the new female singer called, 'tong en'. it was her voice and singing that attracted me. i thought her voice was sort of, very unique.

i liked joanne tzen from sweety too. i think she's cute. hahahas.

aiyah, enough crap. shall go read HP&TCOS. see ya!

furious cold

2005-08-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

the sun is shining brightly in serangoon central now. the weather is blazing outside and its damn sweltering hot in my room. and guess what im doing???

im SNEEZING!

its not bacteria irritants. so... i came down to 2 conclusions. it's either:

-someone at macs[most probably] is scolding me cos i didnt go to work.

or

-im having a bad head cold.

well... you cant blame me for having cold and end up waking up late. the weather nowadays are so... weird and irritating. sometimes, its shine-y! sometimes its gloomy and always threatening to rain. so, you cant blame me mah.

mum called me to bring something to central for her. so.. i went. i was still damn sleepy. then the stupid weather is sooo hot and i KEPT SNEEZING! some people around me was like staring at me, wondering why this girl is sneezing like siao when the bloody weather is sooooo hot. grrrrrr!!!

passed mum's things. decided to buy something to eat. went fairprice. bought several things. then on the way home, saw mum. she wants to borrow 50 bucks from me. so i have to go all the way back to central to withdraw money for her. wao kao... i've walked about... 6 times back and forth the stupid traffic lights. i nearly faint under the scorching sun.

so... got her her money. went home and realised my ah ma cut her hand. so... rampage the house for the stupid handiplast. didnt found any. so went downstair to the mama shop to buy one box.

went home, stick the handiplast. cleared up the stupid fish head my ah ma was de-boning.

switched on com. my ah ma came again and told me her finger is still bleeding.

hers' was really a bad and deep cut. it kept bleeding. like last time my sick hole liddat. was damn grossed out. even my younger brother said its gross. so... i cleaned her wound and stick another handiplast on her finger.

told my brother not to irritate ah ma. and asked him if he has any money to contribute to today's dinner. he gave me 2 bucks and went out.

told my ah ma not to cook dinner. then my elder brother came home. asked him if he has any money to contribute to today's dinner. he looked at me sceptically, and asked, "if 70 cents money?"

i glared at his idiotic face and said, "YES!"

he happily took out his 70 cents and gave it to me. at least my younger brother gave 2 bucks. his was 70 cents! 70 cents!! hmph!

all along the incidents above, my father lay against the sofa, sleeping. wahhh... im damn angry with him. his mother cut her finger yet he's there, snoozing away. asked him for handiplast, he just look at me sleepily and snore again! hmph!!!!!

his mother cut her finger and you as her son, you did nothing but sleep! wah kao... then when he woke up, i asked him what he wants to eat cos i buying home. he gruffly said he dun want to eat. then i told him im buying home, and im using my money to buy, not yours.

then he angrily said he's not eating, he's going to eat instant noodles. WAHH! im more pissed lor! i buy leh! everytime you all say i didnt buy anything for the house. then now i buy food home, you get irritated and dun want me to buy anything for you. kao eh!

he didnt even bother with my ah ma's finger, now i buy dinner for him he also dun care. GRRRRRR!! im damn angry with my father!! hmph hmph!!!!!!!!

whatever. dun want then dun wan lor. dun say i didnt buy anything for this house. i did okay? everytime i got my pay, at least i've paid for one dinner/lunch, okay??

hmph hmph hmph hmph hmph!!!!

listening to "i'll never break your heart" by backstreet boys. hahahs. long time never hear le... so niceee!

oh yeah, Shin's song [xin yue tuan] always makes people sleep. 1st is my younger brother, now.. its me. hahahas. wheeeeeeee!

i love honeycombs!! its nice to suck!! whooopee!

i've been rather baby lately. ytd, i was whining to get my mum's attention. but she was sleeping. so.. i snugged beside her and sleep. so nicee. hahahas. i liked to be a baby. even though im not ABCD. A Baby Cherry Dosy. hahahas. yeah. i liked to throw baby tantrums with my brothers and mum. hohohohoho. its nice mah.

i liked being a little kid. crying for no reason. laugh for no reason. act cute. whine for attention. its nice. i dun like being mature. though lots of people said i've already reached a certain level of maturity. i dun like it. its tiring. being a baby and being ignorant is better. life is actually sweeter and happier.

Artist: Backstreet Boys
Song: I'll Never Break Your Heart

[Spoken]
Baby I know your hurting
Right now you feel like you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt that you'd never love again

I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me

Chorus
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey that's no lie
(2x)

As time goes by you
Will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes
And I know you're afraid
To let your feelings show
And I understand
But girl it's time to let go

I deserve a try honey
Just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

Chorus (2x)

Bridge
No way, no how
I'll make you cry (2x)

Chorus

the lyrics is soooo meaningful! hahahs. i just realised that when i was paragraphing them out. i bold those which i think is veryy.... those that brings the feeling of this song.

ahhh...so nice. im gonna listen it again. see ya!

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i've changed the song. mmm, pls be patient while the song loads. and im sorry if it will lags. cos its still buffering.

gonna go buy dinner now! jaaaaaaa! enjoy the song! :)

2005-08-12T08:50:00.000+08:00

*pls change your encoding to read chinese. right click the page and change your encoding if you cant read the lyrics*

this song somewhat brings out what im feeling right now. listen to the song and you'll understand. im very sorry that i cant find the link to this song...

原点
by:5566

心像飘落的枯叶
踩在地上都会碎
我说我爱着你但你
却又假装你没听见
我像个隐形人
逗你开心逗你笑
但你总是看不见

难道要很多考验
还要很多抱歉
才能够
证明我会爱你到永远
寻寻觅觅我们还是
又回到了
原点

心像飘落的枯叶
要怎么熬过这冬天
好想抱你直到明天
怎么这双手又退却
我像个胆小鬼
只敢想像只敢暗恋
就是不敢放手追

难道要很多考验
还要很多抱歉
才能够
证明我会爱你到永远
寻寻觅觅我们还是
又回到了
原点

我已经无法承受
没有结果的结果
在爱的洪流
我只能继续去漂流

有太多太多考验
还有太多抱歉
放不下
我在想着你你想着谁
寻寻觅觅我们终于又
回到了原点

难道要很多考验
还要很多抱歉
才能够
证明我会爱你到永远
寻寻觅觅我们还是又
回到了原点

我没有方向也没有了知觉
我忘了方向也忘了所有感觉
我 oh ho…

no sleep at all...

2005-08-12T07:53:00.000+08:00

i didnt sleep from ytd nite till now. why????

im yawning, drowsy, grouchy, tired, sleepy, aching and im feeling very dazed and blur. but i still cant get to sleep! *pouts* i want my SLEEEP!!!! *pouts like a little girl again*

haiz! im behaving very childish right now. i want my mum!!! i want to sleep! *began to whine and hug my pillow*

i cant believe i spent the whole night thinking about it and i didnt reach any conclusion. because i want to get things straight before moving on. if me myself get messed up too, then how am i going to help others?

hansen once told me, 'to be able to love some other people, you gotta love yourself first'. so if im gonna help all my friends, im gonna help myself first. isnt it??

aahh.. speaking of hansen... he's really a true blue friend. i really want to thank him for ALOT of things. yepps. he really helped me alot... even though he's like.. so busy with his work. i really dunno how to thank him. there's too much to thank, and too much to apologize too.

im feeling very confused and vexed now. not to mention tired, sleepy, blah blah. things are going haywire man! buy one get 2 free! wahahaha. so nice huh??

betcha all dunno what im talking. never mind. i shall just write those which i think got meaning in it.

wed-
worked with soffia. she... she just broke up with her boyfriend. and we sorta talked quite alot that day. she told me about the incident. you know, i really pity soffia. her EX-boyfriend didnt allow her to go out with other guys, or talk to any other guys. but the EX himself went out with girls. so what about soffia?? if you can go out with the opposite sex, why cant she?

you know what's the reason behind the break? cos the male said he's too STRESSED. pls lor. who's the one who is stress? you or soffia?? wah kao... soffia sacrifice so much for you, and you still break with her. she's a very nice girl okay? haiz. i dun get males nowadays.

then... after work, we talked in the crew room while eating. she told me lots of funny stuffs!! damn funny. i was laughing like shit. like... her 1st night at the hospital... her aunt... her uncle... the stupid policemen and the cordon incident, the lorry... her papa! lol. hahahs.

soffia is very nice and humble... she doesnt really like to irritate people. mm, how shld i say. she doesnt say hurtful things. haiz. so sad she broke up with her ex. you know, she told me that if people say she's pretty, she'll say there are some more prettier girls out there, not just me.

im damn shocked and impressed with her answer. so... humble and modest!

and... i noticed the shape of the sauce stain on her traymat... it was somewhat like a heart-shape... was it on purpose? or by accident? i dunno. but... it seems like soffia is rather hurt by the incident.

wed, after the dream-
ben dan escaped again!!! this time, i dunno who go open the cage door and let her escape!! haiyo!! i was so anxious. but we found her in the place where we last found her when she escaped again. lucky she isnt dirty or anything. that hamster arh! keep escaping!! so sad! now everyday i must go check on her, so that i wont lose her again.

silly ben dan! make me so scared.

yesterday-
work was fine. kat is a very hysterical and paranoid manager. unlike delp... kat gave me the feeling that we should not do something wrong, cos we will GET HER IN TROUBLE. yeah. that's my feeling... delp is more like, you cant do this or else you [not delp] will get trouble. yeah...

sharon and alena came to visit. sharon arh... i really admire her... she can go participate in the 'food fight' contest. see who can eat more food than the others in a time limit. i tell you, she'll emerge winner. i dunno why, but she's forever hungry. hahahs.

oh yeah, found the flag. hehs! so happy. =)

hohohoho. eric wong. hahahs. the way he look at pin pin makes me laugh. it's damn funny. but... actually eric wong is not bad lah. pin, you shldnt be mean to him. he dotes you soooooo much! aiyoh! sheng zai fu zhong bu zhi zu. or whatever. my pinyin sucks. my chinese sucks too.

mrs jacob came today. she's damn nice. not like ms kang.

hahahs. i agree with pin pin that those people who likes him are... abit... funny and weird?? what with the 'mr pin!' and the 'shuai ge uncle' ... yeah lors... [see, i purposely make the uncle small. im so nice to you right? yeah! thank you! =)]

i found my elder brother VERY childish when i realised that he and douglas and pin pin are of the same age. more childish than pin pin okay? haiyo! my brother loves to act cute, act cool, act handsome. and he loves to brag. hohohoho.

but at least they bother with me. i dun like them when they[both my brothers] ignore me. esp. when im throwing my baby tantrums. cos dosy is not around me to let me lean on her. HOHOHOHO.

i seriously need to get some sleep. not just some, but ALOT of sleep. so... see ya!

sleep dream

2005-08-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

*this post was edited by the author*

just a short 20mins post. okies?

here we go.... wheeeeeeeeeeeee!

ytd, i had a weird dream. a dream that i thought it was abit...i mean the dream totally took me off guard. something i thought i would have forgotten long ago... but it came back to haunt me again, i guess...

no lah! not nightmare lah!

mmm, the dream was settled in a beach. then... i was sorta "challenged" by a girl whom i dunno for a basketball match. i accepted it... and followed her. who knows? she asked another guy for a match too. so... its a 3-on-3 match.

when we reached the court, i was too focused on the basketball, not the court. so... when the match started, i caught the ball. so... yeah.. dribbled towards the hoop. when i was about to shoot, i realised that the hoop was like... 2 storey high and im like half-court away from it???

i was soooooo... shocked that i release the ball. so... the girl got hold of the ball. she scored. i was angry and happy at the same time. cos we played like team mates. then... the other guy scored too. so only me who havent score yet.

so... i dunno how and why, the 3 of us formed into a vertical line, and the guy was in front of me and i was in the middle. he was about to shoot, when someone stopped us.

then the person who said it... was someone i know lah. but i didnt know that he'll appear in my dreams again. he's my brother's basketball senior. and he's in my primary sch before... so naturally i realised its him lah.

so... he said i'd fouled. i dunno if got this foul or not lah, but he said, "do you know that you cant block a person when you are in a line."

then im like, HUH???? me arh?? got this foul meh??

he gave me a shocked and annoyed look and we ended the match. then we sat down to talk.

since the stupid guy who said i fouled knew me, he began to talk to me. more like boasting.

then i forgotten what happened, the next thing i knew, i was dragging the girl's hand and running down my cousin's house stairs. from storey 11 to void deck. cos the stupid guy was chasing after me.

somehow, i was jumping like 4 stairs in one go. like im going to fly off liddat.

then i decided to hide in one of the corridor, to shake the stupid guy off. but i didnt know the neighbours were outside their house, talking. so i hide behind the wall, and tried to hush them down. cos i dun want them to make a fuss and attract attention to me.

they were very nice. they pretended they didnt know. yepps. then the stupid guy came to the corridor. he was abit suspicious... cos i think he knew i was there. so... he walked nearer to my hiding place...

then... yeah. joyce called me to go work[real wan], and i woke up. and the dream ends here.

i was damn sad... cos i want to continue the dream... haiz. stupid joyce! jk lah.

i just want to blog this down cos... i think its quite impt. so... see ya peeps!

busy busy busy

2005-08-10T10:57:00.000+08:00

i said i would blog after lunch yesterday but i didnt. hohohoho. coz i fell asleep. seems like 8hrs of sleep still doesnt fit me. 10hrs is the MINIMUM. maximum is of coz 24hrs lah. 48hrs, if possible, will be the best. =) i can sleeep the whole day. wonderful!

let's see... i slept at 2 30am ytd... and i woke up at 9am... so... i sleep for... 6 1/2 hrs??!! oh gosh... nevermind. i'll recover my sleep later. mwhahahaha!

mmm... been rather busy these few days. what's with the work and all those problems. its making my head sore man... poor head.

monday-
mum fell down in the toilet... so... decided to bring her to see doctor. but it was early 6 45am... so, mum said we'll go in the afternoon. well... we slept [again] while waiting for noon to crack. hohohoho.

when noon arrived, mum said SHE'S NOT GOING TO SEE DOCTOR! hmphh!! she say what 'no money', 'i'll bear with it for a few more days', 'see if it'll recover after a few days or not then see doctor...'. ALL THOSE BULLSHIT! wah kao eh... it's not as if i cant afford her medical bills... what is she waiting for???

haiz. so... slacked around as usual. nearly rotted and decomposed into tiny bacteria thingys. then i'll be carried off into the wind and never return again. and all my body parts will be spread around the whole singapore. how gross is that?? hohohohoho.

yepps... decided to go HGPT to see schedule. viet really... really cheated my innocent feeling. NO SNORTING PEOPLE! im serious. no puking either! i told her i can only work on 1 day per week. [paiseh arh jun an. no choice...] then when i went there to check, she gave me that look and told me she has put me in SOME days.

*sigh exasperatedly* she cheated my feelings. how could she? should have tender my resignation instead. but... oh wells... what's done, is done. just pray that i wont fall again.

helped darling with his pre-pack. siew eng was not feeling well... so she took over pre-pack. do and do. then darling and siew eng went off at around 8pm. yepps. just dont feel like going home that day...

oh dear... i feel like sleeping now. how how how how how???

nevermind...shall go on...shall be brief now.

talked to shankar. yeahs... the atmosphere in the kitchen was kinda weird and tensed. yah.. normally its very relaxed and friendly... but that day was like... everyone damn stressed. douglas with the ordering... pin pin with his sudden mood swing... then the kept-in-the-dark shankar. haiz.

so... pin pin went out to study his thick CLDP thingys... mmm, what should i say... even douglas sensed that the atmosphere is abit weird. but i really dun like his way of handling things. [*note that i say, 'i really dun like.' and not 'i dun really like'. got big difference wan okay?] not everyone is that cold-blooded and insensitive to other people's feelings as him wan lor. then he also got sudden mood swings. he's nice when he's happy. he's not nice when he's not happy. to think i was convinced that he has learnt his temper.

cheat my feelings again.

so.. i think a sit-down-to-talk session should be organized between those 2 idiots. mmm... yeah... so douglas helped shankar with his filtering so that he can go out and do his things...

immature brats, both of them. i had a very hard and difficult time trying to talk thru them. one was adamant that the other party really got something against him. then the other wan kept saying he got nothing against him.

i pity pin pin. i understand and sympathize with him. under my observation for like... a few months.. i trust that what he's told me is true. but... on the other hand, i agree with shankar that pin pin has a weird way of communicating with him. i guessed... its the last straw that broke the camel's back. everything has a limit... sometimes its a buildup/accumulation of hatred/prejudice that blinded one's jugdement.

i dunno who to side. both are equally right in their own stand... but... WHY CANT YOU 2 BE FRANK WITH EACH OTHER??? just say whatever you want to say lah. what's there to hide or what?? like i said before, being honest and truthful to each other is a way to maintain friendship. obviously those 2 just... i dunno what say. haiz. one claimed that he should not bother with his work. one said that he's being shifty and not straight to the point. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

temper do really solves things. so i decided to go home and leave those 2 morons to solve their own problems. i really do hope that they can work together peacefully and happily too. macs is one place that gave us loads of happiness. i know you 2 both agree on it. so why cant you 2 do a part in it, in making it a happy and fun place to be?? dun be too stressed lah. AIYOH!

see lah! now im so agitated that im not that sleepy as just now! hmphh!! hrrrrrmmmmmmmm!!

tuesday-
i fell back to sleep after lunch. hohohoho. so sorry... i just can resist the temptation.. hahas. so... i went to work at 4 15pm... saw SHARON DARLING!! yepps! long time no see le! oh yea! and ALENA TOO! yepps!! alena is still that bhb as before. tsk tsk.

went to do lobby. darling [derrick] was so nice to me. he gave me his orchid. then that joyce arh... say its the flower to propose marriage. and its she herself who said she's going to be our witness. so after when i top up mix, i came back to the place when i put my orchid. and you know what?

ITS GONE! THE ORCHID IS GONE!! THE ORCHID DARLING GAVE ME IS GONE!

*side track abit... this song is making me sleeeepy again... so nice...*

so... i went to ask around to see who has seen my orchid. my beautiful orchid. the one that darling gave me. shankar said joyce cleaned that area where i put my orchid just now. so i asked her. but she said she didnt do anything with it. but after awhile, she admitted that she threw it away!!

HOW COULD SHE!!!! SHE SAID SHE'S THE WITNESS FOR OUR MARRIAGE! THEN SHE THREW AWAY THAT FLOWER!! HOW COULD SHE??? SHE BROKE MY HEART!!!!!

joyce lim!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

i was so upset. then joyce found the poor little orchid in the DUSTBIN!! and she washed the orchid with water and return it to me! from the dustbin!! how could she?! joyce....

i refused to forgive her! her treachery!! *oh i think i sound very harsh... hahahs.*

so i went to clean the lobby. then... ERIC WONG CAME! hahahahs. very "excited" to see him. he really amuses me. sometimes... when he say funny things, it'll remind me sing gui. yeah... i miss sing gui alot. he's so damn gay. then.. now i hardly seen eric ng. miss him too. both of them are very funny.

mmm, eric wong took over lobby... so i went to counter. HO! BOWEN IN!! [not customer in, okies?] yepps. wah... they all arhh... after NDP.. came to flood us. tsk tsk. but i thought pin pin was rather... good in attacking at them. cos pin pin is damn sarcastic. so if pin pin say anything that is sarcastic, i doubt they'll [bowen] understand. HOHOHO.

then got 1 guy pin pin was serving say he, the bowen student, is shuai. i nearly choked and vomitted. then they continued to comment on the NDP thingys... say what 'they're not capture by the camera' or something?? then i was thinking, 'of cos mah. i tell you, the camera man/woman is my idol eh. cos he/she is damn smart. he/she didnt capture the blardy bowen idiots face. cos if the whole of singapore saw their faces arhh, surely all of the singaporeans will faint in horror or vomit wan lor. that include our Nathan Mr President. do you think they want these horrors? surely no right??' HOHOHOHO.

i was damn amused by them. such thick skinned bloody idiots. those boys were still okay. cos they are being thick and disgusting. but GIRLS ARE EVEN WORSE!

koh pin pin, ITS ABOUT YOU!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was sending orders mah, after the crowd, then... i walked past these 2 bowen girls. i overheard them talking. [not that i want it, but they are damn loud, crude and so forth... im gonna write a complain letter again...=)] you want to know what it is or not, pin pin?? i dunno if you'll be happy or grossed out. but think i'll just say it.

i heard them talking about YOU! their conversation somewhat goes like this.

girl A: what you doing??
girl B: noh! i went there and-
girl A: you go there for what??
girl B: noh! i go ka jiao that shuai ge uncle.

then im like... ERRRRRRRRRRR! counter still got which uncle. unless they are saying eric wong lah. but eric wong, SHUAI??????????????????????????

excuse me, but im going to the toilet to puke out my breakfast.

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*wipe mouth* done. gross man... so if it cant be eric wong, [chokes on saliva], then WHO? of cos is that koh pin pin lah. aiyoh... im so grossed out that my hair stand. freaking girls...

hahahs. i didnt tell him straight away after my return cos i was so freaked out. then joyce asked me to go kitchen. hahahs. nice or not, pin pin?? got people speacially go there and see you leh. BOWEN GIRLS leh. HOHOHOHO.

so... i went inside kitchen. yepps. ren yong started telling us about eating sushi. he said we shouldnt eat sushi. cos sushi is a jap stuff. then you'll become jap ghost. then its dark now, then later i go home, those jap ghost will come and haunt me. hahahahs. joyce was abit freaked out. hahahas.

punched out after shankar punched in. then... accompany joyce to toilet. she is still abit unnerved by ren yong's taunting about ghost. tsk tsk. that woman.

mmm, we had alot of lost and found. we had... a MNM calculator. that wan damn cute i tell you. though got the medical oil smell. then... got a cute handphone toy! then... got the tambourine. and a bunch of keys. hohohohoho. then me and pin pin started playing those toys. i know lah, childish and immature right? but i childhood deprieved lah.

then mui geok found an NDP bag. bet its that bowen assholes[oops] that left it behind. so poor thing that bag. its owner abandoned it. nevermind, mui geok will take you home. so... when we got hold of the bag, we started ravaging the bag, looking thru what's inside.

not bad lah, this year. yepps. torch light is a handphone. yeah. then.. got a commerence CD. then... oh yeah! the FLAG! i tell you, i love that FLAG! yepps. whopppeeee! =)

so... fooled around in the store. took out shutters. pulled down the shutters. then... play with the flags and toys again. mui geok damn nice to me. she let me change the lunch menu to breakfast menu. the plastic board above the counter, yeahs... with all those pictures wan. yeahs. so nice right?? she let me play! hohohoho.

mmm, watched ren yong cleaned heat treat. i think its rather fascinating leh. why nobody want to learn to clean?? so... ren yong told me he's going to request to viet and let me learn to wash heat treat! so nicee!! whoooppeee!!

so... hang around again and decided to go home. took 315 and sleep on the bus. hahahs. went home and sleep.

i cant take it anymore! im going to sleep now! see ya!! its a very very very long post. yepps.

enjoy~

p.s-> i forgot to bring those toys back home... i miss the flag... i hope they never throw them away...

funny folks...

2005-08-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

i have to agree that old people tend to get happy over minor things.

cos when i woke up just now, it was about 11 30am.[i sleep at 3am, okay!] so.. my ah ma is alr halfway thru cooking lunch. drowsily i walked past her to the toilet and told her that i want to eat already.

she was soooo happy. but she havent finish her cooking yet, so.. she excitedly asked me to eat some bread 1st.

isnt that wonderful? i made my ah ma happy by saying i want to eat.

..........................................

anyway, i've got loads to say, shall blog some more after my lunch. im very hungry. =)

for money guilin

2005-08-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

money guilin!! moneyyyyy!!!

okies, money, i know you're feeling very stressed up right now... and i just hope that you'll relax. dun think too much now... anything you can talk to me, okies?? im very sorry that i've left sec 4 farewell all into you and jess's hands. and make you 2 soooo super stressed.

anyway... take good care of urself money. dun bottle yourself up, okies?? i love you lots and lots!

smile! you're on candid camera! =)

tagboard changed--

2005-08-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

changed this skin. so cute right?? hohohohoho.

it reminds me of mushu in mulan. coz there was this time he was going to borrow fireworks powder from the citizens. so when the citizens asked who are they are, mushu replied, "your worst nightmare." and the citizens fall off the tower. yepps.

maplestory's characters are sooo cute. =)

oh yea, changed my tagboard too... coz that stoopid flooble cant fit the table no matter how i adjust. so i changed it to shoutbox. yepps.

oh yea, the song's changed too... dunno if can hear or not... i sure hope so. it's "puzzle of my heart".

think im going to sleep now. tmr is national day celebration...

so... see ya peeps!

illness spreads

2005-08-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

haiz. it seems like all my family members' health are deterioriating. 1st, my ah ma. next my dad. now my mum.

haiz. my mum's feet is like so swollen. like a pig's one. she said it was 'urine sour' in chinese. i dunno what's that, but... all i can do is to give her money to see doctor. i gave her my ATM card... so... she can just withdraw it at any machine...

haiz. think i gotta earn back my money again... it'll be tough... coz i told viet to let me work on saturday's morning only. on a happier note, i get to eat macs breakfast! hahahas. i havent ate it for months le...

anyway... i think the blogathon is rather interesting. yepps. read the article in kenny sia's blog and you'll understand what's the blogathon is for.

i just heard some flopping and glopping noise in the living room. apparently my mum is immersing her feet in ~~hot~~ warm water to relieve the itchness. haiz.

oh wells... i dunno what to say now... but, ganbatte nuriko!

yepps. see ya then...

oh well...

2005-08-07T03:07:00.000+08:00

i was typing nicely just now when something pop up in the screen.

i got kicked out of the internet.

all my writings just now are gone!! now i must rewrite!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!

didnt go to work today. gotta accompany dad to hospital to check his body.

it was only high blood pressure.

on the way back home, he kept saying that he's going to leave us.

such a pessimistic dad.

how nice.

decided to go central to walk around. as i walked along the streets, i heard an orchestra playing some music i know. humming the tune to myself, i realised what the song is. [cant rmb wat song is it now.] after the song is finished, another song was played. humming the tune again, i was thinking why is this song so familiar.

i kept walking, then i realised what song is that.

its a NATIONAL DAY SONG!

we've got such patriotic singaporeans. we must be proud. fancy an orchestra playing national day song on an event that is irrevelent to national day.

seems like national day songs are pretty nice to sing. the closers were singing out loud ytd.

amused yet annoyed, i walked on, not humming anymore.

i ate dinner and went home.

as i lay on my bed, i realised something.

miserable is pronounced as MI-SER-RER-BLE. and not, MI-RI-SER-BLE.

i used to pronounced the latter one.

im rather moody right now. PMS-ing probably... i hate PMS. coz it makes razid grouchy. razid PMS too, though he's a male. i mean, he's a B*T*H. he said it himself. haiz. i dun like razid being grouchy. coz he bites, too. i prefer the joking and friendly razid. coz he makes me laugh.

haiz. i think im rather stupid and gullible. its the fourth time this thing happened. i think i should have been more careful about me choosing my friends. and choosing my words to say. i was really wrong to say such things to them.

i shld have entrusted my personal things to a more worthy candidate. i am always stupid in this. i trust people easily. i look at people in a different perspective. i see past through the masks they wear.

i look at my friends of the inside. but i was always hurt by my friends of the outside.

how could i ever be friends with the friends of the inside, when im ever so hurt by them of the outside.

oh well... just treat it as an impt lesson to learn, nuriko. the world is full of deception, you'll never know what is going to happen to you anytime.

oh yeah, i LOVE DOSY! thanks dosyy! dun cheat my feelings again, okies??

i just wish that people would stop talking about me, and retelling my tales to other people whom i have no wish to let them know about it. its privacy in case you dont know. surely you dun need a dictionary to know the meaning right? or you want me to define it for you?

im really upset about this. you know who you are, i dun wan to name it. but, i just want to tell you that, if you're gonna be like that, like what you told me ytd when i raised that issue to you, no matter how many sorries you said, things between us will be different from now onwards. very different.

haiz. i should have known.

fighting

2005-08-05T03:49:00.000+08:00

never take anyone for granted

like the saying that goes,

you'll never miss the water till it's gone.

from now onwards, i will be frank to my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions. i wont bluff myself anymore. i'll say anything i like. i'll do anything i like. i wont hide anything anymore.

because, i dont want to lose another chance. once its gone, it'll never come back again.

it will never ever come back again... anymore...

retards and relieving

2005-08-03T02:01:00.000+08:00

i was laughing like shit when i read kenny sia's blog. it's so funny and stupid. i mean, kenny's blog is always funny and not stupid. but today, the topic was reallly lame and stupid. take a look and you'll understand me.

how gross can one go to???? urrgghh. *retching*

anyway, i was talking to jun an just now... mmm, wat shld i say...

thank you for telling me those things and reminding me the definition of REALITY. its me who tell you wan hor. okies okies. shant be agitated coz im using my favourite purple color. yepps. ayy... i promise you with all my pillows that i wont, I WONT, let my thoughts and emotions go astray again. and focus on [that bloody] studies. and swear that i'll get promoted to next year by all costs. and remember to pass that chocolate to erena and apologize to her. and take a long leave at macs. no matter how much they want me to work at least once a week. satisfied??

*oei.. but my new pay is effected this month leh... ask me not to work... my money arhh!!!*

this purple is very nice. shall continue using it. yepps. mwhahahahs!

my elder bro fell asleep in front of the com just now. scary man... he locked the door, so my mum couldnt get in to take my sleeping bag. so i used the key to open it! TADA! it opened!!

so... i went in and saw him. i poked him awake and told him that me and mum were hollering at him to open the door just now but he didnt open. when he heard that, he gave me this bewildered and annoyed look, and gruffly said, "i didnt hear anything."

i bet he's cheating my feelings. and mum's. hmph!

anyway, im so jealous of him. he get to learn how to design website and html as a subject in sch!! that's so unfair. though i know last 2 yrs we also got, but my brother wan is much better lor. i think he only need to take physics and the web designing thingy.

so i asked my brother if i can go his sch and take the same subjects as him.

he gave me a loathing look and said a curt 'no' straight in my face.

i was so hurt but was indigant at the same time. coz he never looked up to me b4, even when our results clearly stated that im smarter than him.

then i asked him why cant i get in.

hurrr! he answered me in those airy-fairy tone, "coz you'll never draw or design as nice as me. you think you can do this?? *he points to a pic he drew using paint. it was quite nice coz it was mouse-drawn. but of coz i denied it lah*"

"i also can mah!" i retorted back.

i thought he would be like, taken aback or something, but he DIDNT! he laughed scornfully at me. and said, "pls lah! i saw all those things you drew. it all SUCKS lor. i draw better lah. forget it lah. you wont be as good as me" and he babbled on saying how nice his drawing is.

i refused to admit my brother's art is better than me. I DO GET AN A/A STAR IN MY ART BEFORE OKAY?? got teacher say i draw the lobster damn nice. hmph! you can draw lobster or not??

okay... im just comforting myself. that happen when i was like... pri 1/2... where teachers often gave As to please little kids like me... i'll never draw as nice as him. i'll just... i'll just... hug my pillow and cry to sleep.

lalala. im being bored. oh yes, many people have been feeling down lately. and i just want to play my part as a good friend of theirs and encourage them.

as all of us grew up, and realised that we all have a certain responsibilty to carry. be it, exceeding in academics, taking care of family and not disappointing them, or be it working, able to juggle between work and sch work. or it can be maintaining good friendships between friends we treasure alot. its natural to feel small when knowing you've got to take things on you're own. we are all too pampered. and we've never really exposed ourselves to the outside world. when we did get exposed, we found it tiring to do EVERYTHING on our own when we have parents taking good care of us. and we want to hide, run away and even pretend that it didnt happen. im saying from personal experience but of cos.

i just want to say this to 2 of my good friends right now, that, its okay to be a little kid. wanting to be pampered, wanting to do nothing but to enjoy life with those we loved and thinking innocently or being naive. its perfectly fine. but i just hope that you all wont bottled everything inside you... just like what i've done before. and look at me now! im just like a balloon filled with over-flowing current of water. as the elastic gets more stretched, it became raw and vulnerable and easily snapped. i overestimated myself and get myself 'exploded'. it hurts alot and it'll never be the same again anymore. and i do not wish to see any of friends repeating the same thing i've gone thru.

what are friends for?? friends are there to help you go thru everything you've faced, esp. when you are helpless and needed someone to be with you. dun be shy or embarrassed to tell them what you feel. really. that is what really makes a friendship. being honest to each other and truthful to yourself. till then, you'll know what really lies in front, and before your life. its time, my friends, to learn to speak up! learn to trust your friends! i know they'll always be with you! [at least i do! xp] if they reject or even hurt you, then they're not worthy of your friends. true friends will always stand by your side.

try to let go of everything bad or hurtful. the life is yours. you choose to be happy or not happy. its all abt making your own choice. if you chose to wallow in self pity, its really sad to see that. its easily to smile than to frown. and one thing i've found out is that, stress is actually an excuse to deny the fact that we're not working hard anymore. stress dun come knocking on the door. it only comes when you looked for it. learn to take things by your stride. no one is competing with you. so take your time! yepps! [oops, abit out of atmosphere arh this word.]

letting go is hard. but its the only way to relieve ourselves. okay this is a simple yet crude analogy.

take for example, your bladder. if one day you're somewhere far from the toilet or you're attached your eyes to the tv or something, and you just freakingly dun want to go to the toilet to relieve yourself. then you're gonna die of blockage in your bladder. [im not sure if it will cause death but im just exaggerating, okies?] but if you were to take that extra mile to relieve yourself, you'll realise that, 'hey! actually, going to the toilet and relieve myself is good and relaxing! its not that tough as i thought it would take me.' once relieved of the excessively build up of urines, you'll be very happy and relaxed! isnt that wonderful? so why not, take that extra mile and LET GO OF EVERYTHING! tat includes your feaces aka waste for more refined usage of word and your urine. ermm, i think your fart can also let go lah... but make sure no sound come out okay?? or else MALU ARH! [of coz unless you're lmz...whose almighty fart never fail to cause people to faint in horror.] and you'll experience happiness and peace, beyond anything you've imagined.

[i finally understand why wan ling loves the toilet. the experience is great, isnt it??]

its going to be tough, running from streets to streets looking for toilet while holding your bladder, or missing that few minutes of your precious idol's acting, BUT! its worth it!! yeah!! taking a break is actually giving you energy to go furthur in the journey!! yepps!! so, take a break! have a kit kat! opps, sorry. i mean, yes. take that extra mile. okies?

im not sure if im off point or you people just dunno what im gibbering abt for that past 10mins, but i hope for those who understand, will you know... understand and that, their lives will be better. esp. to my 2 friends. okies??

aiyah. too chiem le lah. if cannot understand or got questions can ask me lah.

okies? goodnite now. im missing my beauty sleep. jaaaaa!

finding back my humour

2005-08-02T07:23:00.000+08:00

oh humour~ where are you??? come back home now!! i miss you soooo much!!

haiz. jun an reckon i've lost my sense of humour. coz he say my posts are like so touchy and everything. not funny anymore like last time. so, now, i shall blog in a more general form. and i want all my posts to be a funny and cheerful one! whooppeee!!

okies okies. recently i've been passing by s'goon central on my way back home. there were quite some major changes, and i was quite astounded by it.

yesterday i was walking past the POSB bank and the TOTO betting place when i heard a weird "beeping" noise. i thought it was the bank, you know? the stupid queue number and everything. so when i looked into the bank, i realised it was closed. then i walked past the TOTO betting place. oh my goodness... it was sooooo organized. people had to queue up neatly like the one in the bank. then they have to wait for the stupid queue number to beep and go for your respectively counter. how cool is that?

waaaaay cool. i was like, HOHOHOHOHO.

anyway, i switched on the computer when i reached home. yepps. i went to friendster coz shankie left me a testimonial. i browsed around my friends' profile and i realised that, alot of my friends lovee to flood people's testimonials. i mean, okay... 1 or 2 is enough. but 10 testimonial in one go talking about 'how much i miss you' or 'you're such a stupid ass' or whatever they are talking abt is wayyyy too much.

1st, let me define, testimonial. Adapted From: WordNet 2.0 Copyright 2003 by Princeton University. All rights reserved.

testimonial:

something that serves as evidence; "his effort was testimony to his devotion"

it can also be,

something that recommends (or expresses commendation) of a person or thing as worthy or desirable

so people/flooders, you think, 'i miss you' is an evidence to you?? or is it worthy or desirable of a person???

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

so people, stop flooding. its abit irritating to see 10 testimonial written by the same person saying 'how much i miss your stinking shoes.'

like i once said to someone, 'its abt quality, not quantity.'

back to my topic, i was thinking of my humour just now. hmm, i never really find myself funny, until last year. when i was exposed to speakers' corner with that silly ben dan. you know, when i 1st wrote our script, i was like, 'how?? im like sooo lame here. surely not funny one lah... die die die.' but who knows? the results were incredible!! really. it was FARRRR beyond my imagination. i even have this mild thinking that mrs koh and the rest were just humouring me...

but it wasnt. hahahs. the experience was nice, standing up on the platform, making everyone laugh. then when you get off stage, teachers will be praising you, saying how well you performed.

commenting on sports day was even an eye opener for me. or shld i say, 'mouth opener'. it was very different from what i thought it was... but it was fun! yepps. i've done alot of stupid things lor... aiyoh... come to think of it, i was rather stupid...

HOW CAN THAT BE?? HOW CAN I BE STUPID WHEN THAT SILLY BEN DAN IS NEXT TO ME????

aarrghhh!! no no no. okies nuriko, relax. calm down. and stop bitting ashitare's head! its a baaad habit. got all the dandruff inside. haiyo!

mmm, i saw ren yong on bus 70 ytd. i was glad to see him. coz liddat i can just pass the things to him. im really paiseh that sunday i didnt go to work. i overslept. oops. paiseh leh. i didnt purposely make you all stay until 3am de... really.

oh wait, i think i saw lmz too. her carrefour $9 only bag was distinguishable among the crowds. yepps.

that's all for now. wont be blogging much these few days le. take caree! osayumi! [or whatever it is...]

since you all want me to

2005-08-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

14/8/05

since all of you thought and wanted me to be angry, then i shall be angry. im gonna vent all my anger here.

WHO THE FUCK IS HE TO SCOLD ME? HE KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT THE COUNTER! HE ONLY KNOW HOW TO HOLE UP IN THAT FUCKING KITCHEN, THINKING HE'S THE BLOODY FUCKER KING. DONT THINK TOO MUCH OF YOURSELF LAH, FUCKER ASSHOLE. WE AS THE COUNTER HAVE TO FACE THE BLOODY CUSTOMERS. IN CASE YOU DUN UNDERSTAND WHAT CUSTOMERS ARE, THEY ARE THE ONES BUYING ALL YOUR FUCKING PRODUCTS. IF ANY PRODUCTS ARE OWED, YOU ONLY HAVE TO ANSWER TO YOUR BLOODY SELF. BUT WE LEH?? WE HAVE TO FACE THOSE BLOODY CUSTOMERS! YOU ONLY STAY IN THE KITCHEN. YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT COUNTER! SO FUCKING SHUT UP AND QUIT THORWING YOUR BLOODY TEMPER!

YOU THINK ONLY YOU GOT MOOD AND EMOTIONS ARH?? ONLY YOU HAVE TEMPER ARH? STOP BEHAVING LIKE YOU'RE A SUPREME RULER OF MACS. HGPT AND SELETAR ARE 2 DIFFERENT STORES! WE WORKED DIFFERENT WAYS. SO STOP FUCKINGLY USE YOUR FUCKING METHODS IN THIS STORE. NOT EVERYONE IS USED TO IT.

AND I DUN GET WHY YOU GET SO PISSED ON ME FOR WHAT? YOU DIDNT EVEN ANSWER THANK YOU. THEN WHEN I ASKED IF YOU GOT HEAR OR NOT, YOU ASK ME TO REPEAT. SO I REPEAT LAH. I THOUGHT YOU CANT HEAR. THEN YOU SCREAMED AT ME. WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE? IF YOU'RE SMART, COME DO COUNTER LAH. GO FACE THOSE FUCKER CUSTOMERS LAH. SEE IF YOU CAN STAND THEM OR NOT? GO SHOW YOUR FUCKING ATTITUDE AT THEM LAH. IM NOT THAT STUPID TO SHOW THEM LOR. AND YOU ACTUALLY GOT YOUR CHEEK TO SCOLD ME AND SHOW ME YOUR FUCKING ATTITUDE.

SO WHAT IF YOU'RE MORE EXPERIENCED THAN ME? SO WHAT IF YOU'RE A CREW LEADER. AND ITS A FUCKED UP ONE. HOW LONG HAVENT YOU TOUCH THE COUNTER HAR? 1YR? OR 2 YRS? YOU DUN DESERVE THE TITLE OF CL IF YOU CANT WORK PEACEFULLY WITH CREWS. AND YOU CANT EVEN SET A GOOD EXAMPLE. FUCKINGLY JUST SHOW YOUR ATTITUDE LIDDAT.

YOU JUST KNOW HOW TO HIDE BEHIND IN THE KITCHEN AND SHOW YOUR FUCKING ATTITUDE. WATCH YOUR ATTITUDE ASSHOLE. IM NOT LIKE ALICIA, SUCKING UP TO YOU. IM NOT THAT GIRLIE OR WHATEVER. IM NOT AFRAID OF YOU. I AGREE WITH HARDIANA. JUST BCOS YOU GOT THAT CHEEBYE FACE, THAT DOESNT MEAN WE MUST ALL BE AFRAID OF YOU, AND GIVE IN TO YOU. I WONT WAN. YOU WANT TO FIGHT, FIGHT LAH. IM NOT SCARED.

FUCK OFF ERIC KOH. YOU SUCK!

i know im very crude and vulgar here. but isnt that what you guys wanted? you all expects me to blow up wad. so i blow lah.

he only thinks for himself. he's a selfish fucker. throw what fucking temper.

i've been very tolerant today. i didnt even give any damn when the bloody customer scolded me. i just let him scold. i gave him what he wants. another fucker gave me his cheebye face, but did i scold him back? no. i take it down. cos he's the customer. but you leh? you cant even take such a simple thing! compare me and you, who more stressed? who's more humiliated. me or you? and you actually insult me. im not like alicia or whoever. i dun SUCK UP to people. esp. to fuckers like you.

i was wrong to think that we could work peacefully. no way we could. and im not going to be that generous to tolerate HIS attitude.

im very angry and pissed right now. and dun try to talk me thru. i had enough.

i was not angry with him at macs. im REALLY not angry. but since all of your assume im angry, so be it lor. and im not even pissed at him actually. this is my view of story, take it or leave it.

i was calling for pin pin's orders. so that the products can be made faster. of cos we must one thing one thing call, or else got problem or got grill, we can correct immediately and not waste anything. so i called. that fucker didnt answer me, and i realised he was cleaning the grill. i thought he couldnt hear me, so i asked of they got hear it or not. then that fucker heard that and asked what i said.

so i thought he cant hear me, so i raised my voice louder to tell him. but he fuckingly thought im showing my temper and he shouted at me back.

so i think you all thought we are 'arguing' just because we shouted at each other. but no lor, i thought he cant hear so i say louder wan. its he who fuckingly thought im that fucked up to scream at him. he still dare to comment to joyce that nowadays counter crews dunno how to call for products. if he's so damn smart, go do it yourself lah. only know how to fuck here fuck there.

nicholyn

2005-07-31T21:54:00.000+08:00

this is for nicholyn. its very long.

i've read your blog. i did not hate you or dislike you or anything. i still like you as my xiao mei. and you will always be my nic. if you're hurt because i said that i went to see you all on da jie's bdae is because of qin ai de, only for qin ai de. then you've absolutely misunderstood me. yes, indeed, i went there to see qin ai de. cos i havent seen her for long and if you didnt realised this, both of us felt very awkward when we go out together. not because of your presence, but because of the family.

you are saying im not being fair to you people. but, are you being fair to me? maybe you dont feel it, cos you're being favoured in her eyes. you are being pampered. you get all the attention. you just dont get the feeling of being left out when you thought you're not. or even worse, the feeling of being used when you thought you are participating. im not being attention seeking or anything. everytime we go out, whatever she talks were you and da jie. her so-called 'care' was just to ask me out and have fun. she claimed to love us all, but i just dont get it. she only loves you and da jie.

i felt very odd being around with you all. i just dun feel the need for my presence there. she only wanted me there, just for the sake of 'a whole family'. just for the sake of those impression that we are one whole family. and when we finally gathered, she soon forgets that, and occupies herself with you and da jie. then what about me and qin ai de? where's the family she firmly argues? its always qin ai de and me who are left out. we are not one family anymore. we are just parts of it which will make YOU happy. cos i know, you like us alot. she just cant bear to remove us from you. and hurt you again. can't you see, the family she so-called say, its only you and da jie. not us.

i was very angry that day on family nite. i purposely didnt pick up her calls. cos i dun want to go da jie's bdae. all the attention are on her. she's being very selfish to only care about you and da jie when she SAY she care for the 4 of us. i didnt found out this feeling recently. i've known this for quite some times. but i still go out with you all, pretend to be happy. just to fulfil her wish of making you happy. i dun want to go da jie's party because i hate the superficial things in it. i thought i was happy, but i wasn't. why should i continue believing in things, that i'll never be happy with?

you asked me to call her. i faithfully do it. and you said she was angry, and must be careful. but i didnt care. she angry for what? so i called her. her voice was full of reproach. she said it all that suggest that i purposely spoilt that party. from that moment onwards, my heart was fully broken and dead. i knew i will never be able to be with her anymore. she blamed me for not telling her about the family nite thingy and purposely didnt mention the family nite until the very day. if you read my post before family nite, i was soooo thoroughly excited for da jie's bdae. and not that stupid dumb family nite. i even pleaded with joyce to let her off so that we can be together that day. i only know that family nite until like, wednesday? and it wasnt on my mind at all, i was full of da jie's party till thursday nite. so she's blaming me for spoiling da jie's party izzit? you think i wan arh? but family nite includes my friends. i cannot leave them. its not fair to them.

she say until like its all my fault. and she speaks of the family again. and she says without me, it will feel weird. cos she know da jie wont be very happy without me. and she doesnt want to upset da jie. she wants da jie's party to be perfect. but i argued with her that you all can still continue with the party. she insisted no, without me in it. but in the end, you all still goes on with it. what's with it? 1st you blame me, and make me feel so guilty, then in the end, you all still gets on with it? what's that for? punish me for not telling you about the family nite??? im always the last on her mind, but im the 1st to be blamed for everything. i tried everything i can to be with you all, help you, make you all happy, but is this what i should deserves from you all???

i used to believe that our relationship was like hers and ophelia. so... even if she doesnt speak of much about me, but i know she still cares for me. but it was just an illusion. just a false thought to make me believe i was happy. i was wrong.

trust me, she wont be hurt at all. when time pass by, she'll forget about it. she only cares for you and da jie. she will do anything for you 2. i was just a pawn used to make you two happy.

i dun hate you for anything. i dun hate you at all. im sorry that i broke something you hung tightly to. but, sometimes, you gotta learn to let go. and believe that things wont be the same as you thought it would be. and, nic, its time for you to do your own decision. and learn to be independent. depending on others is a bad habit.

now you know my reasons. and i hope, you wont cling on the 'god-family' that was so-called anymore. okay?

i learn not to believe in things that i thought i would be happy anymore.

un-reuniting reunion

2005-07-31T14:50:00.000+08:00

sorry arh, the last part of the previous post was so broken. coz my bro, father and ah ma kept rushing me to bathe. so i hurried that last 2 lines and it became liddat. paiseh arh.

anyway, ytd went celebrate ah ma's bdae. it was located at somewhere near ang mo kio central.

mmm, it was really... i dunno what to say... i really dun want to go there anymore. 1st, i saw my 3 irksomes cousins. i hate them, okies? eversince chinese new year they came, and asked their stupid little brother to mess up the chinese chess i was playing with my brother. i hate them. act cool not cool. somemore im taller than them. okay lah, taller than their little brother only... but i was about the same height as them le leh. not bad liao. [i think i am the tallest youngster girl there. mwhahahaha!] hmph!!! i hate them.

so... me and hiu isolated ourselves from them and stood backview from them. then... the rest of the aunties uncles and cousins came. so we settled down at the table. me and hiu purposely dun wan to go to the youngsters table. coz i just feel awkward with them lah.

there was another family who was late. and they were the ones who were very close to me when i was young. but now... no longer. mmm... they changed alot. the younger sister grew rather tall now. but her older sister[who is same age as me...] is still not growing. shant be mean to call her short lah.

so... we sat down. and called our drink. the 2 cousins i mentioned just now are called, YL[older sis] and KL[younger sis]. so... we called drinks. all of the youngsters ordered can drink but only YL ordered BEER. wah kao... so young drink beer. tsk tsk. even her mum was so shocked that she drink beer. i tell you arh, sooner or later, she'll learn to smoke, by seeing the rate that she's drinking now.

drinking is not good. its bad for health and you'll get addicted to it. so i really hope that YL will stop drinking. i heard from her mum that she learn how to drink by her childhood friend called JY. i knew them all when we were young... we were good friends... but, haiz. things changed over the time ba.

anyway, YL's mum was very competitive as usual, since i was young they always compare me and YL. obviously they are jealous of my intelligence and my independence and everything. why? let me list out the things.

i found out the jealously of them when i was about P4 i think. i got the edusave bursary of $200, and i asked my mum for reward. so... my mum bought me this discman i longed waited for. so... after i got it, i showed it to YL and KL coz they were my best cousins and we lived near each other.

after a few days, i heard that YL had gotten a discman too, and a better one than me. i was happy for her too, thinking that her mum is really nice of her, to buy YL a disman without any conditions. but... after a few weeks, i heard that, her mum didnt buy the discman for that reason i stated earlier. YL was jealous of me having a discman, so she asked her mum to buy. i rmbered someone told me this is how she plead her mum to buy. "sien ren you, wei shen me wo mei you??!"[the words in bold are in chinese, the not bold one is my nickname when i was young.] so.. you see, things werent that simple as i thought.

soon, they began to compare things with me, be it academic or things. it was stressful man. i can still remember her mum's face the day we received our PSLE result. haha. come to think of it, it was very funny. i was about to go home when i saw YL's mum. so...she asked me for my results. i told her my result was 250. she was damn shock. then i ask YL's. she mumbled, only about 180+[i think. i cant rmb] yeah. she was so paiseh. coz no matter how hard she make/want YL is over shine me, she failed to do so.

then... there was this time, her com broke down and she asked me over to fix it for her. so... i went there. then she started showing off her com to me, say what their com is very new. what 2004 or something. dunno lah. but i can see they are trying to show off lah. haiyo...

so anyway, ytd, YL's mum came and talk to me when i took out my hp. she started asking me what model my hp was. then ask if got camera function or not. then she took out hers and said that her's was sony ericsson and blah blah. even hp she want to compare.

then when she settled down, she asked me if i was still studying. hah, obviously she cant wait to see me out of sch. so that YL will be better than me. but sorry, no lor. you look at my brain lor, do you think YL will ever go beyond me. [im sorry i sound very arrogant abt it, but im really sick of them comparing with me.]

so... she kept quiet when i said i was going back sch. then she striked another conversation asking where's my elder bro and my mum. we are the only family that is not full. so when i said, they are not free. her face was full of contempt. i can see that she was rather gleeful that our family is not a whole family. so what. no big deal.

i understand why they are always comparing with me. coz YL's mum was from a rich family. obviously they think they are superior than us lah. you look at my examples above, and you'll understand. superficial people. haiz. dunno lah.

and YL got herself a job too. at KFC. i mean, i think she did it bcoz they knew i was working at macs. i knew they purposely choose that job. they dun want to work at macs coz im working there. they dun want to be the same as me. they want to be better than me. but didnt they know that macs, by far, has the best pay among all the part timer job for fast food restaurant?? kinda stupid, their actions.

hmm, i dun deny that YL is getting prettier than before. but she's also becoming abit plump. yeps. and she doesnt look nice in skirt. coz her leg abit thick lah. but her hair was nice, the way she tied it up. mmm, then i heard from her mum that YL is taking slimming pills!!!! oh gosh... that woman arhh... i really dun get her anymore. she's just 15! she drinks and she take slimming pills???? haiz. one day, she'll regret.

so... yepps. i warned hiu that he must not take beer/alcohol nor smoke in the future. coz its bad for health and it does you no good. lucky all my siblings are sensible. none of them has done anything bad for their health. even though i knew all these facts, i was amusing ourselves by pretending to sip our dad's beer thru our straws. hahahs. it was retardd lah. but funny, in another way.

then hiu even ask my dad for cigeratte. hahahas. but my dad didnt hear lah. hiu told me all his friends smoke. i really hope hiu dun learn to smoke. or else i'll kill him personally. coz i hate smokers. smoking does you nothing but damage to your health. its so ex and it kills your lungs. then second hand smoker die faster than 1st hand lor. you want all your friends to die bcoz you smoke around them izzit?? so mean and selfish!

yepps. so...we started eating. okay lah. i liked the fried tofu and the or-ni[yam paste]. yepps. after that we had our cake. took pictures. [using YL's digital camera. *roll eyes*] then yepps... end of it. was sooo relieved. then... we took bus home with YL's family. YL & KL was taking pics on bus. i was soooo grossed out that i almost puked out what i ate. how vain can those 2 be???

reached home and switched on com. read thru twelfth nite book and notes. wahh... my brain sogging like siao...

such a long post huhs?? hahahas. anyway... i shall go read HBP again. jaaaaa!

meandosy

2005-07-30T17:37:00.000+08:00

do you understand my title?? i found out abt it when i edited the name of the photo. it was supposed to be, 'me and dosy'. but when i put them together, it became, 'meanddosy'. the double 'd' is sooo extra so i removed one out. so... it became...

MEANDOSY.

mwhahahas. mean dosyy!! dosy is sooo mean!!

anyway... shall post 1 pic here.

me and dosy after family nite at bus stop. daughter and mum. =))

going to bathe now. going to celebrate ah ma's bdae now. jaaaaaaaaa.

nothing much actually...

2005-07-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

okies people. i passed my NSRS. yepps. great news. after all those painstaking days, worrying abt the stupid test. its finally over and we PASSED!! yepps. shocking thing is, i wasnt exactly that happy as i thought i would be when i heard the results.

mmm, it was a horrible experience. but a great one though.

let me recall that day...

went HGPT @ 5 15 pm to meet darling and ren yong. darling was panicking coz his apron was dirty. but we managed to find a replacement apron. yepps. phew.

was testing darling abt the oral test. wahh, both of us cannot take it. so we decided to fail that test. ren yong, for the 1st time, was looking very stressed and anxious abt NSRS too. i never seen him so anxious before. he kept asking us things. yepps.

so... we went off at 6pm. darling and ren yong went toilet to relieve themselves. then... we went to take 72 to lifestyle.

mmm... we werent the only one taking NSRS. yepps. was really intimidated by the accessor. ren yong talked to another manager while we waited. then we went to register. aiyoh, ren yong forgotten to bring his IC/ez-link call. lucky the accessor was lenient, and let ren yong off.

so we went inside to look around. Michelle was very helpful to us. yepps. keep giving us help. and she asked us to look out for food safety. yepps.

mmm, the people at lifestyle was very helpful. mmm, there's 3 other people taking grill and PC NSRS b4 us. dun think they belong to lifestyle. im not sure lah. but they are VERY kind. hahahas. when they hand over right... i was cleaning the dress table. then one of them mutter that they'll fail. coz i think they forgot to do CAYG. hahahas.

we have about 1hr practising in the kitchen coz that accessor was having oral test with the other PC. yeppps. so we do and do. then finally she came. wahh... i was soooooo stressed up by her presence that i started to do things wrongly. i was almost convinced that i'll fail badly.

1st, i was too slow in changing my gloves. so when darling finished dressing the regular, i was still fiddling with my glove. so she came over and say, "you're too slow. by the time you got your gloves on, the bun would have gotten cold. next time you should prepare everything before you start." wahh... i was soooo scared.

anyway, im not used to lifestyle's grill. really not used. and not used to the kitchen's layout. i think our store wan is very neat. but lifestyle's abit messy. its big, but... just dun really used to it.

rohaiyu was very friendly! she's the same age as me, but she's only 2 month old in the store. and she took her NSRS mcchicken that day. oh my gosh! she's super outstanding i tell you. but.. sadly lah, she failed her NSRS. that woman dont even wanna give her second chance. she's only 2 months there lor... so cruel.

then there was this shi jia girl. she arhh... hmph! shant talk about her. but she's nice too. both me and ren yong felt that we've worked with her before. yepps. she left early lah. so didnt chat much.

back to topic, so... the test started. she walked around... yeah... then yah lor. just like that. then if we do mistake, she'll say it to you. i made ALOT of mistakes lor... i still managed to pass. mmm, like, i forgot to drain my doublecheese burger. then... i didnt put my that dunno what board properly on the clamshell... then, i didnt hold for 3 seconds for the big mac crown...then i even dress big mac wrongly... as in pickle and cheese got mixed up. then, i faltered in my calling...

after 40 mins... she asked me for my oral test. it was... horrible. got alot of questions i couldnt ans her. but those that i know, think i managed to get a 'very good' from her lah. during that period of time, i kept thinking of tina. coz tina say, you must be long winded in your ans. so... i blabbered on. keep talking.

phew, i think she knew i was very disappointed in my performance that day, so when we finish, she said, "you did pretty well, so dun worry." im like, yah right. i made so much mistakes. thanks for your encouragement *sarcastic*.

then 3 crews taking the NSRS before us left. they were very encouraging. the guy doing dress before me got that face that suggested he failed. coz he told me he did rather badly and was shaking his head. hahahs. the 2 of them are very nice lah. but didnt managed to ask which store they work. or else someday i go there and check on their burgers. hahahas.

then... it was darling's turn. it was a very long waiting... finally then ren yong. ren yong was stressed too. and he went off to the crew room. so... me and darling talked. yepps... i know darling is a friendly person and he'll say anything that's on his mind. but sometimes i wish he would keep his mouth.

hah! both of us found this cute litte yellow balloon stick. we were soooo excited abt it. ren yong came out. then... we were waiting to get our things from the manager locker. then, we asked one of the manager if we could have it. hahahas. so she gave us 2 sticks. so nice right??

bade goodbye to everyone. they were really nice people. then... the 3 of us went back to take 72. by the time we were out of the store, it's alr 9 40pm+. how to work??? so... we went back. and we reviewed our NSRS. wahhh... PC NSRS damn tough. i dun even know what to answer for ren yong's qn. ren yong really pro sia...

mmm, we were walking back store when i commented that the accessor got a lot of hair. i was referring to the hair on her hand. but ren yong and darling mistaken my meaning!!! aiyoh!!!

so... we went back store to find a hysterical kat. coz she kana complained. ayoh... so poor thing. then she kept complaining about the complain. mmm, result came after awhile. passed. only 2 fail. one was the PC before ren yong. so poor thing. i think the other is rohaiyu... coz she say the accessor told her that she'd failed after the oral test. the accessor so damn straightforward. irkkk.

im not going to take anymore NSRS. im not going to see that woman anymore. phew! tina will be so glad. goody good.

stayed in store to stock up for ren yong who went to take APC. yeahs... then after stocking up, i went to see siew eng filtering. filtering like very fun leh... aiyah... must wait till next year then can learn. so sad.

pin pin was crazy abt counting down too. oh wells. then he was cleaning the dunno what behind the vats. wahhhhhh, very dirtyy!!!!!! grosss. alot of carbon.. black stuffies.

went home. my elder brother damn sickening. he wouldnt come near me when im uniform. but only come and ka jiao me after i bathed. make me so hot. grrrrrrrr.

im very tired now. i slept in the afternoon again. hahahs. so nice.

jaaaaaa!

after note- im not going to believe in things that i thought i would be happy when im not anymore.

HP & THBP

2005-07-28T12:02:00.000+08:00

okies, its like... 12 days after the publish of HP & THBP. i assume most people have finished that book. unless you all are like wan ling lah, it takes her 2 years to complete "the outsiders". so anyway, i happen to chance upon this website, its called dumbledoreisnotdead.com. well, i REALLY admire the webmaster. he only used 3 days to complete reading HBP, and found out some lurking clues abt the mystery of the HBP plot.

i do believe that dumbledore is not dead. after reading that web, i was even more convinced that there's more that meets the eye in HBP. sadly though... the next book will be the last book of HP. the whole mystery will be revealed. but... there's no more anticipation of more actions from HP or JK rowling. arrrghhh!!

i shall go and find more clues myself. time to immerse myself in HBP again! jaaaa!!

im truly sorry for the spoilers here, but who ask you to be a slow reader like wan ling! next time, read faster, okay?? good. ^-^

NSRS pressure

2005-07-28T02:49:00.000+08:00

yepps people. tmr is my doom day. NSRS grill, 7 30pm at hougang lifestyle/mall. yepps. pray hard guys. thanks!

mmm, delphie asked me to go work today after a tiring day. yah.. but anyway i still need to go there to collect my apron, so why not go there and work. so yeah, went there. did lobby for awhile. called darling down to practise with me.

mmm, ren yong is having his NSRS PC tmr. with us!! but, different time lah. so the 3 of us practised together. hahas. today ren yong was rather serious in his PC's job. yeah... hahaha. but ren yong is still so funny. he kept saying that me and darling is going to fail for unreasonable reasons. its soooo funny.

then... we had some practice. then there was this time ren yong said this to me, "its lucky tmr im not having my NSRS in this store. or else got that eric wong keep saying, 'drop 5 filet arh?' i surely fail wan lor." i was laughing like dunno what lor. its sooooo funny!! indeed, eric wong kept asking if we want to drop filets or not. its very irritating leh.

yepps. then... darling went home after 7pm. ren yong was kind of mad today. he's damn funny. then at 8pm, he went to wash heat treat... so, eric koh came in.

today ren yong damn suay lor. he broke his glasses again!!! aiyoh. so suay. 170 bucks lor. and the new spects didnt last for 7days mind you. den tmr he got NSRS. aiyoh... then how to see the time card. then he was saying the examiner cannot blame him for not gearing his products during crowd in. coz he CANT SEE those crowds!! aiyoh. retardd leh.

i think ren yong look like an over-grown kid. he got those kiddy looks. VERY CUTE lor. hahahas.

mm, siew eng auntie said that delphie got dolphin's eyes. hahahas...

went home at 1030pm. ate dinner with indah and soffia. ren yong was saying he's not going to clean the freezer anymore. poor him. the part that was broken off his spects was not found at all. aiyoh... so sad.

tmr im meeting ren yong and derrick at HGPT at 5 30pm to go lifestyle together. im verrry scarreeddd!! pray hard people!!

anyway, i've removed my archives and changed it to a song preview thingys. its 'more than that' by BSB. i loved this song. yepps. actually i wanted to put 'puzzle of my heart' by westlife. but, dun think it suit this blog. hahahas.

ohyea, money guilin sent me this very touching sms. really. when i saw that sms, i was very overwhelmed by emotions. i only forward that msg to 2 person. so bad arh me? mwhahaha.

i really hope that the 3 of us will pass smoothly and nicely. so delphie will treat us something, then me and darling gotta treat ren yong something. coz ren yong claimed that he taught me and darling the procedures of grill. bwahahaha. i think PC NSRS is very tough. then filet also abit tough. what pull drop, pull, drop pull, dunno what nonsense lah. then ren yong say he's gonna send me to the next filet NSRS. he must be crazy. i'll die if i know i got another NSRS.

enuff of NSRS. so much NSRS for what? like we're going to be maids liddat. coz maids also got NSRS. and they must PASS to be a maid. yah lor. so poor thing.

lalala. shall sleep now. see ya. await my good news!! =)

i love NURIKO!! =))

2005-07-27T03:47:00.000+08:00

just watched 2 disc of FY box 2. and i made me realised how much im like nuriko. like nuriko, i love my friends. i really love them. then... nuriko... he sort of... well, cant let go of things easily too, dun you think? or else he wont be a cross-dresser for 8 whole years. but im glad he has let it go eventually... maybe, i'll learn that too, haha... but i think by the time i've learnt that, i'll be dead the next few days. hahas... coz nuriko was killed a few days later after that... isnt it?? haha..

i still cant believe there are still SOME PEOPLE out there, who know the whole story of FY, and know how brave, kind, caring, strong, cute, handsome, funny, lovely.... etc etc nuriko is. and YET they still think nuriko is GAY! no! he isnt!! you people are so biased against cross-dressers!! hmph!

work today was fine. joo hua's son arhh... hmph! called me an AUNTIE! oh whatever. bet pin pin is over the moon when justin[joo hua's son] allowed him to carry him, and call him 'gor gor'. oh whatever. no big deal.

mmm, tina went thru my NSRS booklet today... mmm, going hougang lifestyle to take the stoopid test. common mistake in grill is about the changing of gloves. yepps.

delphie bought us some weird japanese food for us today. it was okay lah. but it was nice of delp to treat us. yepps. mwhahahahas. delp is so nice, isnt she dosy?? hahah.

i've been pondering over what delp told me the day when she gave me my WPR. i guessed, i should start all over again, like i once do. well, even delp was impressed. so, who am i to fuss over?? and i do think that he's getting better. but yah lor, he's still so violent.

true, i do notice that he hardly loses his temper recently. and he's becoming more responsible. think i should, mm, look at him at a different light again. hahaha, im referring to douglas lah. the other day i was working with him... mmmm, was quite fun lah. though several times he tried to hit me coz i was irritating him. hahah. oh yeah, dosy and hotohome. he's that GAY who tried to take photos of you all the other day.

douglas was kind of crazy. sometimes he say funny things right, he dun laugh wan leh. and he acted as if its normal. hahaha. mmm, like for example, that day after crowd off, he went to check the lobby then he came back to counter. on the way, he saw some straws on the straw dispenser. so, he gave them to me and said, 'na. happy birthday.' and he didnt have any trace of jokiness or whatever. he said it like its real. he didnt even smile or have those look that suggest that he's gonna burst out laughing. hahahs. he's so... funny and weird.

guess... i've gotta accept him as a friend/manager all over again. think its gonna be tough, but that's the only way to overcome the demon in me, like what delp told me today.

mmm, decided to talk to shankie today after work. dunnno why. maybe its bcoz i couldnt really talk to anyone about this matter. its not nice to tell joanne this type of stuff, coz.. she alr knew it. and... i dun wish to bother her lah. as for nic, she's off touch at macs... so i dun think she'll understand the situation. then da jie... after the bdae party fiasco, dun think i wanna talk to her anymore. i dun wanna bother her and hurt her anymore.

so i went to find shankie. yepps. initially, i was afraid to impose him. coz he's closing lobby, then they said that today they wanna go home early. so... shankie was told by him to close lobby by 1145. so... i dunno if i should bother him or not. but... he's the only one i could talk to. delp alr know it, and i've heard her opinion. i think i should listen to someone else.

well, its nice to talk to shankar. as in, yeah. he doesnt really force you to do anything. you dun feel the pressure or that you're afraid that he dunno what to say to you or that he wont understand what you're trying to say. yepps. and he doesnt have those 'over-powering' feeling when im talking to him. so, yeah, i went to talk to him for quite some time.

shankar is really a very nice person. he's very understanding. i kind of pity him... oh yes, koh pin pin. dont you go irritate shankar so much lah. there's always a limit to everything. shankar is not a wonderboy or something. one day he'll bound to explod hearing your critizisms. even though he said he was getting used to those... but that's totally out of the point. the main thing now is that YOU'LL SHUT UP INSULTING SHANKAR. he's very nice, too nice to be treated like you as a FRIEND. okay? you get me? if you dun, well, dun bother it then. i really pity you that you'll lose such a great friend like him.

mmm, went back to talk to delp. what she says really struck me. well, i've been thinking about it just now. and i realised, actually, i do know about this theory. but its just that i didnt know they're together! they're the same!! but... i just dunno what to do at the moment. i'll just have to balance things out 1st b4 i go for anything risky or challenging.

yepps yepps, it all brings me back to nuriko. aaahh... isnt he wonderful?? he's sooo coool.

hahaha. so, well, let nature take its course then. if that's what really lies ahead of my life, no matter how hard i tried to avoid it, it will still come.

what would come, would come... and he would have to meet it when it did.

clarifications

2005-07-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

koh pin pin. i got to clarify LOADS of things too. so dun think i will wanna tag it on the board. but read carefully pls.

and dun get so heated up okay?

*deep breathe* okay, here we go.

okay i shant call that pervert your bestfriend anymore. im sorry, okay? i shall be neutral now about him and you, okayy? satisfied? good.

next.

in my 21/7 post, that day i was REALLY irritated. maybe you dun feel it, but everytime you correct my procedures, i just get the feeling that you are just flaunting your knowledge. okay, i admit, im petty and i dun like people being more superior than me.[did i mention that i have a high ego and pride??? tat's why i took so long to forgive wei long.] or perhaps i still cant get over the fact that you're a CL and you have the authority to ask me to do things. i just want to tell you this, sometimes knowing too much things are abit headache. you need to care about so many things and it gets into your mood. i dun wanna know those procedures, coz i know i wont follow them. then i'll be so guilty that i dont follow procedures. or worse still, being an almost 1 yr crew who doesnt know simple procedures.

i do know that you like to irritate people. im maybe abit still not used to it. its kind of difficult to have this mindset in my head that, everytime you irritate me, i must say this to myself. "koh pin pin is like that wan. there's no point getting angry with him." it is very tiring you know. haiz. fret not, im learning to control my temper and how to communicate with everyone. but that day i was abit short-tempered lah. so perhaps i sorta exaggerate everything. i apologize okay?

i know you have stress too. you are still worried about you being a CL. aiyah... you worried for what? you are expecting too much of yourself. you are just in macs for 1yr. you expect yourself to know everything arh? but i admire your eagerness to learn the procedures. take things slowly lah. but if you're CL for like 2yrs and you dunno all those things, then of coz you shld be worried if you still can sit in the CL throne or not lah.

okay next. and if you're angry with me posting the post on 24/7 about those bossing people around. im not referring to you. coz by that time i alr knew that you have the right to ask me to do things. its just that im being rebellious and showing attitude for refusing to listen to you on 21/7. 24/7's incident is marking for wei long and johnny. im not reminding you about 21/7. okies? they are 2 different things?

finally, im surprised that you are sorry for irritating shankar, no i mean, shankie. its difficult to see, you know?? coz you dun seem to be sorry at all. okay, im being very straight here. pardon me okay? yepps. where was i?? yes. you dun seem to be sorry at all. dun worry lah, both me and shankie alr knew you are liddat. mmm, but, i shld say, shankar is a really nice person. you know, he doesnt really blame you for irritating him. then... its like, whenever he's irritated with you, he still make a point to talk to you. but for me, you know lah, i totally ignore you. then that day... he even wanted to apologize to you about some incident on 20/7. he said he irritated you until you are like so super pissed. yepps. shankar is really nice. im really impressed with his temper.

phew... finished. i hope all the misunderstandings are cleared. happy now? good.

well... i've told joyce and viet about my "future" in macs. coz... viet took over schedule... so i think i gotta tell her my re-considered schedule. mmm... viet told me the maximum length of a break is 2 months... or else the computer will automatically terminate me. haiz. i've thought about things in my life for quite some time. i dun even know whether im doing the right thing or not. yes... i did said that i wont regret my actions i've done now. but obviously im having second thoughts now.

i dun feel weird not going to sch when everybody is. its just... the thought of me staying back for the year. i cant imagine seeing all the dodos graduate without me. yeahs... maybe i shld really go back sch. maybe i should go back to what 'normal' is. what i thought was normal for me, was actually abnormal for other kids the same age as mine. to think... i was like... ... haiz. oh wells. now im even marvelling at myself for able to juggle between sch work and macs last yr. where did i have the strength to do so??

then i realised. it was my friends. my friends gave me the strength to go on. but... this feeling or motivation seemed to ebb away. like trying to keep water in your 2 hands. that's why i havent been going to sch. i just cant see why i have to go there. i rather go work, where people there actually make my day. and i've learnt something too.

then... i got so many problems now... even without sch and hmwk and tests and exams. like, the ability to cope with sch after the long isolation. like.. how am i suppose to be around with my classmates now. then... work. NSRS. then... i dun even know if i wanna stay in macs anymore. its not easy to leave everything behind, when like, there's so much fun there. maybe i should learn to let go. i dunno.

then... i had a nightmare today. for the 1st time, im afraid of neighbour. i dun wanna see her anymore. really. i sorta hate the family i have at macs now. really. im sick of it. the compromisers are always the 1st to part the crowd. if nic and joanne are reading this, pls dun call me/msg me anymore. coz i wont reply. i wont ans your phones de. now i dun even know how to face neighbour at macs. dun try to talk things thru me. coz im sick of it. really. it simply just tires me. and i hope qin ai de, you didnt tell them anything.

to be truthful, i wasnt abit upset/guilty that i've spoilt da jie's party. because in the 1st place, i DUN WAN to go. i went there just for the sake that qin ai de was there... and maybe she felt abit lonely. but who knows lah, i left qin ai de also.

my only comfort now is from the dodos and myself. yes. me myself. and on one else. the dodos are the only ones whom made me steer out of my thoughts and go back to sch. oh.. and perhaps tina too. yepps. and evyone... yeahs. i dun wanna be somebody to anybody else. im sick of being sensitive to people's feelings and end up hurting the 2 of us. really...

haiz. i've dreamt of erena twice. and in my dreams, she's always smiling, laughing and hooking my hand, talking crap to me. i promise i'll make up the broken friendship we shared. even if its scarred forever, i hoped its still linked.

yepps, that's about all i wanted to say. very long huh? got too many to say lah. yepps. see ya people....

anxious anxiety

2005-07-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

this thurs is my NSRS aka my doom day at macs. haiz. i can afford to fail but darling cant! haiz. im really scared. aiyoh... why must have NSRS??? i cant rmb anything tina said!!! NOTHING AT ALL!! DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

pls pray for us!! hope we'll pass smoothly and nicely!!

oh, pls keep my darling in your prayer too. he's been very stressed. =)

thanksss!!

overwhelming

2005-07-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

i slept for 13hrs today. and i still feeeeeel soooooo super tired. oh dears...

went to work late as usual. hahahs. not that im proud of it. mmm... did kitchen initially with razid. yepps. then urrmm... went to counter. coz.. i think shahrul would wan to work with razid. so i went into counter.

okies. this is for all HGPT CREWS. you are not supposed to BOSS people around. you may instruct them but dun boss them around. you dun have the authority nor the right to do so. you can ask politely if they can help you or not. but pls dun sound so irritated or arrogant or something. like you're so big. we are all crews. that's not the way of teamwork, if you wanna establish your position like you're more experienced, or like you're the next manager/crew leader or whatever nonsense, pls just scram. you are being so freaking idiotic and pissifying. it shows how f***ked up you are. so pls, no bossing around. i had enough of it.

oh, im so damn crude today. cant help lah.

today was a bad day. haiz. 1st, johnny bossed wei long around. ask him to do milo, ask him to wipe trays, ask him to do DC. you think he wonderboy arh? pls lor. somemore johnny think he's so big arh. yes, during a rush period, things tend to get abit messed up. but, you can use your big fat brain to think or not?? he dun have so many hands/legs to do whatever YOU WANT him to do. or izzit that your brain is too clogged by fats that you cant think that?? wah kao eh. so irritated by him. so i scolded johnny for wei long. yepps.

then next, to think i was sympathetic towards wei long. he himself boss my darling around!!! i warned you people working at HGPT now, dun you all bully my darling. i hate people who bully my darling, think he cant do this or do that? he's a talented person. he's much better than some of you. so dun you boss him around, think small of him or anything. respect him okies? he's always smiling and joking with you. do you think he deserves you people's this lowly treatment??? no!! okay? so dun bully my darling anymore. im warning you people now. next time if i see that again, i tell you , i'm gonna get you for it. hmph!

haiz. think my darling is really stressed today. haiz. he totally broke down today... coz wei long lah! he think he's so big arh? ask my darling to do this and do that. my darling help you okayy?? you're not even grateful for that. and somemore he did it WITHOUT ANY GRUMBLES! this is what you repay him arh???

haiz... im really worried about my darling. he's been quite moody these few days. stress i think. with his camps lah. then he has a interview to go for the student counsellor... then he still got school work. then NSRS... haiz. then i heard he wanna go for service ambassdor course. that's alot of work man.. im abit worried for him. haiz... i dun wanna see him break down again like today....... heart really aches man...

oh yes. im totally disappointed with the management team. real disappointed. pls, dun ask people to do this station, then suddenly ask them to do this station. then later ask them to go back to their old station. this is damn irritating okay? yes, i know, sometimes you need them in some special circumstances. BUT THIS IS NOT THE 1ST TIME I HEARD OTHER CREWS COMPLAINING ABOUT NOT GIVING SPECIFIC INSTRUCTIONS!! haiz! i can see that razid and shahrul werent really pleased with the management teams too. now darling also abit pek cek. haiz. you people arhh. haiz. so disappointed.

oh wells. was pissed again by people who asked for mayonise. nothin much happened lah. oh yes.. at night right, the usual pissifying customer came. aiyoh. he's such a nutritious freak!! yeah, so he ordered his usual chicken foldover without tomato and a apple. kao eh... then he complained to me that sometimes our CFO's ingredients gets out of the packaging. then he specifically ask it to be put nicely. yepps.

so i delivered him the CFO, hot. thanks to ren yong. hahas. then right, i served him the apple shahrul dropped. i thought it was in fine condition, but it was not!! and he saw thru that!! the apple was so red... it look sweet. but it was not!! haiz. so yepps, got him a new fresh apple.

yea. then i asked him for his name. Mr Saked. hohohoho. i hope i dun see him again.

today was a tiring and long day. was super jubliant when i finally went off. wahahahas. very tired. very very tired. shall sleep now.

jaaaaaa...

lack of sleep

2005-07-23T21:55:00.008+08:00

almost slept in the bus.. haha.. coz the temperature just nice... then the bus is not really that bumpy. yepps.

went to work at 11am. hrrm!! ytd i only slept 4 pathetic hours. you people shld know i must sleep at least 10hrs to boost my energy. wahh... so today damn grouchy and sleepy and tired. i was especially pissed when people ask for mayonise sauce. wah kao eh... me at counter 11, the counter which is the furthurest from that freaking fridge. then those customers kept asking for mayonise. mayonise that nice meh?? hope you people get choked onto the mayonise!

was quite crowded this early afternoon. yepps. went for my break rather early... yeahs. then i was talking to darling. yeah... he was, mm..what shld i say, he was really encouraging. yepps. i mean, he is confident in his future. he knows what he's doing, and what he's gonna do. yea... he asked me to go for it. i simply dun have any reasons or excuse to refuse or retort back. he almost convinced me. yea...

went back. nth much lah. then oh yea, there was this girl with her aunt. the girl was so thoroughly excited when she knew my name is the same as her. she was frantically grabbing her aunt's wrist and pointed at my name tag. hahaha. i was so amused that i kept laughing and laughing. hahahas.

oh yea. wei long cheat my feelings for 1 yr. he was AN AUNTIE!!! and all along, i/we thought he was a male!! BUT HE WAS NOT!! HE WAS AN AUNTIE IN DISGUISE!!!

how could you, wei long? cheat all our feelings...

yea, obviously we're just joking. yepps, me and wei long finally broke the cold war. i think i was rather petty. yeahs. now we're back on speaking terms, hahas, today's work was rather fun. :) oh yea, how did this tragic truth came about? coz wei long was in kitchen today. then the wai khum was doing lobby. wai khum was asked to throw away the cardboxes, so she got the push-cart and went for the boxes. but apparently, wei long stood in the way. so wai khum said,

"excuse me AUNTIE."

wahahahahas. so wei long is a female!!!!! oh gosh...hohohho... the secret wei long had been hiding has finally brought into light!! and its so... its soo... HORRIBLE!!

yepps. oh yea. both him and jia sheng love to touch my darling's butt. why huhs?? my darling butt so nice meh? kept touching him. now i even wonder whether he's a virgin or not? WAHAHAHAHAA. im just *ahem* joking. pardon the sensual[sexual] context above.

anyways, cynthia knew about me and darling lah. then she was so hyped up. kept saying things about us. hahahas. it was sooooo crappy that we kept laughing and laughing. ohyea, and cynthia's soooo cute today. she was like, 'oh! its 2 o'clock! time to skim!' in a very enthusiatic voice. hahaha. she loves to skim drawers. hahaha. and the way she spotcheck drawers also very cute. hahahas.

oh yea, she was an outstanding PC today. she was the PC for the crowd rush in the afternoon. coz ren yong went for break. then ren yong came back. you guys must have thought there'll be loads of products been owed. but wholly NO! you have forgotten who's the PC. its... CYNTHIA YEO! yepps. so she hand over the PC stand back to ren yong with the only product owed, which is doublecheese plain. yepps. so outstanding. pls appluase for cynthia yeo! *appluase*

lalala. mmm, nothing much happen then. except for some "dirty" interval in the kitchen. molly said she's gonna break wei long's apple pie for bullying me, if you know what it means. hahahaha.

then in the evening, banana came to visit. she arhh!! hmph!! joyce ask me to take B bag, but bcoz joyce in counter, me in storeroom, so i couldnt really hear her. then nana, being in the crew room, heard what joyce said. and she passed the message to me. she said joyce ask me to bring TEA bag. hmphhhh!!! aiyoh!! so maluating. grrrrrrr. all of them laughed at me lor. then razid and nana kept poking me. bleahs!!

speaking of razid... aiyoh... he today was in quite a foul mood because of a minor incident. i mean, yeahs... they shouldnt do this. but you no need to brood over it mah. seriously, razid is a STAR!! you should trust him... but obviously, none return the trust back to him. he was damn moody and easily pissed today. yepps.

nana went mad in crew room when i punch out. she kept shaking herself!!! aiyoh!!! such pollution to my eyes. my poor eyes....

so both of us kept laughing and laughing. laughed until joyce said that the big boss is coming and ask us to scram for our lives then we leave the place. yepps. went to buy some necessities, then went home.

im very tired now. i shall sleeeep as long as i want. mwhahahahaas.

oh wait, tmr im working at 2pm. oh DARN IT! ><#

p.s-> those who dun work at macs, the above darling refered to derrick, who is a good friend of mine. pls dun think too much. we are just being over friendly with each otherby calling each other 'darling' and 'sweetheart'. yepps.

i hoped nobody has puked all over their com screen. coz it'll take quite some time to clean it. yepps. mwhahahahas. jaaaaaa!

crammed

2005-07-23T06:29:00.000+08:00

doof, just cant see why so many people are worried over Os. its not due till next year. oh wells.

there's so many people out there, willing to lend a listening ear for me. like, there's nic, qin ai de, da jie, mandy, jun an blah blah. yet... i just couldnt voice myself.

had family nite at macs today. it wasnt that WONDERFOO, but yepps. its okayy.

perhaps maybe dosy and hotohome are abit too quiet for delphie. hah. delp gave me the same feeling when i met her for the 1st time. she gave me the feeling of cornelius fudge... pompous or whatever?? but delp is much much much much better than fudge of coz. yeahs.

cant see the point of the whole family nite thingy. yepps.

mmm.... mulan 2 was quite nice. though not so exciting as the 1st wan. its more focused on emotions and feelings.

i kind of feeling confused to everything i do and see and feel. im feeling abit like voldemort... eversince i knew his history. i realised i liked to work alone... yeahs... maybe some day later, i'll form a team call 'macs eaters'. wahahaha. im invincible!!

haiz. oh wells... there's so many muffled things... the future is bleak, man.

oh yea, im gonna change my parting as the same as nuriko. mwhahaha.

dead shit

2005-07-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

mwhahaha. i like the mulan song, the 'i'll make a man out of you.' its nicee. =)

mmm... viet called me to go down earlier. yeahs... so went there. did counter... okay lahs. not badd today. oh! i cant believe tmr's nielle kok's last day. aiyooo...

anyways.. today was fine lah. oh! there was this most absurd thing that happen today. got this father and his small son right... they came up to me and ask me the toy for the happy meal. he was asking if the robocop or wadeva is for sale or not. then of coz i say no lah. coz its not the time yet mah. then the little boy just pointed at me and said something, then he burst out crying.

aiyoh... its not my fault mahh... he make it like its my fault or something...

then got 1 customer. wah. laugh at my comment. coz there was this customer who bought 1 filet and he didnt want any plastic bags. he just took the filet away and ate it. then delp commented that the customer was rather hungry huh? then i told her im not used to customer not taking plastic bag. delp chuckles. then i continued.

"oh yeah. i also dun like customer who buys ice cream but dun take serviette. coz i think they are rather dirty. i mean you eat ice cream not need to wipe mouth wan meh?"

then the cutomer indah was serving laughed. ............ funny meh? yah wad. i dun believe your mouth wont get abit of ice cream around your mouth after you eat. even if there's not any stain of ice cream, you can always wipe your hand with that serviette mah. why must refuse the free serviette?

oh wells. nvm.

nielle kok was laughing uncontrollably at ren yong when he said he was a virgin. hahaha. she laugh and laugh and laugh. siao liao lah she. helped nielle kok stock up the sauces then left. almost forgotten neighbour's digi cam. yepps.

ayys, somehow i cant charge her cam lehs. the charger wont work!! gosh... oh wells.

im gonna be dead tmr. tmr is family's nite. and im supposed to meet nic they all to celebrate da jie's bdae!! dear me... haiz. whatever lah.

jaaaaaaa...

OHYEA! wah kao eh... i took a wrong turn in Maplestory that almost caused me to be dead. grrrrrr!

snails, slime, tree trunks and pigs

2005-07-21T03:11:00.000+08:00

i've played abt 4hrs of Maplestory just now. and i only managed to gain 2 lvl. and i died twice. its so damn retardd. and arh, my attacking is still so low. hmph! my bro only lvl 12, his attacking 76+ lor. mine only 46+. to think im 1 lvl above his. its so unfair.

on a good side, i've become a warrior/swordsman!! lalala. so nice. :)

okiesokies, today, i've been a good and a bad girl.

i was good today, coz i helped to clean the house up. i've swept and mopped the whole house today, like what i've promise my ah ma ytd. one thing bad abt sweeping and mopping in my house is that, the broomstick and the mop is damn short. im quite tall lah, den ask me to use such a short broomstick and mop. wahh, my back damn aching sia.

its okay lah, it shows at least how filial i am. mum was so shocked that i've actually cleaned the house up. mwhahahaa.

got a stomachache after i eat that pandan cake. coz i think my hand still got the floor detergent. that's why my stomach hurts. but its nth serious la.

went to work today. was super late. hahaha. yea. mmm... went to counter 1st. poor shankie [now i shall call shankar, shankie. mwhahaha.] was alone at the counter front. hahahas. so.. went to join him.

yepps, nth much happen lah. ohyea, attention to all HGPT crews, pls do not down fries on delphie's shift. esp. when she's service manager. coz she'll go hysterical. MWHAHAHA.

oh yes, i like to laugh at delp's laughter. coz hahaha, it sounded funny. kinda contagious though... mwhahaha.

okies, i know i was rather bad today during work. as in, haiz. nvm. i just knew this would happen. afterall, its no longer the same mah. how can i see it as like before.

kinda dread counter today. coz, today, the whole lobby was flooded by students. STINKING students somemore. everytime go send out products must pass by them. eeeew...

was quite happy in the kitchen for that 45mins. i was thinking of staying there but i changed my mind after 2nd thought. IM NOT GOING TO WORK WITH PIN PIN'S BESTFRIEND IN THE KITCHEN. the CC. bleahs... ask him cook 6 mck patties, he'll ask, 'cook 8 izzit??' hmph!!!!! cannot understand english har? or my english too powderful?? or my english doesnt sound like english??? or doesnt sound like a singaporean??? sickers. baa baa black sheep! ><#

i wasnt really glad, or in fact should i say, not happy at all, to see that person here. i thought that person is only here to help out... who knows... that person stayed on... im not being petty or wad, but, even nana dont like that person. urrrghh. sickening people.

did counter. again. yea. coz shankie went for break. oh yes, this is for you, mr PIN. when im irritated, when i ask you to stop talking to me, its means YOU STOP TALKING TO ME. hmph! make me so irritated. wat is wrong with me talking with shankar? yah lah yah lah. talk in counter front. yah lah. i do the fries wrongly lah. yah lah yah lah. but SO WHAT? i know you're trying to live up to your CL position. but, aiyah. just stop correcting me! i dun wan to know, okay? i dun give any deal about procedures. all the more, kana scolded by managers lah. i wasnt properly trained by anybody. im not like you, i dun read SOCs. or shld i say, i dun have any SOC to read. i know you have passed whatever NSRS you've done. but, just stop telling me all these things lah. its gets me irritated and jumpy on my NSRS too. i dun wan so much pressure on myself. haiz.

be glad i didnt lose my temper today. or did i?

oh wells...

yeah. i know im being rather bad today. esp. towards pin pin. but aiyah. NSRS is just 1 week later. haiya.

punched out. then delphie gave me my WPR. yea. quite satisfied with my performance. from 50 range jump to 60 range. not bad le. at least its a high good. yea.

talked with delphie after WPR. haiz. was confused again. haiz. delp asked the same qn as tina... haiz. i mean... haiz. i just think that, i wont be as good as the others. i cant set an example for others to follow. if you wan to learn those wrong things, of coz can follow me lah. budden... haiz. i was almost set on quitting after july. haiz. but, aiyah. i dunno what to say lah. but i seriously think that all the managers are blinded lah. im not capable at all. serious. half the time is im bullshitting around. im not a talent. dun think too highly of me pls... haiz.

oh wells... joyce is going to follow up on all my stations. yea. the prob with me not able to get an excellent is that, my SOC is damn bad. yes, i know that. so joyce is going to teach me all over again i think. a follow up on everything?

oh yea, joyce's comment on my WPR is very funny. she wrote, 'she is keen to learn new stations by her own.' 1st thing, its, 'on her own', not 'by her own.' kaez? yepps. and what does she meant by this?? i ask delp and she said, it means that i dont have a proper training for every station i learn but i manage to do the task. oh yea. is that a compliment or a criticism?? bah!

oh well.... i dunno. sometimes i really cant stand macs anymore. haiz. not so fun after all... ...

OH YEA!! FAMILY NITE!!! hah hah! i was invited! urrrrghhh. not looking forward at all. haiz. family not free lah. maybe asking dosy and someone to go. someone preferably stay near HGPT lah. dun make it so ma fan for them. yea.

okies nuriko. you better sleep now. tmr gotta return library books. its due tmr. see ya ppl.

resolution after today's events.
-dont let allow your emotions control your mind.
-be nice to people, even if they are bad to you.
-must be as nice as shankie. yeahs.

jaaaaaa.